mk so i will just skip to lunch since the first half of the day is super duper boring anyway
so we get there. and we get food. what a concept, eh? anyway...people wrote on me, which i did not appreciate. ONE BIT. but oh well. so then we saw ryan (like 20 minutes later) and everyone EXCEPT brooke said he was staring at me but brooke claims he was staring at her & its funny because we were on opposite sides of the table but OKAY so anyway i waved to him because he was looking at me and he waved back and then brooke was standing up so he gave her a hug & i got up and was like i want a hug too! so he gave me a hug and belinda & cheri both said he only gave brooke a hug so he could give me a hug. but i'm not getting conceited about it because these are just things other people have told me. i don't even think he could ever like me because i dono i just don't think i'm his type or whatever. anyway moving on.
we ate and we were GOING to go outside but brooke had to start with her stalker tendencies and follow ryan to the cash register majigg where they have candy bars and all i needed was a quarter and i wanted an oatmeal cream pie and so brooke wouldn't give me it so i asked ryan. and he gave me 30 cents  i was like UH yeah you're hot. so anyway, i got my oatmeal cream pie and i was el-happy-o.
sooooooo lunch ended and i went to drama which was BoRiNg. so we won't discuss it. the rest of the day was pretty boring ACTUALLY.
soooo after school, we rode the bus home like usual since brooke is odd. and we started fighting just about ryan, and boys in general, and how she's never backed down from a guy and how i always do and she goes "you can't make me stop liking him. you can try all you want but you WILL not stop me" and i told her i didn't want to ruin our friendship over boys but lately it feels like she has been treating me like crap when it comes to everything and blah blah blah big fight but we are good now.
soooo after that i stopped by my house, got some cheez*its and went to justin's game. and don't that hans was there. and don't think brooke likes him now. i was like YOU MOTHER FUCKER. hans was the only guy i liked who she didn't. of course, now she does. everyone thinks she does it on purpose. so i was bitching at her for that, because i totally liked him first, and she said the same thing she said about ryan about how i can't make her stop or whatever. she was just royally pissing me off. i'm going to start being a bitch to her like she is to me. watch me.  it seems dumb to start all this over guys, but i haven't had a boyfriend recently because of the fact she likes everyone i ever even have the slightest interest in. of course she'll be a shitty friend and go out with them but i just can't do that because i'm me. whatever.
so then i went home and did homework and NoOOOw i am here. talked to cheri and she told me allll the reasons she thinks ryan likes me and you know when you get that gut feeling that a guy likes you no matter if he acts like it or not? well i NEVER get that. and i have it now. but what does it matter anyway? it doesn't. it never will.
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