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Wed, 10 May 2006 02:08:54 GMT

Current Mood: Quite Dandy

Current Song: Holla Back Girl

Currently Watching:...why do I still do this one?!

Wow, I actually have something to write about today. What are the odds? *OMG*

I went to the lake for the first time today and I must say that it was--well it was an experience. Let's just summarize this with this:

Our canoe tipped over.

And due to Daniel's attempt to scare me the day before with the myth of crocodile and alligator incidents I frantically tried to swim into my partner. That's right, INTO them. I had a life jacket on so I really wasn't going anywhere. I just screamed at the top of my lungs and. It wasn't that I was afraid of drowining. It was more because the water was cold, the fall was unexpected, and the thought of an underwater animal attacking my kicking legs didn't help at all. Needless to say we went home afterwards. Oh but how I will always remember my first experience and how lovely the water felt against my face as I dove in head first. Fun fun!! I'd do it again, aside from the whole flailing in water portion of it.

So then, the rest of the day I chilled at home w/my roomate Jamie and our friend Elaine. We watched us some Advent Children (Vincent or Sephiroth can like soooooo do me now) and for the next hour or so we just talked about game stuffs.

Wait! My day has yet to be completed! *clears throat* We decided to get some Chinese food because...ya know....we're like starving and need a quick and cheap way to get a lot of food. As we walk to the car Jamie goes: "You have your key right?" and lo and behold, I don't. Neither does she. And with our apartments it costs fifty dollars to let us into our rooms after six o'clock. *sigh* we waited for almost twenty minutes and finally got inside to eat. Pepper steak never tasted so goshdarned good.

So why am I in a "quite dandy" mood might you say? I don't quite know, I just...feel...happy.

And I haven't felt that way in a such a long time...

Wat de ka.

Rainy Day

Mon, 08 May 2006 05:39:16 GMT

Current Mood: Eh-ish

Current Song:: Nothing

Currently Watching: My white walls

So today was full of video games and eating. The wonders of being jobless, poor and in college. YES!!! XD Wait...scratch that poor part. That one sucks hard chunks of wazoo.

My eyebealls are officially friend right now. And I have nothing "oh so wonderful" to write about. I need something to happen to me. Like, BIG, in a very very very very very good way. Either something romantic or something financially.

I'm bored, and its late, and I have an exam at 7 a.m. JFOWJEFAJWEOIJFAHHHHHHHH!!!!! I can't wait until summer.

Wat de ka.

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Sat, 06 May 2006 18:08:52 GMT

I missed you Xanga. So much. I think I'ma go back and read some entries. You were the only journal I would actually keep up with, haha. I posted on my Myspace and I said that I realized that none of my entries were happy anymore. Maybe its because of the ultra dark grey and black theme of my blog. I need something fantastically happy again. I remember all the layouts I used to have on here and how happy I would be.

Its time to start fresh and awaken what I had let sleep so long.

Its time for happiness again.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

Wed, 11 May 2005 05:26:50 GMT

Current Song: Wait (Whisper In Ya' Ear)
Current Mood: Eager and Accomplished
Currently Watching:...some child playing chess on T.V.

Whaddya think of my first layout? WOOOO!

Ok back to normal now. Anyway I know it has kinks. Certain parts look blurry but that's only because if I left it in a sharper form it would look jagged and weird. And yeah, the headers are off center but unti I can figure out how to center them without doing the stupid text, it'll just have to stay this way.

So let's fill in on what has happened. I went to prom, had a good time, the music wasn't all that grand though. I know that Daniel really tried to make me happy while we were there and I thank him for that. The first song of the night was dedicated to me, it was so sweet! lol Only us and like...10 other people danced to it though. Oh well, pshaw we looked so hawt out there gettin' our groove on though.

The night before that I ended up going with Monica, Patrick, Jeremy, and Briahna out to my first First Friday and quite possibly my last with that group. Gah, it was so much fun. We took a crapload of pics but the night ones didn't come out for me, stupid disposable dual flash camera. Apparently it ain't worth ten bucks! (Come to think of it, that was an expensive camera. Dang.)

We get our yearbooks tomorrow, I don't know why I'm so goshdarned excited, but I am. I mean, its ridiculous, I feel like tomorrow is Christmas. I'M SUCHA LOSER!! AHHH!

Now all I have to do is figure out how to make some myspace layouts...hmmm...

I have too much free time yet so little to do nothing with.

