Look over yonder what do you see
The sun is a-risin' most definitely
A new day is comin', people are changin'
Ain't it beautiful crystal blue persuasion

Better get ready, gonna see the light
Love, love is the answer and that's all right
So don't you give up now, so easy to find
Just look to your soul and open your mind

Crystal blue persuasion, mmm, hmm
It's a new vibration
Crystal blue persuasion
Crystal...blue persuasion

Maybe tomorrow when He looks down
On every green field in every town
All of his children in every nation
There'll be peace and good brotherhood

Crystal blue persuasion
Crystal blue persuasion
Crystal blue persuasion

by Tommy James and the Shondells (1969) http://backseatmemories21.tripod.com/crystalbluepersuasion.html

I don't know how many of you have actually heard this song before... I had never heard it myself , or of Tommy James and the Shondells until yesterday.

It was so weird...I check the messages on my answering machine yesterday and someone left this song as a message...

I have no clue as to who could have done that--it's not romantic, so I know at least its not like a secret admirer (well that's what I'm hoping anyway). It's a nice song, a beautiful message (albeit hippie-ish, but whateva). But who would think to leave it on any answering machine, especially my machine?? It could have been a wrong number, I guess...meant for someone else's machine, but on mine. But then again, I do say who I am on my recording, so I dont know.

I'm not mad tho. How appropriate... to have this song, with its message of positivity and new changes and a better world, when I'm going through some positive changes myself...how fitting this song is to my life right now, as I find my happiness...

It's so weird how things happen in life. So random. And on the last day of my 20th year...its kind of like its ushering in a new and positive year in my life (or I hope so.)

And yea, I'm the big 2-1 today...Happy Birthday to me! Too bad its a grey day outside and I have my last final tomorrow--can't do the typical have-my-first-legal-drink thing just because i can't (i'm a nerd...studying comes first)! Oh well...

go me, it's my birthday...

If someone, who by virtue should take some interest in your life, tells you that despite the fact that he has made no attempt to contact you in almost a year he thinks of you everyday, should you believe him?

Today is my father's birthday, and being the good little daughter I am, I figure I should at least give him a call, and I do and...

I'm so sick of the bullshit. I hate being pandered to. I don't need to be told that I get thought of everyday. There's no need to pretend, to sound nice. Why do people think it's nice to pretend to care or be concerned for someone who does care or is concerned about them? Why do people say things like "I think of you everyday" when they don't mean it? Why is lying about how you feel the "nice" option? It's the easiest option because you don't have to really confront whatever issue there is (in my case, why I haven't heard from him in almost a year). But really, it's the most fucked up option.

People who use that logic are the fucked up ones. Maybe good intentioned, maybe not. But definitely fucked up.

People who use that logic are also people you can't avoid...well at least I can't avoid them.

I wish I could.

As I write this, I step into new realms of procrastination...

I used to consider myself a procrastinating "princess" (or a princess of procrastination)

but now, I am stepping into the most high queenly realm

because I do not, absolutely do not want to study for my exam tomorrow morning yet I know I should because I will fail this class if I fail this exam. Yet I have no desire to.

Why the hell don't I want to study? I'm beginning to wonder if subconsciously I want to fail a class this semester.

Or maybe it's senioritis kicking in early?