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| i might be sppeaking too soon but...i think things are gonna get a little bit better around here...
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| so, i just noticed...that i am exactly like my dad...
dont get me wrong, i looove my dad to death, but i juss noticed really interesting similarities.
soo right now, hes currently in the Phills. and wen i talked to him a few days ago, he told me that he was really lonely and that he was feeling really sad. and soo i asked him, y d0oesnt he go with any of his family, and his answer was "nahh i dont want to." then i asked him if they know he's even there? and his answer just happen to be "no". i found that super interesting! cuase the same thing happend to me during the summer. i had come back from san jo, buh none, well juss my mom and brother, dint no i came back til a day later. i no i no, "a day... whooo hooo!" lol i dont no... i still dont no what to do with whole situation. i eamn its gottne down to her not taking me to school, and not asking me to do certan things with her. fakk it hurts. and i dont no how im going to fix it. i no i have to change! i no i do.... buh its soo fakkking hard. [really badd] i just cant wait until this all passes.oh and with kairos comming up, it hink that would be a GREAT thing for the both of us. i mean, i get to spend 3 nights and 4 days with the people i LOOOVE to be with, whoo make me laugh and totally forget all my problems. | | |
| . . ."so i found out that i'm a selfish person. i tend to hurt people that care about me the most, without even knowing it..."
...a really interesting fact that he told me, and its true coming from both of us. But i never thought that id be agreeing with it, until now. last night was fun. but i made these decisions that hurt both my mom and brother. now im left with knowing that my brother doesnt even wanna talk to me anymore and mom thinking that i was abused when i was little, and thats y she thinks thats the reason "i turned out to be like this!". I no everyone makes mistakes, we're only human, right?! But i fucked up! and now i dont no how im going to be able to fix this... | | |
| christmas time is near!ahhh yes...
CHRISTMAS!!! i cant wait!! 8 MORE DAYS!!!
well, actually, i guesss the day that i cant really wait for is the last day of school.
uhh i have grown to hate school more and more. the teachers, the work, uhh and hearing drama... is NOT working for me anymore!
AND THEN, u have to "study" during break?!
uhh uhhh...NOT COOL!!!
i hate how they scheduled finals after break! that juss ruins everything! how are u supposed to have a "vacation/break" wen you have finals to worry about when u get back?!
gahh my school is ridiculous!
ookk..i no i no, im complaining too much!
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soo like the i noticed the most asked question during this time of the year is "so wat do u want for christmas?"
and soo i was thinking about wat i really want for christmas. i came to a conclusion that i dont relllly want anything. i mean, dont get me wrong shoes, clothes and money i will gladly take, but i guess all i really want...him. ewww.
uhh dont even get me started with him!
i've also grown to liek him...A LOT!!
sometimes i think im even in love with him.... UHHH!!!
i hate himm soo mcuh!!!
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soo much has happend to us... well, not really sure yet...buh wat can happen really worrid him wen i told him the news... and like im more worried aboout hiom!!! uhh i hate how i care so mcuh about this guy!! and like especially right now, i worry about him more than me! uhhhhhhskjfagnds faghiusb gldfhbva;sjk erwfvnhaudvjbga;usagh uhh iw anna no if hes ok. i wanna no how he did on his final. i wann ano if hes gonna try to see me this week. i wanna no wat hes thinking [even tho hes told me so many times]. i wanna no if eveything is gonna b ok between us.
yeah... u no wat?! thass wat i want for christmas! i want an answer to tthat question. hopefully, hopefully, ill get to no...
ok soo i juss noticed it took me a few hours to do this blog! i hate getting all sidetracked! haha
alrighty... night night.
<3 justineadrienne
10:55pm
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| soo...todays my first day of work!
i start at 5 and i get out at friggin 12:30am!
Crrrazy!!
buh uhm...im not too nervous!
i was buh the older brother gave a lttle pep talk! haha
how nice!
its soo funny how everyone at job #2 found out bout me leaving!
i onlee told one person, and almost the whole weekend staff found out!
funny how word travels in like a split second!
oh well...i didnt really mind!
it just amazed me!
i think the onlee thing that bothered me was that
johnny had to find out thru word of mouth...supoosedly!
buh i guess its juss one less things i have to tell him!
ahh i have to sleep!
onlee had a few hours!
gotta save my energy!
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