Wat de ka.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 04:00:20 GMT

Current Mood: Inquisitive
Current Song: Too Young to Fall In Love
Currently Watching: SNL

I don't think you understand how close I feel to you. When I ask for love its only because nobody else could ever share that emotional bond I have with you. No one on this green earth could give me the happiness you do when you show me how much you care. This roller coaster of wanting and not wanting is driving me insane. I'm not quite sure how long I can hold on before I convince myself that I'd be much better off just letting the safety rail go.

Please don't make me beg, I hate looking so pitiful, I hate feeling so selfish for asking this of you, quit trying to make me happy without you being happy yourself. It hurts.

Thursday, April 07, 2005

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 16:38:22 GMT

Current Mood: Lazy
Current Song: Brand New Colony
Currently Watching: Big

So, I went to Florida and saw my new baby nephew. I have to say, that is the cutest baby I have ever seen. I'm not lying man, I mean...it was the cutest thing ever. I've seen some ugly babies but this one was...omg it was unbelievably cute. As for my brother--it was so nice to see him again. I really did miss him a lot

It looks like I need a job more than ever right now. I don't know why its so difficult for me to get one. But its come to the point now where it doesn't really matter what job it is, as long as I have one, and I'm making some kind of money.

"I don't even speak proper english and I can get a job. What's wrong with you?" Thanks mom.

Today is a poop-ugly day outside. I don't know what it is about me but I'm just not ...the same anymore. That last entry I made when I was really upset and it was kinda funny to see that no one left anything to say at that one.

I've got so many things running through my mind that I don't have time for emotions anymore. I haven't smiled since 2 a.m. nor spoken more than two sentences to anybody.

I should've gone to NYC, why didn't I? Oh yeah, that's right, because I can't afford it.

There was no point in staying in Augusta for spring break. I should've just stayed in Florida with my cousins or something. I would've loved to have done that. At least I could take a break from being here. A time out from everybody, from everything.

I wish I didn't think this way.

Thursday, March 31, 2005

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 04:31:18 GMT

Current Mood: Back off.
Current Song: Nothing
Currently Watching: Nothing

Wanna say something? Say it to my face. Don't pussy it up.

I'm going to avoid this whole situation, I don't give a shit about apologies or attempts to make it understandable. The heat is radiating off my hands.

Forgive and forget doesn't work here, at least not the five minute version.

I don't take kindly to attacks, but I try my best not to bite back. I hope it stays that way.

Don't fuck with me right now, not this close to the end of the year, not when I'm this fucking pessimistic, NOT when I'm going through what I'm going through. I don't need anymore shit. I'll just sit in my little corner and wait for the day of graduation when I can leave all this high school drama behind. Maybe I should just sever all ties to end any future crap. Only two months left anyway.

Wat.De.Ka.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 05:58:46 GMT

Current Mood: Ready (...maybe not a mood?)
Current Song: Lose My Breath
Currently Watching: 1st Season of Nip Tuck cuz I can't find my remote damnit.

Convo of the day:
cutiepiemoon: I saw You Got Served
thenamynam: oh lol
cutiepiemoon: and it reminded me of you
thenamynam: awww
thenamynam: thanks
cutiepiemoon: lol
cutiepiemoon: np
thenamynam: abuncha black dudes dancing reminds u of me
thenamynam: *hearts fly out of head*
cutiepiemoon: lmao

Anyways I'll update more later.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 15:24:07 GMT

Current Mood: HAPPY AS ALL GET-OUT
Current Song: Don't Know Don't Care
Currently Watching: Nada

I don't know if I wrote this last time. But my brother and his wife had a baby! They sent us a picture of the little boy...it was so cute...like...like and advertisement of some sort. I think we were all gonna cry. We miss him. Congratulations Jimmy! We love you ^_^

DUDE, my other nephew Austin is coming to visit tonight, and we're gonna spend all day tomorrow together! AHHHHH!!!! I mean, this was totally sprung up on us. We've been wanting to see him for the past nine years but we've never been able to, and now, tonight (late tonight) they're gonna show up on our doorstep!

Thank God last week is over, I'm ready for a new fantastic week to begin. WOOO!!!!

Thursday, March 17, 2005

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 19:37:10 GMT

Current Song: If I Die Tomorrow
Current Mood: Lazy
Currently Watching: My fingers.

So, this week has sucked totally. Next week better kick gonads.

*sigh* I'm bored.

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