hmmm....well...

I can't sleep i keep thinkin about the same damn thing over n over.. and i'm gonna go crazy... school starts tomarrow...errr... crazy winter break...

so i did somethin i regret alot... and it really has made me realize a lot of things and what i really do want. it such a good feeling to kno finally what i want...but we'll see....

i still can't sleep

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Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
[Chorus]

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
[Chorus]

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
[Chorus]

welpp....

News for the month- Anna is moving in with me!!! YAY!!! She's the new addition to our family now I have a 2nd sister!! well.. i already considered her that before but now its more in act. more news...... I got a new J-O-B! stillw working at Tan world which I love but  I will be working nights at Fuel... kinda late hours but It'll be tons of fun. ever seen Coyote Ugly? yeah its like that at night! haha. so my new income is the dance contest at Radius on Friday nights...lol... I keep winning it and i get 100 bucks CASH ... you like dem aPpLeS?

otherwise me n Steven are doing wonderful.... things are going pretty good the sun is finally shining in Rachel's world... (wow that was kinda dumb soundin) haha.

CHRISTMAS my favorite time of the year how bout yours?? I love goin shopping for ppl i love... its just fun to me... cuz well shoppin is always fun for your self or some1 else for me atleast.

been havin lots of fun... and if you do to then You'll give me a call!!!

Love ya LOTS,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

Rachie Faye

Wow....

Deffinatley been awhile..... been pretty busy. Taking care of my health and many other things. I'm back at school, and things are going a lot better. I'm finally back on track and my red carpet has rolled out... haha... everything just seems to be goin right into place. Things have really turned around in my life and I'm very thankful for it. Thanks to all of you who have helped me out and been there for me this past month n a half.... its helped me a lot....

I gotta new baby..... hehe....

hey guess what I LOVE ANNA... that crazy woman you... haha I dunno if you ever look at my xanga tho?? hmmm... but if you do I LOVE you and your fevers...lol... i love fevers..... its a lot of fun.... lol hahahahahhhaha.....

2 more of my photos were excepted into an art gallery.... yay! pretty cool... I was in the paper not to long ago for my first one that won 1st place in a show.... pretty psyched about that...

hit me up cuz I'm back.....

Love,

Rachie Faye

uhhh wow... i deffinatley don't rmember writing those last two entries?? mayeb sumone else did... thats fuckin wierd....

Yah been goin thru alot right now... nothing is going good for me ..... work..... school.... family....friends.... cept anna who always stays by my side and I LOVE HER TO DEATH.... I can't begin to tell u what my life is liek right now..... i hate it

ever been so lost you forgot to open your eyes?

couldn't find your way no matter how hard you tried?

seeing the world as the unknown

so many things unable to be shown

hard to fight

harder to go on

wanting your life but its already gone

-me

peace ya'll