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Name: Bella
Country: Ireland
Metro: Dublin
Gender: Female
Interests: Theater. Singing. Dancing. Starbucks. Harry Potter. Disney. Learning about ways to be thin...
Expertise: gaining weight...
Occupation: Student
Industry: Art
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
5/25/2005
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| Well, I've been taking lean fire... and I'm not sure how much I weigh right now, as I don't own a scale...
it's probably a good thing.
but, but, but... I have a cute pair of size 5 (yes I know it's still huge) shorts that fit SUPER tight about ten days ago and now they are loose... so good sign.
although it's not near enough...
what is your experience with diet pills?
today i've had a few bites of a protein pancake, a nibble of a biscotti and half of a iced grande non fat latte... so over shooting i'll say 600... i'm allowing myself 900 a day... so i'll probably go get subway in a bit...
oh gosh... i want to lose about a pound a day... any suggestions??
i really need support right now. i can't seem to find it anywhere else.
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| Inconsistency = MeYes, that is me. I am inconsistent. I know that's random but it's the best way to put it.
I have a goal though. I know it's reachable... It's March (Almost the end I know, but whatever) I have WILLED myself to lose 15 pounds at least by July. That's less then 5 pounds a
month. I can do that. I want enjoy the beach for at LEAST two months...
that's not too much to ask right? 
You know, I've never worn a bathing suit out in public. I mean, sure... I would wear a two piece with shorts, but never just full out in my bikini. This year I will have that. I owe it to myself. Is it sad that my body plays such a huge role in my confidence? Sometimes I think so, but other times I take this strange joy out of always having this entity to teach.
I feel like my body is my rebellious soul. It's this young wild child that I constantly have to fight with and control. My longing for food is like a horse that must be tamed. I am the person who breaks the horse. I am the pack leader and the authority. I can control that part of me, and yes it is hard and it's a constant up hill battle, but when I succeed and lose the weight, I feel such a high. It's more then just the weight... it's the fact that I lost the weight because I told my body to behave a certain way... and I am capable.
Right now I weigh 130 pounds which is the heaviest I've been in my entire life.
By July I will be 115.
Random question for you girls: Have you ever heard of the energy drink/ fat burner Red Line? If you have, how did it effect you?
Anyway, stay strong girls and tame and break your wild stallions. You can, and you are the only one who can.
Remember that YOU do hold the power... as cheesy as it is... it's true.
I'm out,
B 
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| Wow, sorry for not updating in so long. I had forgotten my password, and all sorts of fun stuff. . .lol.
I'm a tard.
Anyway... weight... still the same. I have a problem.
Well, the thing is... my clothes are getting baggy, but I don't weigh less. I think all of the dancing is actually building some muscle.
How are all of you doing??
todays intake (bad day)
B- couple sips of coffee frap light, some popcorn (early movie)
L-Turkey slices, with some lettuce. (50 cals) also, I made pasta for the boy, and I cheated and had a few bites... grrr...
S-Nonfat Latte from Borders... it was kind of big, but I needed something before dance, grrr. . . probably like 130 cals or so...
Dinner- Rubios steak salad... 200 cals?
Plus like, however many from the pasta, and popcorn... ew.
Yeah... whatever...
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| First off:
Thank you so much for your comments girls, they really do help. We all have to stick together here, and motivate each other. We can do everything we set our minds to. I know it!!! So, thank you!!
Yesterdays intake... meh, could have been better, but I did dance for 5 hours (I teach at a studio). I know it's not an excuse, but at least I wasn't sitting on my ass. Lol.
Sandwhich - 110
Soup and Salad from Applebees (this was the bad one) probably around 210
Starbucks Green Tea- 0
so. . . 320. Okay.
It's 1:10 already,and I haven't had anything today.
Hopeful intake
L- Sandwhich:110
D-Tuna:120
Possibly a tall, nonfat, latte (70 cals) if I get that hungry at dance. But we'll see.
Question for you girls. . . do you ever start to not trust the Starbucks people, or people in resteraunts? Like, if you ask for something that's non fat or something? I find myself wondering if they really do, like they are TRYING to mess me up. Gosh, I'm so paranoid. I just like it better when I make my own stuff, because otherwise I think: How can you really be sure?? Oh geez, I'm a crazy.
Well, everyone, KEEP IT STRONG!!!!
Love you all!
Bella | | |
| I still suck... yeah, what can I say, I'm lame.
Here are a couple of before pictures (from about a year ago)
 ew, fat arms...
now... oh gosh...
Now...
 Bad picture to judge by, based on the big skirt, but I try to hide my fross fatness. I got a lot bigger...
Today was a good day, roughly around 300 cals. I take it back, not good, but decent.
10 pounds OFF this month.
Love you all, and everyone stay strong. It's so worth it.
Bella | | |
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