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darkcrewsader

Name: Viet
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Orange County
Birthday: 7/15/1986
Gender: Male

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Expertise: Talking. A lot. Really fast too.
Occupation: Student
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Member Since: 6/23/2003

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Thursday, July 05, 2007

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Monday, April 30, 2007

Currently Listening
Princess Mononoke: Symphonic Suite
By Joe Hisaishi, Mario Klemens
The Legend of Ashitaka
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pwned...

well, the worst thing that could happen to a person during midterms week...getting the date of your midterm wrong.

so i thought the midterm was on tuesday in lecture. no, i was wrong. it was in section today, monday. well whoop-di-doo im screwed. oh well, whats done is done, right? still got the rest of the class to go through, and lamenting over what happened really wont fix the problem. so life goes on.

i've been meaning to write something meaningful for once but its been hard since things have been very busy. one thing that this debacle has taught me is that i really need to use my planner again. i've been neglecting it since my 2nd year. i was really good with my planner my 2nd year because i always had something to do. this year, things have been more spontaneous and i've neglected it. well, time to change things up a bit, i guess.

...that is all.

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Thursday, April 26, 2007

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Timbaland Presents Shock Value
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The Way I Are
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im still alive, just been too busy to post something. maybe this weekend...but tomorrow...HI FIVE!!! first time clubbing since like...shit, since a long time ago. ok that is all.

also, im really addicted to that new timbaland song i got. been listening to it non stop tonight.

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Saturday, April 14, 2007

last night

man, so last night (friday) must have been everyone and their mom has a party at their apartment night. south of wilshire is a generally quiet area but yeah, clearly wasnt the case on friday. anyways, i had my fair share of drinks and enjoyment, so when i got back to my apt, i changed my clothes, set my alarm, and then i just knocked out. i woke up and saw my AIM still on and the clothes from the other night on the floor. damn, i was out cold. oh well.

i did wake up before my alarm went off, so i wasted some time looking up "hangover" in Wikipedia. that was quite interesting, but it didnt help my headache, so i decided to drink some water and eat some food. i envy those who dont get hangovers.

sometimes im quite surprised about how many thoughts can cycle through my head about certain things, and i really dont get how i reach the point where i feel like i can write a thought down, in xanga anyways. you get caught up in trying to make something coherent, but i noticed that my recent trend in xanga writing has not centered on coherence, but rather on my emotional state or whats currently going through my head.

on another note, this is whats going in my mind about certain things in my life.

thought 1
...i think i need to learn how to let go. not necessarily forget about something in general, or just abandon it...but to use an analogy, its like to loosen up a knot. you dont want to completely untie it, but you want to loosen it up a bit for some freedom. sometimes you get so caught up trying to make it tight that you put yourself in a bind....

thought 2
...sometimes i think im motivated to do things, as any normal person, because you have a hope or dream of something better. but sometimes, is it always best to have a lofty dream or ambition for certain things? maybe you expect too much and you get let down. what if theres a degree of uncertainty beyond? its hard, i want to just let go and let things happen as they will. but how do i know it will work out my way? if theres a will, theres a way, right? lets hope so...

thought 3
...i think i really need some good news in my life. id say so far things have been pretty bleh but im tired of bleh. whenever i try to make it not bleh it doesnt seem to work out as how i wanted it. someone told me i only think that days are bad because it didnt turn out as how i expected it. but i just dont get it, i dont know how i can go through a day without expecting SOMETHING. i mean, people say all this crap about seizing the day and living each day to the fullest, well, i mean, if you wake up not expecting anything, then what the hell will motivate you? perhaps i am taking it the wrong way, but seriously, i dont know.

i think this comes about seriously because this is really the first time in my life where i am forced to make decisions for mysef. it just hit me that throughout most of my life, a lot of the best decisions i've made have not always been influenced by myself. theres always my parents or my sisters who have some factor in the decision. now, im faced with things that i have to just decide for myself, and i think having not been used to such throughout my life, all these changes are hitting me hard, and i dont know how to react well.

yes, perhaps thats just it. or maybe i just need some really good stuff to happen....

...that is all.

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Thursday, April 12, 2007

a real entry

well, i guess i'm feeling emo enough so you all know what that means, a real xanga entry.

haha, on that note, it reminds me of a google ad in myspace that goes like: Are you Emo? You might be Emo. Take the Emo quiz!

i dunno about you, but that cracked me up so much. just the thought of such a quiz is baffling to me.

sometimes i think i am a slave to my own thinking. dammit, sometimes i wish that i could just stop thinking about things and just DO it. how can certain things come so easily and yet some things come so hard. hell i should just follow the words of yoda...do or do not, there is no try. hahaha im so damn weird.

bleh i dont know what else to write so i'll leave it at that.

on another note, 2 eprops to Chinese-American Culture Night, which was held by ACA last night at UCLA. it was a great show, and 2 more eprops to Jessica and Scott for coordinating the show, and also all the hard working ACA members and staff who put it on. defintely makes me excited for VCN next year and what we can do.

i seriously spoke too soon about being happy again. i need to stop posting stuff like that and ruining my luck. i think im hitting a low point right now but heck, maybe if i sleep and pray enough things might look better tomorrow. hell, lets hope so.

...that is all.

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