Life is a long journey. many mountains and hills to over come
my life in in a mountain right now
in between adult hood and being a teeanger

senior year has been the biggest change for me ever
it has by far been the hardest year for me
- Last SATs to study for
- while making my college portfolio
- keeping up with school
- parents pounding down on me from the right to the left
- friends splits. drama. crash. this and that
- losing faith in God. losing God's love. far away from church . as ever
- going in with the wrong crowd of friends whom i truly love. and great people. but not wise decision makers
- relationship

Relationship.
This i think basically made up my year. from august to the end.
pouring my whole soul in this
learned MANY things. regret some. but loved all through out

relationship. something i cannot live with. but cannot live without

i really loved him. and this all sucks
but the sun will shine tomorrow. the wind will blow. the birds will chirp. and gas prices will continue rise
life goes on.

Learn from yesterday.   Live for today.   Hope for tomorrow.

im graduating tomorrow.
it is then. really. the end of my senior year.

i miss everyone from everywhere
i miss how fun it was without doing the "bad"
i miss it all.

i mean. i sometimes say wise things now.
thats not good.

i miss jane's harassing :(

BUT IM GRADUATING!
everyone MUST i demand you
come to my graduation

june 7th 2007
at homestead high school
around 5 i think

i feel like i should now give up.
let fate take its place.
but i do not want to give up just yet
i want to make it work
i want to have it back, in my hands
it seems like i lost control, someone else took the sterring wheel.

but that is one thing that i have to accept, understand, and move on

shut up kristie, and walk it out....

// maybe there really is no such thing as forever and always
and sometimes i just wished. maybe this once. for this split second. i wished that there truely was.

it made me change the way i think. i never thought that forever existed.
which is why i held onto God so much, because an endless forever love is achieved through him
and for this once, my thoughts have changed.  i gave it a second thought.

but now that i realize, after stepping back
nothing is forever.

and truthfully. it is a sad thought. actually experiencing it.
i guess. i kind of hoped that i was proved wrong.

shut up kristie, and walk it out...

this is just one of the things i want to hold on to. but cant
think that i have it in my hands
believe that it is in my hands
feel it in my hands

and open my hands, and see it is not there.
that is love.

    hello. i think im like xangaing in and out. the old is always better i think
the old fashion. i kinda really miss how it was
how it was at church . where i had a sense of belonging
how i looked forward to going and praising God
lifting my hands to Glory. and having the people that i love cherish that moment with me
i miss how i wasnt the oldest one and i always had people to look up to
and laugh with and ask suggestions
i miss outings. and it didnt have to be anything illegal related
we would just have fun

i miss how i didnt have to worry about financial issues for college
i miss how i didnt have to worry about my future
i miss how i made mistakes and i learned from them
i miss the innocence of my peers
i miss that we could play on swings, play hid and seek, go to the movies to watch a freaking movie

i miss the passed. hate the present. longing for the future
but i am guessing that it is always going to be like that
and since im not some magic unicorn that gets whatever i wish

i better suck it up. and DO IT

------------> meaning i should start apps.

eyecandy:

 
so this is the camera i had at IMAGE SHOTS. yea baby. i love it

im a mermaid


last year on rainy season


mel and elaine <3

justin <3 sunflower fasho

my good friend joy doing what she does best!!!! <3

sify must reunite. we are all so old now. life goes on...

cutest couple. and this picture is so cute. JESSICA FREAKING LEE
I MISS U SO MUCH
PLEASE COME BACK TO MY ARMS
WHERE WE CAN PLAY PLAY PLAY
AND EAT STRAWBERRY SHORTCAKE ICE CREAM IN THE RAIN
AND JUMP IN PUDDLES
AND GO TO PUNJAB
AND NOT GET KRISTIE PARANOID
AND PLAY TILL WE FAINT
AND JUST LET THE GOOD TIMES ROLLL
and now matter how much u are a hoe. meany. asswipe. i will always love u like a sister

meet my new friends at art. we are at monterey bay. and we
had fun lighting fireworks. and eating samgyupsal. and did other stuff.. whata night

준언니 & 보람 언니 are cute

pretty cute pretty cute. doing my signiture pose

yea so it says 해바라기. fasho. sunflower NIGGGGGG


i am in a single club. and its hi larious

<3

so this was last year in disney land. oh man. loads of fun

and i go to 노래방 all the time. what joy

so i cutt my hair. did i tell u? i got acused as a dike. it was that short.
and yes. i did cry

so basically i can go to korea
and pass as a korean. that was born in korea.
that lives in korea.

funny thing is. ive never been in korea.

ok. back to sats. and gov/econ. and spanish.

senior year has started. about 2 months in now and it feels like forever. because this year just seems like a continuation of last year. it doesnt seem like i had a summer. :[

its not that great right now.got into a car accident the first week of senior year. horrible grades. crazy senioritis. project over load. SAT prep. College apps/essays. Final of art portfolio. and at the same time i want to PLAY PLAY PLAY PLAY there are just so many things that i want to do but i cant.

and my walk with God isnt at its strongest point right now. its bad. its bad. ... its so bad its almost gone to a point of doubt. please pray for me

bye bye !