Currently Listening Everything Is Alive, Everything Is Breathing Nothing Is Dead and Nothing Is Bleeding By The Chariot see related

for sather and those who arent with it get a myspace

so today was a really bad starting with waking up trying to get a job and failing next i sat at home because i got stood up once a-f'n-gain by a person who i thought was supposed to a really good friend i was upset cause this is the first time but it will be last. well anyway we ended up hanging out way later and i thought everything was good but apprently not so i went to the car and listened to music and my friend came out and was like ill take you not like i had a choice nor wanted one either but we talk a little on the car ride which lead to us both getting made at each other and me basically saying talk to you later o wait you are always too busy so thats the story of my night and how i lost what i thought was really good friend who i could trust in and tell anything well thanks alot

but i also for w/e reason think that i have made really poor choices esp. recently and this for w/e reason god is punishing me for i guess im feel like to some extent i deserve this i just feel like i have been living a lie and saying im a christian but not always living the life i say i guess right now i feel fake i mean i want to do good and for whatever reason i cant i am weak i have been asking for strength through him but i dont feel like that is helping and it just feels like this massive amount of wieght that is pushing me down is going to soon squash me sometimes i wish i had that remote control that adam sandler has and could fast forward through time to make sure i would turn out ok if it did go bad make changes so that i could live a better life and this is my appolgy to everyone im sorry for being as fake as scene kid no ive been worse than that but along with i guess i feel like the friends i have arent really my friends and act like my friends purely out of pitty and that feeling just kills i wish i could act like a beter person and again i am sorry to my friends family and god for acting so fake 

Currently Listening Middle of Nowhere By Hanson thas right bitches see related

o my love please dont cry ill wash my bloody hands and we'll start a new life

Currently Listening Move Along By The All-American Rejects see related

I’m so sorry

But actually I’m not

I now see what this was to you

I wanted more

And it just wasn’t meant to be

My banner is still the same

I still think of you while I day dream

I listen to my voicemail just to hear you scream

I wish the twins were more appealing

I wish I didn’t talk with strangers

I wish I wasn’t jealous

Of all the boys and other fellas

My banner is still the same

I still think of you while I day dream

I listen to my voicemail just to hear you scream

Maybe I should hate you for this

Were uttered from your lips

Never really did quite get that far

Was my response

Now you tell me to go after her

You don’t know anything about her

You don’t see why I can’t

It’s just that she’s not you

My banner is still the same

I still think of you while I day dream

I listen to my voicemail just to hear you scream

what do you think