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| I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bitchy, to push people, to push myself.
I was taught to never take life
for granted, to live a little,to love with every thing I had, to never
give up, to believe in myself... and most of all, to fight for myself
.... I know your probably thinking, "Oh no she didn't" but I so totally
did.
Hi everyone I know its been
along time since I updated but fuck you I've been busy. Well every
things all right I have a job it pays pretty good $12.47 an hour. I
went and saw my girls new baby its a her and her name is jessi she's so
pretty I love her. Jamey and I are just kind of hanging out now were in
the "lets just be friends" stage its ok though. im living back at home
and I quit drinking and doing drugs I have been cleen for 2 months now
and im so proud of myself. I gotta go I love you all *kisses* ~ Amber
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| ♥ I won't lose sleep over you I will not cry over you, I
won't save no shit from you, but instead here's what
I'll do: I`ll date every guy I see & make sure that you see
me & you'll regret that you're no longer the one standing
next to me I won't hate on what you do when you find
somebody new and realize you are a fool `but instead
here's what I'll do shake my head with such disgrace &
throw my success in your face.. to be back with me is
what you wish. I'll make you hate yourself for this. | | |
|  Jamey and I broke up and I don't know why I want him to call me but he won't do it it hurts so much he's like my best friend and I don't mind him breaking up with me its just the fact that he will not he'll me what's wrong and I don't know if he is going to stop being my friend. I love him so much I don't want to lose him... well I better go. ~Amber
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| I never put limits on love. I'm open to meeting all different types of people. Boys, girls, black, white, brown, whatever... I believe that when you fall in love none of these things should matter. Love is a spiritual connection shared between two people... I must be attracted physically but many of the people I have fallen for, in the past haven’t been people that everyone goes for. I really focus on chemistry and connection the most. I wish more people could see that beauty fades and that working on the inner is the only thing you take with you from this journey. If we could focus as much attention on the inner as we do the outer we would all benefit from it. The world would in turn be better.I believed for so long the things that I heard from the church I attended. It was hard because I thought that I had a problem that could be changed and I didn't understand why I couldn't always love the way they told me God wanted me to. Then I realized that I was made the way God wanted and that I didn't choose who I was attracted to. Another thought I had was that- if God knows all then he knew that I would choose to be happy, so if he didn't want me to be straight, gay or bi (whatever, labels you choose.) Many people today that are a part of the religious right are lacking empathy and they just can't put themselves in my shoes. My hope is that people will learn to understand that we are all different but that there are many things that connect us all. Love is one of those things. When someone tells me that I should just be straight, I tell him or her that it’s the same as me telling you to be gay. When people think about that for a moment it usually silences them because it makes them understand how people like myself feel. For a moment they're able to see things in a new light. Then, (in a best case scenario) they realize that, "hey if I can't choose who I'm attracted to then maybe they can't choose either". The truth is no one chooses his or her sexuality and no sexuality should be looked at as superior because of it, it's as simple as that. We all have minds and souls, so we should be able to love who we love without restrictions and limits. ~ Amber | | |
|  Hello peoples um what's up? Well I got a membership to the Y, so I get to work out like every day. Jamey is going out with me again. I am so happy, I love him so much. He is so sweet he has come to see me almost every day this week. I think that I am falling for Jamey I cant stop thinking about him and its starting to bug me I cry almost every time he leaves my house and I don't think I should. he is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I don't want to tell him but he will most likely read this so yeah.well I better go peoples. TTYL
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