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Sunday, July 15, 2007

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 22:06:45 GMT

so.... hi friend :)

Wow it's been awhile. Honestly I am loving life soooo much right now. And it's quite interesting considering I haven't made the best choices this summer. I flaked out on two summer courses, only completed one. I didn't fail the other two, I just dropped them. I'm sorry, but when it's 80 degrees out and all of my friends are going to the beach, what would you choose? Class or the beach creating new memories? Honestly, I'd go with the latter in a heartbeat. AND I did. ha I know I know, not so smart. But I've honestly had the best summer ever. I wish I could have my St. Cloud friends and my friends from home all at the same time. But this is the real world, and when do we ever get exactly what we want?

I just figured out my fall semester schedule. Fuck. haha that took FOREVER. but hey, it's looking pretty good. Thank you ratemyprofessor.com. I'm taking a lot of the general shit I need to complete considering I'm still unsure with what the heel I'm going to do with myself after college. It's so hard for me to figure out. Come on, it's the rest of my life, I need to be certain right? Anyway, enough with school chatter....

I'm really amped for Canada. I really hope everything works out. We have been trying to make this trip happen for years now, and I think we need this.

I have a new best friend at school. His name is Derrick. I can't believe I didn't hang out with this kid more last year, he is amazing. Most of our time together is either drinking (ha) or talking about books. (I know right, I think the only other guy that I could potentially talk about books with would be Dylan ha) Sometimes the two combine. He is the first guy since Cameron that I feel I can be friends with where sex doesn't get in the middle of everything. Honestly, it's the most refreshing thing that's happened in my life for quite some time.

So that's pretty much my life right now. Love everyone <3

ps. lately I have been having sex dreams about this boy...pretty much the hottest thing ever.

Tuesday, April 03, 2007

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 17:23:00 GMT

So we are in deep shit with our landlord about having too many parties... haha so if anyone is interested 815 will be a "no party" zone for awhile.

Anyway, I had an advisor meeting last week, and I was informed that St. Cloud does not have an Art Therapy major. SWEEEEEET. I'm hoping that I can talk to a general advisor about majors I can do that will still allow me to get a job in that field, but I'm not really sure what will come of it. Hopefully this doesn't mean that I will have to tranfer after next year, because that would honeslty SUCK I'm going to do everything in my power to make sure that isn't what it will come down to, but it might. I'm thinking that majoring in community psychology and minoring in art will ultimately be the only thing I can do, at least at SCSU. I don't know, we will just have to see. I'm being so careless with this whole deal, but I have had many other things on my mind lately...

For those who are interested, the scare I had, isn't an issue anymore, it came. What a relief... BAH! ha that was really scary there for a minute, but honestly deep down I knew I was okay. It just didn't add up.

Okay I'm soooooo scattered right now, and for some reason I can't exactly write what I want, so I'm just going to peace out for now! <3

Thursday, March 15, 2007

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 17:35:16 GMT

So It's official... Christy is doing summer school...

I think for once I need to think with my head and not my heart. I really wish that it wasn't an issue, but I did miss two semesters. I need to catch up if I ever want to get out of this place. If I don't take some courses this summer, I will be here forever, and even though sometimes thats seems pretty sweet, when I'm 25 and still doing my undergrad, I think I will be singing a different tune, ha. To be honest, I really just want to feel like I'm on the same level with everyone when it comes to school, and right now, I don't feel it.

It's okay though. I'm scheduling all of my courses so that i will only be here from June 11th to July 13th, and that isn't bad at all. Yeah, it will be brutal having four hours of class every day of the week, but it will be worth it. This way i will still be able to come home for a month, hang out with my favorites and work, come here for a month and work my ass off, and then go back to AV for the rest of the summer.

It's the best plan, it really is. And for those who are keeping track of my never-ending Major switch, I am now going to Major in Community Psych and Minor in Art. That way I can do art therapy. I still have to work out everything with my Advisor, but I think it is the best route to take if I want to be happy with my job for the rest of my life. AND scene.

This summer will still be AMAZING... no worries <3

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Mar 2007 03:18:18 GMT

mmm... back in the house... feels good.

So Spring break is over and there are only two months left of this semester, which makes me really excited. I still don't reallyknow what i'm going to do this summer, it's still up in the air whether or not I'm going to come back up here mid-july to do summer school. I REALLY should, I'm soooo behind. But I also want to hang out with my favorites all summer. I know once I go home and am around all of the six, I won't want to leave. I just know it. And maybe that's not a bad thing. I really miss everyone, and that's whats summer brings, all of us together. I just don't think it would feel right if I was up here. EHHHHH I don't know. I guess time will tell.

Thursday, March 08, 2007

Thu, 08 Mar 2007 16:03:21 GMT

Thank you Alyson... I love it! but unfortunately work runs my life right now.... so I gotta go there before I can write <3

Thursday, March 01, 2007

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 16:31:12 GMT

Before I get started on this what will most likely be an idiotic rant, I would like to note that I am SO SICK of my layout. It's actually why I don't write more often because just looking at it makes me unmotivated. So Alyson, since you are the queen of internet codes, would you please change it if you ever have a moment? Well I know you really never have time, but you somehow make time to do worthless shit like this...(love you!) haha so... if you ever get the urge...

