HEY WOW ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I HAVE UPDATED THIS THING...IVE

 JUST BEEN WAY TO BUSY TO DO ANYTHING BESIDES WORK...SO

 YEAH...SOMETIMES I WONDER IF ANYBODY ELSE FEELS THIS WAY OR IF ITS

JUST ME...LIKE I HAD A BF FOR LIKE 6 MONTHS AND HE BASICALLY TORE MY

 HEART APART AND THEN HE DATED A GIRL FOR 5 MONTHS AFTER WE BROKE

 UP AND WE HAD ONLY BEEN BROKEN UP FOR LIKE A MONTH AND THEN HE

 DATED ANOTHER GIRL FOR LIKE 3 MONTHS AND THEY JUST BROKE UP...LIKE

 A MONTH AGO.WE TALK ON THE PHONE FROM TIME TO TIME...BUT THE

 OTHER NIGHT I WAS TALKING TO HIM AND WE WERE JUST LIKE HEY HOWS IT

 GOIN YEAH KNOW IT WAS KIND OF AWKWARD BUT NOT REALLY IDK...BUT

 THEN WE GOT OFF CAUSE HE WAS KIND OF TIRED.AND I ASKED IF HE GOT HIS

 STUFF BACK THAT I SENT HIM AND HE WAS LIKE YEAH...SO THEN I CALLED

 HIM BACK LIKE 5 MINUTES LATER AND WAS LIKE "I JUST WANT TO LET YOU

 KNOW THAT I DONT GO A DAY WITHOUT THINKING ABOUT YOU THATS ALL"

 AND I WAS GOING TO HANG UP BUT THEN HE WAS LIKE "IF IT HELPS ANY

 SINCE I GOT MY STUFF BACK IVE BEEN WEARING THAT BRACELET AND I

 HAVENT TAKEN IT OFF"...(HE GOT ME A BRACELET FROM MEXICO WHEN HE

 WENT LAST SUMMER IT WAS LIKE PUCA SHELLS.)"AND IF IT HELPS ANY I

 THINK ABOUT YOU ALOT TOO"...AND I WAS LIKE "ARE YOU JUST SAYING

THAT BECAUSE YOUR HALF WAY ASLEEP OR DO YOU REALLY MEAN IT?"AND

 HE SAID THAT HE REALLY MENT IT....SO WHAT DOES THAT MEAN....LIKE IDK

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A PERSON HERT YOU SO BAD THAT YOU KNOW YOU

 SHOULD HATE THEM BUT YOU JUST CANT BRING YOUR SELF TO DO IT...LIKE

 YOU KNOW ITS WRONG TO STILL HAVE FEELINGS FOR THEM BUT YOU JUST

 CANT GET OVER THEM NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY?BECAUSE THATS

 WHAT I FEEL LIKE...MY MOTHER SEEMS TO THINK THAT HE WILL COME

 BACK AROUND BUT I DONT KNOW...I MEAN AM I THE ONLY ONE THAT FEELS

 LIKE THAT?IM SO CONFUSED.AHHHH....SO YEAH THATS MY LIFE ABOUT

 RIGHT NOW...

SHYLA MONDAY

What makes all of us hate

We're all the same

We roll the dice and we play your game

We complicate

Show us the way before it's too late and the whole thing breaks

We have a name

We all create everything else from mistakes we've made

We'll make a change

We'll concentrate before we suffocate

Can't hold this in and keep it quiet any longer

I've fallen in and now this feeling's getting stronger

You take my breath away

 Now i'm trying to get up

I'm trying to retrace my steps back to wherever i messed up

Is forever enough?

I'm holding on

I know you'll be there whenever i wake up

What makes everything change?

We're not the same 

We all get suck in the same cliche

 We're taking aim

We dominate

Put on the pressure till the whole thing breaks

 How come we wait?

Why do we hate?

And throw it away like the last crusade

We'll rearrange

We need it to change before we suffocate

What makes all of us hate

Show us the way before it's too late and the whole thing breaks

Your life dreams are shattered

Now you're gone away

We've cried here for hours

And the hours turn to days

We know you regret this

Leaving us here

With portraits and memories that we've held so dear

When I hear you name

It's not the same

No matter what they say

I'm not okay

And we started at zero 

And went different ways

Now we're all out here wasting away

And if we started at zero

 Then how did things change?

It seems like just yesterday we were the same

It's been 3 months since he left us

So far nothings been the same

And my question without answer is: am I the one to blame?

He was such a good description of a favored future man

He spoke well of other people

And they said the same for him

They say they're sorry

Well what are they sorry for?

How can they possibly know what I'm going through?

I feel like no one's every had to deal with the pain

 That I'm dealing with right now

Just 6 month ago everything was fine

Or so it seemed

What turn of events caused him to go downhill?

His parents are devastated

His girlfriend's depressed

What was he thinking?

Life is just a lineup

Tell me when my time's up

Too much on my mind today

There's so much left that I would like to say

When I start to climb up 

Will you pull my line up 

Or am I just in the way?

