I'm yarr Betch.

Note: I wrote this entry about a week ago.

Oh. My. Ass. I didn’t imagine the absence of internet would inspire me to write for Xanga…. again. Haha! I have no idea why I can’t connect to the internet right at this moment. I guess I’m just that unlucky.

OR.

Maybe my paps didn’t pay the bill on time. This is sucha bore. Thanks to my father; now I’m writing. So here are some fresh stories of my betch life.

[UPDATE ONE.]

I’m off for some Community Visitation tomorrow so Karin told me to get my ass up early to school so we can finish with the Operating Room Return Demo & fly to that place after. Then we’ll come back home and head there again as a whole group now on this coming Wednesday. I can’t believe majority of my friends were on the other groups that’ll go to some other place. Gossh. It’s just so unfair. Thank God I have Miken, KC and the others with me. And scanning through the boys in my group, there are apparently zero hot guys for me. One of Arlene’s crush is there though. If only we could exchange [ahem] or better, our crushes could exchange groups. Hah. Let’s just see what’s gonna happen.

[UPDATE TWO.]

And something’s missing. I just don’t know what it is in particular. OR I actually know it; the thing is, I’m denying it. I’m confused. So yeah, whatever. Just talk to me if you want.

[UPDATE THREE.]

Just recently, I had been honestly stalking this magnetic Japanese actor Toma Ikuta. He is love. I first saw him in Hana Kimi Japan version. Like okay, I’ve said in the last post that the Taiwanese version does it, but the DVD I got from Aileen was Japanese. No regrets though. Despite the things I have read on someone else’s blog that he’s a cigarette-smoking body, which is something not to believe at once, I still look forward to meeting him like for real. HAHAHAHA! Betch.

[UPDATE FOUR.]

Say in “local” life, you know, forgetting about all the foreign actors, I still like the same person. I failed miserably 21369784627647822346 trying to replace him. We don’t talk to each other. Okay. That’s enough of the korni stuff.

[UPDATE FIVE.]

I and my BITZ went out and watched Shutter. It’s actually the American version of the Thai movie, Shutter. LOL. The thing is that the movie was shifted from Thai to Japanese. I guess the Thai situation should have been maintained; isn’t it about time to also acknowledge other Asian countries especially if it’s originally from them? I don’t know the reason why it was that way but yeah that’s my opinion. Well. Anyway, I missed my BITZ big time so that time we didn’t waste a sec. laughing and talking about nasty things. Laar’s sucha lucky betch; she got accepted in a call center/ organization while all of us other girls are stuck at school.  After, we walked down Session Rd. and went back up to Zola only to find out we were meant to seat near the entrance, like that is so UN-pretty so of course we walked out after warming those seats. We ate at Volante instead- with Ilehbebs on the HOTSEAT. It was already midnight when I reached home.

[UPDATE SIX.]

Oh. & I have been trying really hard to quit smoking and abstain drinking for a while. Fortunately, I did well on both. I don’t know when’s the next time I’m gonna go party with them. The youth from our church came to our place several times to check on me. Someone said I had to do something with it before I become totally dependent. Like I’ve heard some serious cases and they’re really scary and seen my father suffer from the late effects of his alcoholism when he was still on his 20s 30s, I guess. I sure don’t want that thing happen to me, but I’m not saying that I’m not gonna drink anymore. Or else I’m gonna eat my word in the end again. So yeah, all work and no play makes a betch dull; all play and no work makes a betch dull too. Hah, then I thought these are mature issues already. Gaah, I’m getting older.

[UPDATE SEVEN.]

My sister sent me an SMS telling me someone was looking for me at home. [I’m now at my pap’s office] I think it’s Toma! Haha. Ma-feels. It intrigues me like it’s not usual that someone would go look for me this late so yeah I better go home now and not keep that person waiting.

That’s all for now. That was long, I know. & I made it seven cuz I suppose six is a bad number. Haha. Especially when you triple it according to them people. xoxo.

Prétentieux + Taiwanese Series.

Prétentieux  = Pretentious.

It's so lame, and I have no idea why you keep telling other people you think it's shallow, when in fact it was you who came up with this puzzle and this SMS telling some sorts of childish stuffs. It's a big contradiction. The things you did and the things you're saying to other people. Like you say it's funny? but before you actually reacted otherwise---- with those badmouthing? Dang. I exactly know how you want it to appear to other people, and I'm upset everytime I think of it.

Anyway, I finished Coffee Prince just before the exam so I overestimated the time. Hah! It's all funny, sentimental, and sweet at the same time. I'm planning to watch Hana Kimi (The Taiwanese version does it). It's quite the same with Coffee Prince though the girl's real sexuality in Hana Kimi is revealed on the earlier parts. And maaaannnnn! The guy's really cute. That's what it's all about. LOL. I thought the girl was not that attractive like her japanese counterpart, but well now I guess she's okay.

 Ugh. Adorable.

I'm Finally Updating.

So after “Jurassic years” [as Venus has termed it], I’m getting my blog updated. I haven’t been posting b/c I had nothing to tell. LOL. I mean, my life has just been going to school, and either going home, going to my father’s office, or going with them friends ‘till the sun comes up. There’s really nothing new. Though I have this gap with other folks, I won’t be spilling it here. I can talk about any personal matters on this blog, but private matters should be kept private, I guess.

I’m trying to finish Coffee Prince right now, but I’d be done with it after the final examination period that’s next week. Argh! I hate taking exams, like who would want to? Except the geniuses. Haha. Kidding.

