Life is crazy

I love being busy

I love having free time

Everything is uber confusing right now

School is so stressful, but fun at the same time

I can't wait for summer

I adore my friends

Late night movies with best friends are fun

Sleepovers are missed

Breakfast was yummy

My grandma is coming back from the hospital

I am in comfy PJ's

I like sleep and am very much looking forward to it

XANGA!

My life is getting more and more complicated and confusing.  As those important to me move on, I fill my time with worthless distraction and meaningless busywork.  I avoid pain by consuming every second of my life with one activity or another.  I run away from everything that hurts me, because fighting to improve and sticking with it (as I had done before) only caused more heartache and disappointment.  I've seen my outlook on life change rapidly as the ups and downs of life had twisted around me like a tornado - sucking up the good and spitting it back out at me, damaged and distorted.  My fears and insecurities keep me from everything that I want.  They keep me from moving on, living life, and being real.  I shut down and hide at the first sign of something good, because it is new and unknown.  I fear change, but fear not changing even more.  The sadness and doubt is overwhelming, but I can't react.  I smile and walk the routine like a zombie.  I don't ever want to do something because it is what I do... I want to love it. 

ALTAR BOYZ IS AMAZING!!!!

 

gah!