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| For a long time I whole heartedly believed in not regretting anything in life, because everything you do and everything that happens to you makes you who you are. But now, I think there are certain things I would elect to completely erase from my memory. I don't know if it is because I live alone now, and thus are alone with my own thoughts more often, or what, but lately certain things have just seemed to haunt me. weird.
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| So, that thing I decided to do a year and a half ago has finally started. I attended my first official classes as an official student at Boston College Law School. I spent three hours this morning in the library, two hours in class, followed by about two additional hours in library. that adds up to about 4.5 hours in the library...actually working. In undergrad, I had not spent that much time in the library until my senior year...and that was when I would go cram for exams or bust out a paper during the few hours before class started. No, Dawn has finally decided to cultivate her intelligence and actually try to do something in life. The best part of all of this (and decidedly the factor making it possible in the least) is that I actually enjoyed it. I enjoyed reading about torts and briefing the cases, I couldn't put down my civil procedure assignment, which was reading about the legal issues surrounding the Buffalo Creek Disaster back in the 70's, I sat riveted in my Legal Research and Writing class, and had not the slightest problem staying interested in my Property class (that I had actually completed the assignment for! I can even REMEMBER the last time I thouroughly and completely did an assigned reading for a class...not even in my PolySci classes, which I really liked). So far I like law school alot...I know the work load is going to pile up, but I'm ready!
What is equally exciting to me is the social aspect of all of this--Like I wrote about previously, I have already made a BUNCH of great friends that I really love hanging out with. As social as we all are, I don't think we could have picked a better law school! The school itself seems completely conducive to social butterfly type (which I most certainly am)--Our orientation session closed with a reception, complete with tables full of food and two fully equipped bars. Yes, free beer and wine, right there on the campus. Our first "bar review" night is this thursday evening at a bar in downtown Boston--apparently once a month the Law School hosts "bar reviews" somewhere in Boston, also complete with free food and drinks. There is another get-together planned for Sunday, and I can't wait for the annual Booze Cruise the law school does in september.
While BC Law and everything related to it--the people, the city, the academics--has surpassed all of my expectations, things aren't quite perfect. Well they would be, if it weren't for a little thing called the entire Southeastern region of the continental US. Even though we are far apart I feel like I love Andy more every day---even our phone conversations are better than entire (in person) dates I have had with alot of other guys. We always end up in these silly conversations that leave us both cracking up. I love that I cant count on him for a laugh when I am feeling sad, and count on him to catch me when I have one of my little "breakdowns." He even told me the other night he likes it when I turn to him when I am a wreck, because he likes being the one to be there for me. Things are going great for him too--he's doing really well at work, getting great experience and making the big bucks (he no longer tells me how does each day by telling me how many computers he sells, he simply tells me how many presents I'll get, haha!) WE are great...its just the ME that has to deal with coming home to an empty place, going to bed without kissing him and feeling him squeeze me one last time and then turn over, not getting to cook yummy meals for him or cuddle on the couch with him or joke around in the kitchen with him, that is NOT DOING WELL. You never realize how much you love all of those little things until you dont get them every day--you dont even realize how MANY special little things you have between just the two of you until you dont get to have them every day. sigh. Good thing is--I have done long distance before...for an entire year actually. And if anything good comes of it, it's the intensified feelings that get unleashed when you actually ARE together...togetherness becomes that much more special. I cannot WAIT until October.
Well, now that I have completed my obligatory boyfriend paragraph, I guess its time to wrap up this entry. Im gonna go read about contracts and then go to SLEEP. I have four classes tomorrow, a legal ethics workshop, most likely a couple hours in the library...and then bar review! "BC Law students dont pass the bar...they walk right in!!"
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| This entry is dedicated to Alex...my new favorite blog stalker!!
Well, I have been in Boston almost a week now. Things are actually better than I ever would have imagined. I already have a Law School BFF, an apartment full of crate and barrell, a new outlook on my relationsip, AND two assignments to have done for the first day of school. Now lets examine these points further:
My LSBFF is actually Adrienne, a girl from the south who i have so much in common with its eerie. She's an outgoing blonde who likes to go out just as much as I do--we hit the town together the second night I was in town and had a total blast. The first night I was here a bunch of people from BC got together at one of the bars here in Brighton, and I have to say that if I was ever unsure of my decision to go to BC, I couldnt be happier at this point. Everyone is easy going, nice, friendly. We have all been hanging out alot and I feel like i already have a great group of friends here in Boston. The girls especially have been such great support through my difficulty being seperated from the boy I have been with every single day for the last 4 months. This has made leaving so many people I love alot easier to deal with...but it hasnt made me miss them any less. :(
My apartment is really coming together--its just my size and thanks to my lovely boyfriend and crate and barrel, it looks really nice. I also got one of those 37 inch LCD tv's---its really badass. Still waiting on all my office furniture, so i still have an empty room. I finally made the trip to CVS to get household items and Whole Foods to get groceries, and now I feel like I have a home and not a space with random boxes and assembly instructions strewn about.