Anywho. I have one more class today (which I'm praying will be cancelled.... its snowing balls and my prof is probably the laziest mother fucker in the world, so I'm hoping he'll just say fuck it) and then I'm on Spring Break. My dad is picking me up tomorrow at noon and then it's off to Apple Valley... the land of boredom. It would be SUCH a different issue if all of my favorites were home... but they aren't... so it looks like a will be working and hanging out with Chloey. haha I guess it won't be that bad. I'll be able to take a breath for the first time this semester, and I REALLY need it. I'm feeling a little overwhelmed, but whats new. I'm going to miss my house and all of my friends oddly enough. I just had the best weekend with all of my girls that I usually go out with in the house and Pelo, Riley, and Travis. (Aside from the whole Jimmy issue which by the way I TOTALLY overreacted to and took completely the wrong way, but hey, it happens) We seriously just hung out at Travis's house and acted like COMPLETE DORKS. It was awesome. That actually was the first night that I didn't have my fears about school on my mind. Those people are what keep me going and keep my head up everyday, and the funny thing is, they don't even know that they do it. It was also funny because Riley's 16-year-old brother was in town, and he finished off a half bottle of captain before we even went out, which was at like ten. Ha he was so tossed and Riley kept shaking his head in embarrassment, but I just told him to let it go, at least he wasn't puking or passing out! ha oh yeah... and I lost my phone... which was awesome. Lucky number 4 this year. Wow Christy. Gotta love that phone insurance though!

Six of my roommates are going to Mexico together tomorrow for Spring break, and I am so jealous. I'm also a little bitter because when they were planning this and seeing who all wanted to go, I pretty much got overlooked. I know they didn't do it on purpose, I mean, there are 12 of us. But fuck, I totally would have gone, but I didnt hear about it until they had already paid and stuff. LAME. I would never tell them how much it actually upsets me, but it really does. I'm so insanely jealous that they are all going together on this trip, and will have that secret bond with each other that I can't relate to. It wouldn't bother me as much if it wasn't my main girls: Jenny, Stork, Megan, Nicole, Jenni, and Tiff. Those are the girls I hang out with... like... everyday. Oh well, I guess I will be making some money working at least.

Welp. Thats enough useless rambling for one day, till next time...

Oh yeah, and at least since I'm not going a can go to Sara's Birthday bash in her basement. AHAHAHAHA nice smalls. I'm sure it will be lovely. xoxo

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 20:35:32 GMT

Damn. Ha it's been a really REALLY long time since I last wrote. I've been super busy believe it or not. This semester is just so incredibly different from every other. It's a new start. A knew dream. ITS FUCKING SCARY. ha. I have absolutely no time on my hands, and I actually really shouldn't be writing a xanga write now... but hey, it is me... the queen of procrastination.

So lately I have been thinking about how much time we spend preparing for the future. I've been very aware lately of how much I do this. Its like everyday I am just preparing for the next. Monday, I spend the whole day worrying about and preparing for Tuesday. Tuesday comes, and I do the same thing, worry about and prepare for Wednesday. And so on and so on. It's CRAZY to me how lately no day is simply just for that day. and isn't my inspirational quote "No Day But Today" ? Christ. haha I guess its not all bad though. At least I'm getting things accomplished. AND I haven't missed any classes yet, not one. I'm pretty proud of myself.

Well, I have class in twenty minutes, and I'm in the library where I should be researching for my women's studies project proposal, which im not... ha so I better wrap this up. I just thought that I would try and write a little something for the people that actually check this site daily (don't lie... you know you do!) and give them something to think about. so here is the never-ending question that boggles my mind constantly:

If we've always been taught to live for today because tomorrow may never come, then why do we spend every second preparing for the future???

Just something to think about <3

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 23:37:16 GMT

hmmm. Welp. Been through the worst, and now, I am just trying to salvage whats left of my winter break with the people that make me forget all my worries.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 17:11:57 GMT

Thursday, November 02, 2006

Thu, 02 Nov 2006 00:11:45 GMT

Wow. Last entry was obviously me at my breaking point. I'm not going to get into everything thats happened, because you who read this, if you even still do, already know. The program is helping me a lot. Its really nice to be surrounded by 5 to 8 people who know exaclty what ur going through. Its fucking nice as hell.

Yesterday Cory showed up. He had been sick thursday through monday, so I hadn't met him yet. Thank the lord, a nineteen year old. I was BY FAR the youngest one there, so yeah i still can relate to them, but it is so fucking nice to have a person my age there. So so nice. ps. Hes fucking hot so thats always a plus too... ha! So me and him have been pretty much hanging out with eachother when we aren't in group lecture and i've learned a lot about him in the past two days. He is going to a business school in waite park (10 min if that from my house), but he doesnt start until January 2nd. He was supposed to start at the beginning of October, but he checked himself in to in-patient at the hospital. He is doing all of this stuff voluntarily, kinda like me, everyone else that is in out-patient with us attempted suicide and didn't succeed, so they are forced to stay there. He used to be into drugs pretty bad, but he is working on being clean and cancelling those people who initiate it out of his life. He's struggling with that, but he knows he needs to. hmm... i think thats about it... ha.... he has the prettiest ice blue eyes. Oh... and his birthday is April 10th... and that would be the date I crashed my car... sweet.

Today he asked if I wanted to hang out outside of the program... bah... I really like him. I know its only been two days, but, and this sounds cheesy, but we have a connection. Even though it may not be exactly healthy for two depressed people to be together, i dunno. And im still fishin around with it. All i can say is its been a long time since i've had a crush on someone... and the butterflies are wicked right now.... forgot what it was like....