Be a kid with you

Yesterday, It was nearing your bedtime. I just gave you a bath and you were settling down watching the Spongebob movie and then wanted something to eat. You came into the kitchen where I was washing dishes and you said something like cereal and rubbed your tummy to let me know that you were hungry. I was busy so I told you to wait a moment. But you had other plans. You saw the trix cereal box on the table and proceeded to grab the box, take out the cereal bag and attempted to pour your own bowl. You were so concentrated so I let yu try it, then after a couple of seconds I offered to help. Once your bowl was poured you hopped off the chair with your bowl of cereal, sans milk, and spilled. it. Poor baby, how frustrated you were! I told you it was ok and picked up your cereal as you buried your face in your hands while laying belly down on the floor. Once you saw it was all back in your bowl, you said thank you and went to the room and I finished washing the dishes. How you've grown. You have learned how to say excuse me when you need to get by and when you are trying to get someones' attentio who happens to be busy. You also let me know when I have gotten something right when you asked for something but don't know how to say it. I guess untill you say "yes" or "si" and clapp your hands. Your dad hasn't seen you do it just yet, but soon enough. And your hair is so long I can do pigtails and ponytails! Your dad says it makes you look more and more girlier. People say that you are looking more and more like me too. I am just blown away by your beauty regardless of who you look like. I know you will be an independent and intelligent young woman, and I can wait cuz I just enjoy you being a kid way too much! It lets me be a kid with you!

My little lady

to ever grow up

a birthday to remember

Your second birthday was GREAT!! We woke up that morning really tired for some reason and neither you, I nor your dad wanted to get up, LOL! But soon me and you were jumping on daddy to try to wake him up. It was time to get things ready. We headed off to target to pick out your gift which happened to be this DJ radio thing with a microphone; it sings all about shapes, colors, numbers and even musical instruments. Your dad had picked it out for you and haven't put it down since. We then stopped by party america to get your spongebob/blues clues balloon bouquet; which took longer than we thought. We headed back to the house where I answered a phone call about your jumper; they wanted to know if it was ok if they came a little earlier! I was estactic about it! ANd they were letting us keep it until 7 o'clock for no extra charge! Your daddy went with tita to the store to buy the ice and meat for the party. While they were gone, the people came to set up the bounce house and we watched as the spongebob bounce house was blown up. You first said: "Mommy! Wow! Spongebob!" You didn't know what it was until your tito took you and sat you on the outside ledge. You looked through the door to see what was inside and you crawled right on through! Your tito told you "Brink mija!" And the moment you found out you could jump on it like a bed but not get hurt-you loved it!!! You were in there all day. Your daddy got in there with you and showed you a great time! Your cousins got in there with you as well. When the people we didn't know started showing up, they got into the jumper and you got hurt somehow. But like your uncle jesse said: "no one saw anything right?" And you weren't hurt, and quickly recovered. The people we knew who showed up were your grandma Jodi and her mom, jesse and cadence, tom and denise, your aunty mara and cousin anthony, your four cousins and some of their cousins: whom you took a liking to; especially Gorda; and of course your aunts moni and eri and their husbands. When the jumper was taken away, we quickly drew the attention to the cake and sang happy birthday to you-although you cried and was scared since everyone was looking at you. This was your same reaction to when we wanted you to hit the pinatas. Your grandpa alvaro showed up a little before the cake and was there to sing to you. You were shy around him too, but not that much. It was getting cold outside so you went inside to play with aunt silvia and tio jose y Bebe and miguel. Your grandpa alvaro and me stayed outside to talk for like an hour. When he left I came inside to see how you were doing and your dad suggested that we open your presents. You got so many spongebob things and clothes and your abuelito alvaro got you frida kahlo stuff from the SFMO; even a little doll which you held so much the rest of the evening. You always seem to play with his gifts just after he leaves; haha! The night ended as the guests rounded up and left; I gave you a warm bath to prep you for bed and off to sleep you fell while watching the spongebob movie. Each moment I will never forget. And I am thankful that we now have a birthday to remember..

lesser of the two evils

Aw, I am so sorry baby girl. I know this day was terrible for you but believe you me-you won't remember. I can't imagine what you had to go through because the dentist wouldn't let me and your dad back there while they did the work. Today it started as the first trip to the dentist and (EEEWWW! Pepe just brought in a grasshopper in the room and it hooped all over your blanket. The pepe threw a fit and left cuz your dad killed the thing, haha!) Anyways, it started as a first trip to the dentist and they took x-rays in which it took me and three other people to get you to sit still and cooperate. one to help me hold you, one to position the camera and the other to snap the pictures. after that we consulted with the doctor and she said you needed some work done. You would need crowns for the 4 front top teeth and we could give you anesthesia to sleep through the anesthesia or keep you awake with laughing gas. Now here's the thing: with anesthesia, the procedure would be 90 minutes long; you would feel drowsy and possibly nauscious for 24-36 hours and may develop a fever as well as a lump @ the injection site that could last for a year. And it all seemed pretty extreme to be doing that @ such a young age. So we chose to keep you awake, and the procedure was only 25 minutes long, and you weren't drugged up afterwards. Think about it sweetie, if there was a slip-up with the general anesthesia-you could have died. You won't even remember what happened-we know this because Josie had something like this done with laughing gas at a young age and she remembers nothing. You can help to calm mental trauma sweetie-but if something were to happen; you can't reverse death. You have to understand.

You were so strong though sweetie. We weren't allowed to go back there with you, seeing as how we could have been a distraction. It was the longest 25 minutes away from you since they took you away to do the hearing test the day after you were born. I was restless. As soon as they brought you out, you were holding some purple sunglasses and clinging onto me as soon as you were in my arms. You cried yourself to sleep when we got home, you didn't like the numbe feeling. When you woke up you said you were hungry and went to town on a paleta. The later on you had fries, chicken nuggets and even ice chips with water. Right now you are eating cheerios and watching the spongebob movie. Again, I am so sorry baby. But it was 'the lesser of the two evils..'