The most amazing development of my move to Boston is where it has taken my relationship with Andy. He flew up last saturday to help me move in and it was absolutley fantastic. We had both been kind of avoiding talking about what would happen after I moved, save a few drunk phone calls he made to me at different times I was out of Austin. The first night he was here in Boston, while we were still out downtown actually, somehow it came up, and he told me that he had been thinking the "right" thing to do would probably be to break up, but that the moment he saw me that day he knew he couldnt do it. He said he really wanted to try, and standing there looking at him, I knew I did too. I havent been truly in love with someone in a while, and we are completely perfect for eachother. I'm really not a big believer in long distance, so I told him if we were to do this it would have to be with the belief that this could be The Real Thing down the road. He told me hes never felt this way about a girl before and that he thinks I am worth waiting for, that he does feel that this relationship could someday result in marriage. (WAAAAAY down the road. I am no where near ready to get married, but I just really dont see the point in doing this long distance thing unless that is a real possibility.) I am a little freaked out...I havent been in such a serious relationship in a long time and I cant imagine ever even being sure that I am ready for it. But maybe its just one of those things you have to do. I know this is going to be hard...On one hand I am so happy that I have such a great relationship, but on the other, not getting to be with him every day is awful.
And finally...law school starts in a week. The thing I have been working towards for the past year is finally occuring. As I mentioned earlier I already have two assignments for the first day. I went and bought my books today--whats another 620 bucks at this point? good lord.
So, all in all, it's time for me to finally get serious about my life and do something with it. What better time or place to do it then now in Boston?
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| well apparently im starting law school in a month. I have been working towards this for over a year now, and for it to finally be happening is a pretty amazing feeling. I remember sitting in this little Austin coffee shop reading princeton review and researching LSAT classes for hours. I had no idea at that point I would end up at a school like BC...and in a city like Boston. I'm finally getting ready to move across the country away from everything I have ever known.
People keep telling me that law school is going to be extremely challenging and intense...something I have never doubted. but I must say, as long as it isnt as intense and challenging as this moving-from-texas-to-boston process is turning out to be. I have spent the past few weeks trying to get my loans in order, which has been quite frustrating because I have no idea what I am doing. I had never even filled out a FAFSA until this year. I think its all going to come together in time...sure is nice of these people to give me $150,000. I have also been trying to decide what to do with the lovely lil chunk of change my dad gave me as a little bonus for not taking a year off like I was thinking about doing. Alot of it is going to go into making my new apartment badass (all new furniture and a plasma tv), but I'm looking to put 10 or 12 thousand into some sort of savings account...or maybe a CD. Again I must say I know nothing about this sort of thing so if anyone has any pearls of wisdom concerning that subject, I'm all ears.
I feel so strange right now. These last couple of weeks, i feel like i have been entertaining this weird dichotomy of emotion--on one hand, i am extremely excited about starting a new life, about learning so much, meeting new, interesting people, about all the incredible oppurtunities that will be coming my way, and about finally being on my own. but as this feeling of excitement intensifies, so does an equally strong feeling of sadness. I have made so many incredible friends here in Austin...friends I dont even like to leave for a weekend. I also find myself in the incredible relationship. I met andy a while ago...pretty soon after i turned 21 I believe, and we verrrry casually "dated" for a while. I was at the peak of my serial dating, anti relationship days, and i dont think he was looking for much at that time either. we eventually stopped hanging out but alwys kinda kept touch, and started running into eachother all over campus, and finally he started meeting up with me dt again and took me to dinner a few times. We toootally clicked...it was really out of no where, and I really didnt plan on getting into anything at this point in my life. But things were so great, we decided to give it a try. I didnt think at all I would end up falling for him like I have...but I am definitely in love. He has been AMAZING...I have been going through alot lately, and he has been there every step of the way. He's put up with a considerable amount of shit from me and he only gets more and more wonderful. He's coming to Boston for a few days to help me get set up and see the town...i really look forward to it.
sigh.
in other news, today was my last day of babysitting...ill probly still help karen out a bit, but for the most part, its over...I am on to my real life. I cannot BELIEVE there was a time when I wanted to get married right out of college and become a stay at home mom soon after....boy have things changed. And so much babysitting was definitely the nail in the coffin, not that I needed one...there is no way i could do it, i now know for a fact. BigLaw here i come!!!
well, I hope everyone enjoyed this update. comments? questions? donations to help with my future enourmous heap of debt?
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| Well, plans have changed again! After deciding on George Mason, I recieved an acceptance from Boston College Law...an offer I couldn't refuse! Not only had BC been in the top 20's in the USNews rankings for a long time now, the campus is like something out of the movies, the students were laid back and super smart, and the school offers incredible career prospects. And it doesnt hurt that Boston is one of the coolest cities I have ever visited. AH! I caaan't wait.
While I am super excited...I know it will be SOO hard to leave Austin. I have had more fun these past couple year than I ever thought possible. Especially this last semester or so...it seems there is something fun going on almost every single night...just leaving Austin for a weekend leaves me feeling like I have missed out on something. And I love that--I love how much fun there is to be had around here at any given time...and sometimes I feel like I am CRAZY to leave behind the incredible friends I have made here in this incredible place. But all in all, I know this is the right path for me, because I have never felt as happy with myself. I have never felt so capable or satisfied.
On a superficial note, the scale now reads a BEAUTIFUL 106 when I step on it...and yes, I do wish I didnt care, but I have to admit it makes me smile. And I got there in a healthy way.
Well the boy just texted..."Margaritas at El Arroyo?" and I'm not about to turn that one down. so I will have to continue this at a later time.
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