| I have a new xanga because this one won't let me play music, so fuck that shit...but here it is: http://www.xanga.com/deadlyangel5 |
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| I'm so fucking sick of ignorant people thinking they're all in love. They don't fucking know what love is! Damnit! I know what love is! Love is when you care about someone so much that it hurts, yes it fucking hurts! It feels like your heart is being ripped from your bare chest everytime you think about the person, knowing that they're not here with you. Love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love!! That's all i hear everywhere i go! And do you know what really fucking hurts more than love!? When you know the person you do give your bleeding heart to is giving theirs to someone else. Now that really fucking hurts! So now you tell me, is love really worth all it's worked up to be? No i didn't think so. Being in love is like walking straight into your own death...yes, there is such thing as *death* as you may call it. but me, i call it getting away from all of you and your fucking love! So here's an anonymous poem for you weak fuckers!!
The blood now flows from deep inside my heart
the hand that holds it shall keep us far apart
and place my love in a box to stay for years
until this heart may love again sans tears.
My heart is cracked, so worn by years of pain
The fragile monster shall not again be plain
Oh, the tears I've cried, the blood I've shed for love
The pain I've felt the Hell I've known from above
My thought my hopes so dashed so torn, so meek
That hate has burned my heart so black and bleak
It is my hand that holds this heart so frail
I'd rip it from my chest to stop my wail
I've loved, I've lost I've cried the tears of white
I bleed this white and prepare for coming night
In the night I'll stay, in the night so dark I'll lie
never to taste a kiss of love I'll sigh
but never again shall I cry...
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| something happened last night i dont want to remember.....lets just say im never playing truth or dare again with two guys who cant take no for an answer. im okay...i guess....i am now..but im really pissed off! my collar bone is all fucked up, damnit! im drinking dr. pepper, it's good, the best drink in the world, besides alcohol. well dont really feel like talking today |
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| i was going through some serious shit last night so i called a friend for their comfort and support, thinking they'd be up on a saturday night, and i get bitched at...which made the situation 10x worse for me...and i know it was pretty late when i called, which im sorry, but sometimes you just need someone to talk to, with me i never find someone to talk to so i was just screwed. yes, i went to sleep last night feeling colder than ever. |
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| all hope is lost so what's left of this emptiness inside eating away at my heart |
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