Currently Listening A Rush of Blood to the Head By Coldplay see related

I haven't written in a while and I probably wont for a little longer. he he, but my life is going extremely well.

This day has been so odd but great. I have a million songs stuck in my head and I want to scream them out but it is to late at night in my house and people are tired and it would be annoying. Sometimes in the middle of night when I am restless I go down stairs when the whole entire house feels like a dream because the only sound is the sound of my feet and the fire or the crickets outside along with the buzzing of our refrigerator, even with all that noise it seems like a home, it is a picture moment except no one knows which makes it my way of excape. You know how people have special places to be alone? Well sometimes in  a large family that is harder because a younger sibbling or some one has already been there so that takes the secretiveness out of it or a younger sibbling follows you around to find it. So at night when the house is asleep the entire world is my special hiding place. I can just sit and think over things or just walk around. It is not always that I feel restless like this but when I do and can't sleep it is nice to have my special world of night ready and waiting for it's special guest. My favorite is when we have a fire going. Fire is soo beautiful. It is a sighn of so many things it is ironic we look at a wood stove and the fire is a symbol of safty and warmth of a home but fire is also a symbol of destruction forest fire and the coming of Christ. I would describe fire as a cleanser is clenses the house of  coldness and lonliness clenses  the woods of over growth and helps the trees grow, and the clenses the world when Christ comes. It is so awing to look at fire. It is hypnotic. In my little world of night the fire always seems better. It's like I catch it in it's prime when no one is whatching and it is dancing and blazing around the wood just for me. Well to night I am not restless so I'm going to go to bed.

Currently Listening Anthology of see related

 Today has been pretty normal pretty great I am obsessed right know with being a body guard it is just sooo much fun. I am not going to talk about that. I am going to say tribute to my Big Sister Johanna. She makes me laugh sooo hard my side hurts. When we were younger we didn't get along very well because I was always preaching to her and tellin her what was right and wrong. However she always looked out for me. One night I was really scared and I could not sleep and Johanna took me through the entire house and should me all the places I was afrade of and should me that there was nothing to be afrade of. She also like most wonderful big sisters embarrassed me alot like having me lie about my age to our cute neighbor boy so he would ask me out.( we have matured alot since then) I think ahah jk. She has been my mentor through so much  I don't know what I would do without her she is the life of all of us sisters she completes  us, and is the laugh that makes us smile in the morning, and the breath of fresh air after being cooped up in a school house four days of the week. I  love her so much.

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