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Sunday, January 23, 2005

This was a fucking bomb
For a few seconds, this place was Armageddon
There was a firefight

You are the fucking disease
Another day, another memory
But I have fucking failed
I turned another lie into the work of a saint

So where is the cure?
Hundreds of souls
With the look of horror on their face
Now I rise from my knees
I will not live in misery
You won't take me
You won't take me
Now it's me
Now it's me

All that's left is a bitter taste of a life that was once so promising
Rather cut at the wrist than laugh about your mistakes
Sickness still fills the air
Another life that you wish you could fake
Your eyes will cut through me, but it's a risk, that I must fucking take
I must take

So where is the cure?
Hundreds of souls
With the look of horror on their face
Now I rise from my knees
I will not live in misery
You won't take me
You will not destroy me
You cannot destroy me

And I’ll fight you with every ounce of strength I have left
And I’ll seal it with a bullet and a kiss
So look at your fucking horror
Horror
I want to see your face
Show me your true face
I want to see your face
Show me your true face

My heart belongs to you, so save me
My heart belongs to you, so save me, for the sake to give it away
Still beats (Still beats)
Still beats (Still beats)
Still beats inside of me
My heart belongs to you, so save me
And my heart still beats
And my heart still beats
My heart still beats, so save me
My heart still beats

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Tuesday, January 04, 2005

	...yasotsierehtlla ssenippah ->->>>>lufituaebossehs
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Monday, December 27, 2004

Hi, this is eileen. Phonz wanted me to write in his xanga cuz he hasn't updated it so he asked me to update it for him. Ok I'm done... bye... lolz

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Saturday, December 11, 2004

	sucks dude.. i mean yeah.. havent heard pantera fer a while.. but it jus fuckin sucks dat sumone as talented as Dimebag Darrel died.. its a grat loss for da music world.. RIP "Dimebag" Darrel "Dimebag" Abbott 1966-2004
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Monday, December 06, 2004

Currently Reading
The Long Hard Road Out of Hell
By Marilyn Manson
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0. Do you cut?
yes.

1. Who do you hide SI from?
people I don't know very well... not immediate family

2. Who knows about it?
my immediate family... doctors

3. How long has it been since you last cut?
4 days

4. Have you ever tried to commit suicide before?
yes but not with out complete intention. if i did... i wouldnt be here...

5. Where do you usually cut?
upper/lower arms, chest

6. When you cut, who's usually the first to find out?
micheal.. (my doctor)

7. What's your worst experience with a fresh cut?
when i was in the 7th grade... sawed into my arm with a steak knife and passout on the kithen floor

8. Do you have a fascination with scabs?
no

9. Do you like scars, yes or no? (Why/not?)
yes, i think they are beautiful... and no.. because the questioning and cast down eyes.

10. Do you name your razor?
no

11. What other methods of SI do you use?
hmm.. i burn myself.. also known as branding

12. Do you dislike the term "self mutilation"?
i dont really care

13. What various ways do you use to hide cuts?
i dont really hide them.. and if i do.. clothes

14. Once cuts heal, do you still hide the scars?
not really..

15. Ever been institutionalized/hospitalized for SI'ing?
yes

16. Do you ever run into problems with hiding cuts (i.e: gym change rooms)?
no

17. What's the best part about cutting to you?
the rush it brings... makes me feel better.

18. Do you know of any songs that talk about SI (Ten Foot Pole - Late At Night excluded)?
NIN - Hurt, Jack Off Jill - Strawberry Gashes

19. Have you ever been caught cutting/burning, etc?
no

20. What instrument do you use to cut?
saftey pins... razors... knifes... scissors... pretty much any sharp object

21. What causes you to cut?
anger, depression, pain (emotional)

22. What do you feel afterwards?
a rush of energy which brings releif

23. What is your closest Close Call?
i dont know...

24. How long have you been doing it?
Since 5th grade.

25. Do you keep a razor in your bag?
no

26. Ever needed stitches for a cut so deep?
yeah... i didnt think i did.. my friend made the call on that one

27. Do you have someone like a therapist you talk to regularly?
yes

28. Are your parents divorced?
no.. but sometimes i think its better if they did get one

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