I got my period for the first time in 1 year and I do not miss it! It's so gross. Blah! It's weird cause I was hoping it would not appear until maybe another year from now. I just feel like it's all too heavy for me. Imagine...four months of stuff trying to come out. That's how I look at it. Kinda gross but seriously! I had some supply left over from before but I bought some more and I can't decide whether I am interested in tampons or pads. If one is more comfy over the other. So far...I feel that either way they are both not attractive.

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So our house has been under construction for one month now! Seriously, I'm tired of seeing my stuff in plastic. And the people who are doing it comes when they please. It's our time and not yours! HELLO!!! Anyhow, I just feel that sometimes family mistakes doing work for you allots for being able to act unprofessional. I love the fact that the hot water is running A LOT better but still...I am hardly in favor for running in between clean and dirty laundry. My sister went upstairs today and said, "Geesh Maria, that's the messiest I've ever seen you." Oh and the other thing family thinks is okay is that you can work and leave your trash around. I know meeka people are more expensive but I can say that they would not have the liquid metal pieces flying everywhere to dry where ever it lands. Yeah, that's nasty. Or maybe I'm just anal about the cleanliness around me since it's already a little critter town that I have to deal with and the last thing I like to see is that its dirty and I didn't do it. I have thought of cleaning it but I decided to suck it up for a little longer so that when they finish it can stay clean versus them coming back to dirty it. Lets hope they decied that there's an urgency and finish it within the next week.

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A little early but it's my bday next month....and I don't know what I want to do. I was thinking since it is my first birthday with Evan that I will spend it with him but then I was thinking I should go out too. There's a new place I would like to check out. We'll see how things go when next month rolls around and how I'm feeling then....

Here's him at the beginning....



Here's him at the end of the day....

Yes, I definitely can tell that my hair is falling out!!! I said to Linda...can you tell? Cause I have short hair and she said yes...and YES I CAN TELL!!! OMG! I'm like combing my hair and all this hair is combed out with it. I say its a part of the reposition of the body. I'm a little okay with it. I am not excited for the baby hair growth though. Maybe my bangs will just cover it up?

My July 4th will be spent at the soccer field. Setting up and what not. I'm dropping Evy off with Penny. I'm a little nervous cause of where we'll be that I will have to work extra hard to find places to pump. And I have to bring a cooler. It's so weird how much more luggage you have to carry. I need to stay afloat so that I won't loose that milk!!! I'm going into 3.5 months and I have started to produce less but I'm trying to hang in there. Making little milestones for myself so I don't feel like it's going to be forever before I am not going to do it. I can't lie, I love it when he starts fishing for the nipple to latch on. Not in a gross way or anything but just a bond. Now when he eats his eyes are open unlike before he would just be falling asleep then be in deep sleep but he just stares at me and I back at him....I am still amazed some days when I find myself trying to find a name for Evan to call me when the name is "mommy". Some say that it'll hit me more so when Evan does call me "mom". My sisters and I always say how he feels like a child that we are taking care of except he's not going any where. It's still surreal. Especially his growth! Like yesterday he was just so little and now he's my little big boy. Growing SO fast. Learning SO fast. Evan's awesome! :D

Tangent but yeah...my weekend will be busy helping my parents out. They want me to open the store at the Int'l Market place but I don't think there will be anyone there. Evy and I may not go to the field cause it'll be too hot for our chubby selves. Seriously, it's not fun to feed him when I'm hot and he's making me hotter. Plus, I cover his little head so that no one is like EW! So yeah...blanket over us TOO! Way too much going on. I'm not missing anything except probably some different vendors that may serve different foods then what is usually offered at the flea market. OH WELL...maybe next year when Evan's older or something.