well

Currently Listening The Best Damn Thing By Avril Lavigne Hold On see related

Just when you are ready to throw in the towel a certain song gets you through. That emotion you feel while thinking "was i really going to give up" just puts a smile on my face.

Some people don't believe that things happen for a reason, but its true. Many people have tried to convince me of the Judeo-Christian religion, but there are some things that I just can't swallow about it. I'm not putting it down because that would be wrong and I'm all for free expression. Its just that I have never really been a believer in the Christian God and Jesus, until I met someone.

That someone has shown me, with his faith in God, that its okay to accept that there are some things that you just can't change, that you can't control.

mmmm

so i have a midterm essay to write on 5 different authors but it can be no longer than 2 pages; WTF!!! i honestly don't even know if its possible for me to do. i havent even taken wr121. jfc!!

im pretty fucking bored honestly. i need to write summary for phil. thats due by midnight. i should probably get a move on that. well i will post later k.

aims

Weekend

SOOO!!!

I figured an actual update is in order.

Friday I hung out with my sis Jordan and her friends, got sum grub, rented movies that kind of thing.

Saturday, went to a PowWow in Albany which was hella awesome and i got sum Buffalo moccasins. When i got home we found out that my 2nd oldest cow Anne had her baby. So that was pretty exciting to have a new baby at the barn. I will post sum pics pretty soon.

Sunday-Actually I just got back from the barn. Jr.(the new bull calf) hadn't been nursing from his mom so we had to make him some formula. We went all the way back out to the barn, and guess what we found out; he had just finished nursing!! Damn animals. O well. Today has gone pretty well and I helped rearrange my Ma's livingroom.

Basically Im just chilin after a shower, no really it's freezing. Just listening to Blink182, kinda reminds me of the old days at OD when we used to have to sit in the gym until school started. All drama and fighting, and I would go back and do it all over 10 more times. If having friends mad at me because i didnt go to the rink on friday and so and so just started dating were my biggest worries it would be a blast.

School: well i was sick most of last week and i skipped my af.am.lit. class on Th. and I just realized that i have a midterm on Tuesday. I am going to have to talk to my prof. to see if he will fill me in. He is probably the nicest prof. i have had so far. Half of them dont even rmr. my fucking name. O well. Well hopefully  things go mighty swell tomm. Love you guys!!!

aims

Hugs and Kisses

Do you ever not know who you are sometimes? Do you ever think to yourself "why am i here right now"? What am i doing?

Honestly I dont know what i am doing.

I dont know where i am going.

But i do know this:

I miss you.

I crave you.

I want those memories to be reality.

I want the happiness and hurt that goes with it.

I want to stop dreaming, I want someday to be today.

I love you.

This goes out to you guys;

Yelena,

Courtney,

Jimmy,

Keila,

Carlos,

Lauren,

Simone,

 Duyen,

and AZN Mafia

, Cody,

Tayler,

Taylor,

Kaliegh,

Alicia,

all those badass eighth graders,

Sammy,

David,

 Fam.,

Frazier,

Jade,

Jacob,

Kevin,

Kevo,

Lexi,

Matt,

Tito,

Farhat,

Chris,

Terry,

Ridwan,

Bukki,

Syd and Laura,

Elorie,

Ben,

 Tyler,

 Dajon,

Oscar,

everyone else i have yet to list.