the youth rally was AWeSOME the music was LOUD and there was LIMITED SPACE up at the alter ... awesome

i am so insainly happy tonight. its actually a kind of high. to see God working through me. At first i didn't believe he would ever actually do something through me. for most of my life i have been either ignored or purposly left out because im not deemed sophisticated enough to do anything . ive always been 'just a silly girl'. im to happy, hyper, i enjoy life too much. no one ever really started trusting me until reasently. ive come to expect that no matter what i do, i won't really be trusted, not even at church sometimes. but God knows me. he knows that i can do great works through him. and for somereason, he trusts me and ive just as good as slapped his face countless times. through him i have a purpose. and i actually am doing things through him! i don't know why people do drugs. an opened bible and a song of praise, the beginings of the ansers to my prayers, mine...God actually cares for a silly girl like me enough to answer the prayers ive been praying since august....through me. i am actually being used by God!!!!!! and through this come the joy and peace of God that is better than any drug on this earth. its even better than a cannoli.

yea i know none of any of that made any sence...

jesus i beleve in you/ and i would go/ to the ends of the earth/ for you, lord are the son of God/and all the world will see/ you are God/ you are God

and i won't hide it I WONT HIDE IT!!!!!