life as a high school graduateI am a woman of many things
I am a woman who sometimes dreams of materialistic things
But for the most part, I am a woman who is eighteen
I am a woman who has many crushed dreams
A woman who is beginning to realize that life and love aren't what they seem
Even on the movie screen, the grass isn't always green
I am a woman with an eclectic mind and taste
A woman who doesn't have enough money to waste
I am a woman who chooses to continue to run this race
Hoping to win first and end up in a better place
I am a woman who sometimes loves to debate
A woman who knows how often others do hate
I tells them to speak their mind and leave with a clean slate
Maybe we can be on the first or second base-plate
I am a woman who continues to change over time
I know that change is always a good sign
But yeah, this is my rhyme
I am a woman who sometimes despises men
I feel like their heart is something I could never win
At least the one I love isn't like all men
I am a woman and I've run out of time
I will keep my head up and continue to shine
ok i really miss Creative Writing class if you haven't noticed. i wrote that a couple of days ago. it's a biography poem..personality poem i guess.
life after high school has been a bit depressing and boring. i miss the ol Ouachita. i don't mean the faculty. oh no. im very happy that i have moved away from them. ok maybe there's a couple of teachers that i'll miss such as Mrs. Guinn and Mrs. Cosper. but im going to miss the people that has made all 4 years of my high school life a blast. mostly the people that were involved in my life during my senior year has made everything great. i really wish i had of known you guys for a lot longer than just one year. molly, hunter, ryan, ashley..you guys made my senior year a blast.
i grew up a lot during my senior year. i realized that my attitude is the worst flaw that i have. yeah, who doesn't like when people think they're going to walk all over them and get away with it? who doesn't like to be annoyed? i would rather pop off at the mouth with people rather than sit there, shut up and listen. stubborn? hell yup.
but i learned that i can never be right all the time no matter how much i try and get my point across. im not the type of person that wants to be right all the time. i just want people to hear me out and listen and when they refuse to do it, i get angry. i dont even realize that i did the same exact thing to them. but as always, i continued to stand up for myself and what i believe is wrong or right. that will always be apart of me because i enjoy debating with people. i enjoy standing up for my friends with they're in the right. if you're in the wrong, you're on your own. i can only support some people for so long. in the end, it gets kind of old when it's constant that you're wrong.
i also learned how to handle certain situations with people. rather than writing them off completely, i should sit down and have a talk with them. that's all that anyone wants. we want for people to sit down and talk to us rather than just write us off. but writing people off and avoiding conversation is simple human nature.
ive taught myself how to deal with life as it throws you lemons and tomatos. ive learned how to deal with bad news such as one of your friends dying or your grandfather having prostate cancer. there's always a "i will see you soon but in another form" and a "everything will be okay because God is taking care of you."
ive learned how to deal with love and relationships. ive learned to not let myself fall so deeply in love as i have for sebastian. i still love him, no doubt. i'm just preventing myself from falling more. i guess in a way, i quickly erased my feelings for him and built it all back up and stopped at a certain point. im not going to crowd him at all. every man needs his space. im slightly afraid of being cheated on but if he does then that means he doesn't really want me or he just wasnt satisfied. he can do whatever he pleases and i won't have a problem with it or at least i won't let him know that i do. im giving him the freedom that i didnt give him before i learned to just ease up. i was afraid to lose him and i still am but if i do, it just won't hurt as much as it would have before i became this way. it'll sting though.
i guess that's what ive learned so far. im still learning and trying to prepare myself for college and the worst that life could throw at me. i must say that my relationship with sebastian, right now, is great. i couldn't ask for anything better right now.
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i will see you again. guaranteed
congrats. savor it.
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