Que feriez-vous si vous étiez dans l'amour avec quelqu'un qui n'était pas dans l'amour avec vous ?
ive lost a bit of weight- i can see the diff in the mirror(even though the image is still eeewy....) too bad we dont have a scale here..... id love to see how much i weigh now......
i ate.... lets see... toast and chips today... and then ended up throwing it all up...... so its all good anyway...
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::A tribute to Danny:::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Sorry I never told you
All I wanted to say
And now it's too late to hold you
'Cause you've flown away
So far away
Never had I imagined
Living without your smile
Feeling and knowing you hear me
It keeps me alive
Alive
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
Together
One sweet day
Eventually I'll see you in heaven
Darling, I never showed you
Assumed you'd always be there
I took your presence for granted
But I always cared
And I miss the love we shared
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
Eventually I'll see you in heaven
Although the sun will never shine the same
I'll always look to a brighter day
Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep
You will always listen as I pray
And I know you're shining down on me from heaven
Like so many friends we've lost along the way
And I know eventually we'll be together
One sweet day
(for those of you who missed this entry)
It's gonna be 5 years this 26th since my friend Daniel Angelito Xaviere- Rodriguez(His mom is French- Xaviere was her last name, his "dad" is Spanish- Rodriguez is his last name, and I dont know why they chose Angelito) shot himself..... it's been such a long time................... God, I can't believe I was 13 when that happened...
Danny didn't lead a very good life.... He was born with Cystic Fibrosis(a terminal illness that basically fills your lungs with mucus, phlegm, and other shit like that) and his dad left him and his mom because of that- he basically said it was Anna's(angel's mom) fault that their son was like that.... but OMG.... you would never think that ever phased Danny unless you really really knew him like I did.... He was my best friend...I was the only one who knew how depressed he was over his dad leaving... But to everyone else, he just seemed like a well-adjusted young man with an incredibly black sense of humor.... That included his mom.... But I never thought I'd walk into his house one day and find him laying on his bed, unrecognizable.... my god, we were only 13 and 15 years old...(I was 13, and he was 15)...You would never think your best friend who you'd known for almost your whole life would do that to themselves....
You know...I should have known it was going to happen... I knew he wasnt happy, and I knew he wasn't getting any better.... I mean, looking back, I should have known something was up when he kept trying to give me his stuff that I knew he loved.... His stereo...his bear from when he was born that his dad had bought before he left... and he kept telling me he loved me... He even brought up what would happen if he died...he started telling me he loved me, and.........just everything...... I should have known... why didn't I know?
You just...you just think that if you love someone enough, it'll be ok... and it's NOT. | 
