| Monday, April 9th, 2007
My horoscope said that today is supposed to be a lucky day for me. So far it's been correct.
We had a 5 minute psychology class and were dismissed, and my spanish class is to be held in the student union during a cultural event with lots of FOOD. I am truly blessed. :)
However, I have to work with a bunch of little kids today from 3-6pm for our G Phi community service. And as exciting as that would normally be for me, I'm not looking forward to it. Especially since I've been told the kids are little nightmares...oh joy.
I also have to start studying for my psychology test tonight...I really have no desire to get the ball rolling on that.
What I really want to happen, is for Student Spotlight to approach faster. I've already choreographed some of our jazz dance, but I still need to find some inspiration to start choreographing my solo. Although it should be easier this time since it isn't a lyrical.
I called Target today and confirmed that I will be taking my drug test on May 7th. I figured since I didn't have any finals that day, I could come back at least to take my drug test. And then I should officially start work on May 14th. I am so ready to start bringing in some benjamins.
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| Saturday, April 7th, 2007
I'm happy to say that I feel pretty content with my life right now. I have wonderful friends, great sorority sisters, a good education, wonderful family, jobs guaranteed for the summer and next year at school, and I have finally reached a point where I believe I will be happy doing what I'm doing with my degree.
I have finally decided to keep dance in my life. There is no way I could go on without it. I have changed it to a dance minor, but that does not mean that I will be dancing any less than I am now. I have seen so much improvement in myself with my technique and stylistic performance and I have seen my confidence grow. It's a wonderful feeling.
I feel like I have so much of a sisterhood not only in my house, but in the dance program as well. Some of my best friends are in the dance program and if I were to quit dance, I would be leaving them all...and that would be a mistake. I attribute a lot of my changed attitude to those girls. They are the ones that have given me good insight and guidance and have encouraged me to press on.
But I am also so excited about my decision to become a PR major. I feel like this would be a good fit for me. I like to meet new people, make connections, experience as much of life as I can, and make all that I do look good. Most of working in PR is making what you do and who you are representing look good. That's something I can definitely handle.
And never once have I reconsidered my Spanish minor. I am getting much better with my grammar and speaking skills and I am proud to say that I believe I will soon be fluent. I am really excited about this because that means that I can say I am bilingual. And how cool is that?
So, in short, I am content with life. I don't want any drama...I try my best to avoid it. I feel like this semester I have done a pretty good job with that and that is what is making me so content. I already have stress from school...I don't need to pile on more.
I found this quote from a speaker at NAVS in my journal the other day that I had forgotten I had written down. I think now is a good time to bring it back.
"Do not live your life in a holding pattern."
I plan to live my life with full speed ahead, with dreams and ambitions and a smile on my face. I plan to enjoy every single second of it. I will not wait for things that will never come. I will make things happen.
<333Mindy
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| Ahhh...back in Manhattan and feeling awesome. :) I looove Manhattan, I looooove K-State, and I LOOOOOOVE my friends. Spring break was only a week and I missed them all so much. I don't know how I'm gonna handle being away from them for 3 months over the summer!
But I have to say...it feels wonderful to be back. :)
<333Mindy |
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| Spring break has been great, but somehow I don't feel fulfilled. I'm not happy with myself or my decisions lately. I need to pick my spirits back up. Maybe I should go running or something. Make a change in my life. Work harder towards perfection even though I know I will never get there. It's the working towards it that's supposed to be fulfilling. And I need to stop making bad decisions. I need to learn what's right for me and I need to stop feeling guilty about every little thing. That has always been one of the big things that holds me back and makes me unhappy. I feel guilty way too often. And I need to stop. But I also need to change for the better. I need to quit worrying. I worry way more than any person ever should. I worry about every possible disaster or bad situation...or even difficult situation in my life. And mostly they're potential situations that haven't even happened yet. STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!! I just need to breathe...move on...and fix it. <333Mindy |
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| Life really does have a funny way of working out even when you think it will never ever be ok. :)
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