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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 23:48:31 GMT

why is that this has to happen?

it really isnt fair? thats not the right word. w/e. idk how to say wut i want to say.. but i know it makes no difference. it felt so good while it lasted.. i guess it always has to be like this for me. well. this was the last time. from now on, it wont control me, ill control it.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 22:57:13 GMT

why is that people ask y u care about them?

why is that you cant give them a reason?

what makes someone love someone?

what makes it different from caring about someone?

why do these questions seem so confusing.. and make you feel lost.

cuz thats whats going on in my head.

Friday, November 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Nov 2005 11:15:31 GMT

not confused anymore... w/e... im tired. i will fight no more forever.. as Cheif Joseph once said.

this book is amazing... i wish i were a military genius.. i wouldnt have to stay on earth.. but live in the battle school... away from stupid problems.

i dont care if u read it whenever.. wtf did u understand of it? nothing. so just fuck off. u dont know shit.

Friday, November 11, 2005

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 22:11:44 GMT

ACC's tomorrow!!!

alot of stuff has happened in the past few weeks.. and its really ironic some of it.. ill leave it at that.. cuz well.. details usually cause conflict.

i actually sat around/ went to band practice all week... didnt do any homework.. which im repenting rite now...

well. idk wut else to say.. i mean.. tehres so much.. yet not that much good can come out of it.. so theres no point in puttin salt on a wound.. just let it be.

big tomorrow... whose not goin to get enough sleep.. MEE!!

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Sun, 02 Oct 2005 15:27:47 GMT

you such a fucking SLUT! god damn bitch.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Tue, 20 Sep 2005 19:28:23 GMT

finally have a moment to update. Its been like a week and a half since school started and ive spent more time on hw then i did for like the first half of the school year last year. Schools not bad, just tiring. Get to see and talk to people that i didnt over the summer its cool. Schedule is still messed up, but i guess i'll live.. Enough about school...

marching band is goin to kick ass. So much potential in the show this year, so much talent, and so much fun. Whole show is being presented to tob at first competition, its to be amazing. Still alot of work left, but its promising.

What can i say, ud think that people might change, might learn to accept things, but no. Some people seriously just piss me of. I guess thats my biast opnion then, seeing how everyone else doenst see what i see. Oh well, its old and stupid, and its just goin to be forgotten.

I think i like someone, but thats so clouded i dont know if its true or not. I see and talk to her everyday, but theres someone else.. who is closer im guessing. i dont know whats going on between them, and i dont want to intrude. I dont want to be the one to steal the girl, ive had that done to me and it really sucks. its not fair, and i dont think i could do it to someone else, no matter what. So we'll see how things go. Not in any rush to fall into a realationship at the moment, i like flying solo. You just get to see people in a different light, and its well idk the word. but yeah. And anyway, right now, i dont have time to for it.. too much goin on..

well i think thats suffices for a decent entry.

-Smallville season premier September 29, at 8. (goin to be amazing)

-Alias season premier September 29, at 8 (goin to be awesome)

-One Tree Hill season premier October 5(?) (prolly cnt watch cuz of band. )

Yeah, those are like the shows i watch on tv, laugh if u want, i could careless.

Saturday, August 20, 2005

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 22:27:25 GMT

"vaca" was decent. the beaches were awesome, caught some nice looking girls. wow. they look nice but when they speak.. omg.. cnt understand anything. ha. beauty but no brains like usual. o well.. my eyes were pleased, my ears dont have to be.

theres only like 2weeks of summer, which blows, didnt get to do alot of things that i wanted. i need to start keepin promises to myself..

Saturday, August 13, 2005

Sat, 13 Aug 2005 18:26:46 GMT

VA and MD for the week.

-i still am confused.. and i think you are too.. idk what to say.. u've probably thought of anythin that i could say.. cuz of ur "amazing mind reading abilities" lmfao!

byeee!

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 18:54:57 GMT

im so confused.. i dont know what to do. i think that there is more to talk about.. and that txting just doesnt cover it.. sigh. when you get back.. i think we should talk so more.. mm.. until then.... txting mania starts!! hah.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 21:42:34 GMT

ok. i think more than a 1 line entry is due this time. :-p

i got an A for my math class!! thank god. i though i did horrible on the final. but i guess not. ive been driving alot, and its just amazing. idk what the rule is for passengers.. but i think ive broken it more than a dozen times.. how about every other time i drive. . band practice started last wed. practice tomor. should be good. hopefully get to work w/ the brass section as a whole and not just like the mellos and beginner trumpets, no offense anyone, and not that im the greatest player in the world, but id like to see where i stand up to.

i wanted to do soccer this year, cuz volleyball is def not goin to happen for me.. i think the coach hates me or something. but.. w/ all the classes and band, its goin to be crazy, and i might start workin too, so thats not any help either. well. idk what else to say.

oh. and you.. leavin like taht.. psh.. for wat 2 weeks!!! soo not fair. lol. j/k. hope u have a great time.. and yeah. .u better be careful.. cuz ur u. spaz.. well.. i dont think theres any point comin online if ur not goin to be here.. so prob wont be on for some time..

well. id say thats a good enough entry for a while. so update whenever.