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thats my new xanga

i havent really updated it yet

but i`m letting you know, I`M DONE WITH THIS XANGA!!!

SUBSCRIBE...BIIIIIIITCH <3

i knew it would be forever until i updated

well, a week is a while =]

monday && tuesday - regular boring days at school..bleh

wednesday - stayed after school for chambers auditions..i think i did pretty good...but i don`t like to think about it too much because i`m scared of the results, which happen to come out next friday on the last day of school

thursday - progress reports =] 4 bs and 3 as ^^. i also got nikky, emmy and kristy to finally sign my yearbook..it took them forever lol...i have like a million peoples signatures and quotes that it took them a while to find a place to sign =]

friday - i wore a skirt..it was pretty...and i found out about serena...but who hasnt...i`m scared for her...and i`m worried about whats happening to her...

came home from school, hung out with mom...went out to eat with the family and then went to katys and hung with christian && spent the night

today - woke up around 11..watched evolution && raising arizona...ate, hung out with christian and anthony...and then i came home because christian had to go to the doctor for her 'tonsilitis'

so thats been my boring week

i can`t wait for the end of this week...

i find out what choir i made, if i made chambers

and its the fucking last day of school!!!

....finals...

wow, i`m sorry again

this whole week has been kind of crappy for me...i feel like...everyones changing and its not really for the better...and i dont wanna hurt anybody and i really dont want anyone to hurt me...so i can`t say anything else...and its all because i care what people think...when i shouldn`t and i know i fucking shouldn`t but i can`t fucking help it when people i care about are in the picture and i don`t want to hurt their feelings...

so don`t even fucking ask whats wrong, because, in the end, megan will figure away to bottle it up and ship it out to sea and never bring it up again...

tuesday - first day of pop show rehearsal, which i was about 30 minutes late to...that was only mildly embarrasing =] .. this was also the first day i was feeling really sick

wednesday - second day of pop show rehearsal...which i was on time for...but earlier than that, i established that geography and english were my favorite classes even tho geo is my lowest grade, and i have a stalker in there...calla and cameron make it all better, so does everyone else

thursday - fucking geography was sooo awesome, coach cherry was drinking an energy drink and well, things just went on from there =]...first day of pop show, which went AWESOMELY WELL!! gah, if you haven`t already seen it, come see it tonite dammit

friday - geography is yet again the class to remember...i walked in and almost everyone had gone to the pop show and seen me in the choir 'NOT WEARING BLACK && LOOKING REALLY PRETTY' as hunter said =] sadly, right after that remark, i went to the nurse with an earache progressing in pain and a fever..so off to the doctor i go!

i ended up going to the pediatric doctor...so when they swabbed my throat i got a lollipop =]]]...but my ear was hurting soo bad that i was on the table crying my eyes out and when the doctor came back, she told me i had an ear infection *DUH* and that my congestion was causing it...so she prescribed me augmentin for my ear, amoxicillin for the anti biotic, claritin for the antihistamin and then...codine for pain...which i took as soon as i got home from the doctor and cvs =]. i slept til 6 and then got ready for pop show...i swear, that was the best way to feel at pop show, just being freeeeeee and not feeling a damn thing, even tho my ear did pop a million fucking times during the show

so yea, that was my week...soak it up

because knowing the way i update, this could be it for a while

lol, i`ll try

</3 mego

"Missing"

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

[Chorus]

i feel like that right now...

totally......................................................................

gone

If you leave, don't leave now
Please don't take my heart away
Promise me just one more night
Then we'll go our separate ways
We always had time on our side
Now it's fading fast
Every second, every moment
We've got to, we've got to make it last

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I need you then
We always said we'd still be friends someday

If you leave, I won't cry
I won't waste one single day
But if you leave, don't look back
I'll run the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Like time was standing still
Heaven knows what happens now
You've got to, you've got to say you will

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I need you then
We always said we'd meet again

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I need you then
We always said we'd still be friends

I touch you once, I touch you twice
I won't let go at any price
I need you now like I need you then
You always said we'd meet again someday

i`m in a mood...update later...even after a week </3

i wish i knew what was wrong