I think about it every single day

I think about it every single day

Fix us cause we keep falling apart

Just keep falling apart

We're tired of being alone

Fix me cause I keep falling apart

 Just keep falling apart

Would someone find me

 Now I feel like somehting's goin' on

GOOD MORNING THE NIGHT IS OVER AND GONE I THOUGHT THIS DARK WOULD LAST FOR SO LONG.FEEL THE SUNLIGHT ON MY FACE YOU HAVE BROUGHT ME THROUGH THIS PLACE. HOW CAN I LISTEN TO MY MIND WHITHOUT BREAKING MY HEART. IM SO CONFUSED I CANT THINK OF ANYTHING BUT YOU. IT ALL BEGINS WITH A RISK CAUSE MY DESIRE IS FOR THIS TO BE LOVED AND TO LOVE ITS WHAT EVERYTHING IS ALL ABOUT. LIFES MENT TO BE LIKE A KISS CAUSE INTAMECY IS BLISS. IT DIDNT TAKE THAT MUCH TIME TO FIND OUT THAT ROMANCE IS MORE THAN JUST AN ASIDE. ITS IN THE EYES I FEEL IT IN THE AIR IM HAUNTED BY THE HOPE OF SOMITHING MORE COULD IT BE THAT YOUR ARM IS LONG ENOUGH TO REACH EVEN ME? IF I DONT BELIEVE THEN WHY DO I SEEK FOR YOU AS IF YOU WERE MISSING AND FOR THE LOVE AND BEAUTY THATS BENEATH WHAT I CAN SEE. ITS LIKE FIRE INSIDE THAT BURNES ME DEEP AND I COME ALIVE. IF I DIDNT KNOW PAIN THEN HOW COULD I KNOW LOVE LIKE FIRE TO A FLAME PAIN IS JUST A PART OF ME AND THOUGHT IT MAY BE HARD TO SEE IT ALL RIGHT NOW IN TIME ILL FIND OUT THAT THISALL MAKES SENSE SOMEHOW. THOUGH I MAY NOT KNOW WHY THOUGH I MAY NOT UNDERSTAND THOUGH MY HEART IS BROKEN. YOU ARE HERE TO TAKE MY HAND WITH EVERY STEP I TAKE EVERY TEAR THAT I SHED YOUR GUIDING MY LIFE SOME WHERE THAT I MAY NOT SEE YET. YOU CATCH EVERY FALLING TEAR AND I THINK IF I KNEW ID FIND THAT YOU CRY SOMETIMES TOO. YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE THATS PATIENT WHEN I FALL. YOU COME TO SAVE ME EVERYTIME I FALL. YOU DONT LAUGH AT ME WHEN I MAKE MISTAKES AND CRY. YOUR NOT LIKE OTHERS YOU UNDERSTAND I WISH THAT EVERYONE COULD LOVE ME JUST LIKE YOU. SOMETIMES WHEN I TALK TO YOU ITS LIKE YOU ALWAYS KNOW WHAT TO SAY OR HOW TO TOUCH ME IN ALL THE RIGHT WAYS. ITS LIKE YOUR SAYING LET ME WIPE AWAY YOUR TEARS AND GIVE YOU LIFE. MAKE YOU FEEL BEAUTIFUL AGAIN. DONT THROW IT ALL AWAY BECAUSE IM HEAR TO STAY. ALL MY MINDS ATTENTION ALL MY HEARTS AFFECTION EVERY HEART CRY EVERY RHYME. ALL MY LIFES DEVOTION HAS BEEN SET IN MOTION. I CHOOSE YOU ALL MY ATTENTION, AFFECTION, AND ALL MY DEVOTIONS FOR YOU. YOU ARE SO MUCH MORE THAN ME ABOVE ME BEYOND ME SO FAR OVER MY HEAD. THE STORY OF MY SOUL SEEMS LIKE A BROKEN ROAD AND HOW IM STANDING HERE IS UNBELIEVABLE. I WOKE UP TODAY WITH A REVELATION AN INTRODUCTION TO THE TRUTH. I KNEW THE WORLD WAS ROUND AND WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN AND MAYBE I FINALLY GOT IT ALL FUGURED OUT A MOMENT IS WORTHLESS NO MEANING PUPOSE EVERY BREATH IS WAISTED IF YOU ARE NOT THE CENTER OF MY WORLD. THERES A VOID IN MY HEART WERE ITS EMPTY AND DARK WITH OUT YOU IM BROKEN APART. OPEN YOUR HEART CAUSE THATS WERE YOU START TO TRULY FEEL. YOU MAKE IT REAL. LOOK IN MY EYES YOU FEEL IT INSIDE YOU KNOW YOU WILL. YOU CAN MAKE IT REAL. LET YOUR MIND TAKE A WALK IN THE RAIN LET YOUR HEAD ROLL BACK TASTE THE JOY REMEMBER TH PAIN. AND THE SUN WILL SHINEON YOUR HEART AND MINE. THIS LIFE THAT WERE LIVING IS ALL THAT WERE GIVEN. LET YOUR EMOTONS BREATH. CAUSE YOU MAKE IT REAL. WHEN I SEE YOU MY HEART POUNDS SO HARD IN MY HEAD I THINK ITS GOING TO EXPLODE. AND WHEN YOUR AROUND EVERYTING ELSE DISAPEARS AND THE ONLY THING I CAN FOCUS ON IS YOU. MY KNEESSTART TO SHAKE WHEN YOUR IN SIGHT. I CANT THINK OF ANYTHING EXCEPT YOU. I KNOW THAT I MISS YOU AT NIGHT YOUR VOICE THE SLIGHT CATCH THE DEPTH FROM YOUR CHEST AND THE TREMBLE OF EMOTIONS IN SOMETHING YOU HAD JUST SAID.

HEY GUYS SORRY I HAVENT UPDATED IN SUCH A LONG TIME I HOPE

EVERYONE IS DOING GOOD.HOOK ME UP WITH SOME COMMENTS...WOW IM

 SO BORED.AND HOPEFULLY I CAN STOP BEING SO BUSY AND GET ON MORE

OFTEN...

SHYLA