But after that, we would be free for roughly one week. Though, I’m still excited for summer. No exams. No assignments. Just house chores and FUN! Hahah! At the same time, I’d be missing some people. That’s what makes me dislike and love the coming short vacation. Well, así es la vida. C’est la vie. Così è la vita. Ganun ang buhay. Or in English, that’s life. I seem to be bored, I know. Haha!

This post is pretty senseless. I hope you can comment still.

So yeah. ‘till here. XOXO.

New Year Confessions

Well, I don’t actually get this New Year resolutions. I guess after some time, I would be eating some of my promises. It just sucks, and it’s very shameful…. both to others and to myself. SO I wouldn’t have this unending list now; I’ll just have one simple resolution:

TO DO SELFLESS LOVE TO THOSE PEOPLE WHO DESERVE IT AS MUCH AS I CAN. At least, in some ways, I’d be able to fulfill this promise.

Some of my early award-winning Broken-New-Year-Promises for 2008 are:

♥ To quit smoking. I have been serious with this. I MUST stop before the year starts, but then I didn’t. I smoked 23458472493856 or so sticks since New Year’s Eve. It MUST little by little stop. I have seen this smoker’ body & it’s such a horror.

♥ To stop having a dirty mouth. It’s a sin, but sometimes, jokes are just so bare without a little of ‘em.

♥ To prevent myself from secretly reading my sister’s text messages from her boy, then calling her a bitch after. So okay, she says it’s invasion of privacy and I’m like, “Spell privacy.” before finally turning my back. Hah_.

♥ To go back to Youth Nights at church. I’m so ashamed I haven’t even attended for months now; I know I missed a lot.

♥ To stop having binges. Yeah, in food. When I’m at home, sometimes I starve myself to death that when I go out, I eat like a BIG FAT pig. That instead of losing weight, I’m actually gaining. Ugh. I don’t have any disorders though.

♥ To learn to say “no”. Especially when we go for night outs, I just can’t afford to miss the fun, but sometimes, I really need to let some pass. Like the worst I did was having 4 night sessions in a row. That is, going home only to change clothes and take a good bath. Heh_.

The talent-LESS person = Me. + Birthday

Oh. This gon’ be longer than the usual. It’s a birthday blog for me, I guess.

Since grade school everybody was on this stage where they sort of discover & develop their gifts, while I won’t even discover one for myself. Mann, I’m wretched. LOL. And so there were athletes, singers, dancers, name them! in highschool. And there was I, just a pretty little talentless girl still tying to sit in the FRONTROW, in front of them all. Haha. Ma-feels.

Anypeks, I actually know how to play certain sports, but I’m not this person with high athletic powers, unless given with Viagra maybe. HAHAHAHA! Kidding. Are there even Viagras for females in the first place? Hahah.

But you would like to see this talentless girl turn 18 w/o any superpowers but with great friends. I have my BITZ, the w2 guys, and them who surprised me. They had this uber surprise last December 18. Please excuse me in case I’ll show off; this really made me happy.

//So their plan went this way:

STEP 1: They made me believe they were planning a surprise on December 20, two days after the actual surprise so I would expect on a different date.

STEP 2: While they were planning, they would avoid eating/ hanging out with me after classes, and unlike before, nobody was messaging me asking where to meet up.

STEP 3: On the day, Laura said she was going to introduce her new boyfriend so I met up with her and her sister, Kharissa. Her sister left. While we waited for thismysterious un-existing guy, Laura was texting the others to get ready.

STEP 4: Laura said we’d rather meet up in another resto. We went there not finding her boyfriend. So while waiting [again] she asked me to go with her to the nearby track-and-field arena while she’d smoke.

STEP 5: Laura was texting them to keep still b/c we were approaching. While walking I stepped on a muddy part that made me scream. That, gave the others the signal we were really on the area.

STEP 6: Laura walked me to the center of the running field where I saw this black figure that I thought was a tent/ sleeping cow/ sleeping horse/ whatevs. It was not moving, I swear. Then, the place suddenly lightened up ‘cause they held big sparklers [“lusis” in Filipino terms] while standing and shouting happy birthday.

I was so dumbfounded that I sat on the ground, but Laura was pulling me to them. All I said was, “OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! How dare you!” I repeated this line all through out. I saw Miken, Kharissa who left us earlier, and all of them. AND THE FOODS, MAN!

STEP 7: When I calmed down, Ferdi came to me with his phone. I read a file that said “4 Kypler”. She let me watch it, and I saw it was my more-than-one-year crush now. Eeee! The others kept quiet while I repeated it. We screeched after the video! Oh man, I died.

STEP 8: We ate.

STEP 9: Other gifts. Haha! The photo frame had these mini photos of me, gosh. How vain, they got it from my Friendster. Laura gave me a tiny mask that was halved into black and yellow I think. She says it’s me and my crush.

STEP 10: Since we were on the center of the track-and-field arena, we star gazed. That was sweet.

I think that having the best life is not having the best talents; though talent can really get you somewhere. It’s having the best persons. You see, though I can only play 5 chords in the guitar and sing only in shower, I’m still fortunate that I have people like these despite my talentless position. It’s when you’d thank God you have them, and it’s when you realize that they’re more than your talents.

And so I thank God for letting me experience my BITZ; the w2 guys; them who surprised me big time; my family; and a crush who allowed himself to be videoed, greeting me happy birthday, though he doesn’t really like me. I thank God I’m now 18 and I have these guys.

For the pekpeks out there who wanna see my crush that I had been talking about all the time, HERE’S A VIDEO that they used as one surprise during my last bday:

Oh wait, he seems forced in this. Haha.

::EDIT [ 03. 30. 08]

Okay. So I have to update this just b/c some people might be reading this. I have to clarify that in this point I have less feelings for this guy already. && yea, I won't delete the video. I would just have to say this. There.

-xoxo.