When I was feeling much boredom and uneasiness during the busy minutes and seconds in the early part of my vocations last month, I came to a conclusion that I must leave the country, be it only a week, for an uninterrupted vocation.

That were the few days, at the early hours after mid-night, when i randomly searched through WebPages like yahoo travel, jetstar, hangi airport etc etc for air-tickets. Taipei and Kaohsiung.

Could this be loneliness that is a derivative of my state of being, or stage of being?

And yet I shall be alone, traveling to a place, so that I don't feel alone.

If only Taiwan was only a destination. If only I am just a traveler. I did not know if this is a lie to me.

And perhaps, if I were to be genuinely honest, then it is a destiny...and anyway what that has happened, is happening or is going to happen, are not destinies? And I am more a escapist than a traveler, running away from something deeper than a sense of freedom.

People would be suspicious that all were unplanned, but that is not exactly the truth. Deep inside my conscious and subconscious, it is planned, even the possible concrete things that would happened and stupid stuff I could do, just that they kept changing and being displaced by possibilities and uncertainties.

Everything about our mind and heart is complicated, so complicated that when you thought that you have actually understood it, you actually have not.

And I witnessed how I took down moments in images, associate one or two songs with my emotions, a sentence or a piece of dialogue for an emotion, carelessly crafted and put together into a youtube video clip. The lights and the people walking among people and lights in a night-market, the people I met, moments of solitude, the smell of rain, dramatically directed after movies as crazy episodes of laughter and forgetting. Some captured and some just privately remembered:

6月8日， 第一日(Sun)。

我是带着忐忑不安决定飞台——这样的一种决定，决定不了快乐与不快乐。

是的，人生总是充满了辗转与罗生门——人与人的聚散疏离，以及多余的执著。

如果俗气的说，人生真的像一次旅行，那么，我这次的旅行，正戏谑在模拟我的人生。原本打算这次短暂之行，包含70% 的高雄、30%的台北，但最终还是没经过和逗留台北，从桃园机场下机就转支线客运，乘高铁奔高雄。

竟然在抵高雄前联络上fy--她竟猜到我回来台。也真的犹豫是否要去惊扰她，而且毕竟也隔了好半年，见面时会否陌生、客气？

难怪lonely planet 形容高铁是state of art，彻底改变了台湾远程客运模式。令人想起日本的新干线子弹火车。全程只需1小时半，稍稍弥补无法直飞高雄的遗憾。

不介意在高铁上歪着头靠着厢壁睡，乘客也不多，一个身体、一个灵魂，可以占着两个座位，在身心宽阔、怡然中想着往事、猜度着外来。

出走，真的领你离开原来的空间、世界，这次离开不管玩得尽兴与否，那种抽离感可能还是好的——9 点了。

况且，或许真的如所感，一切不过冥冥中的安排，只是个体永远无法知道命运将带自己去哪里——台南了。

原来，左营站已有完整捷运衔接高雄，致使2007年底版的lonely planet 还未update 此事。

Youtube 上截的video-捷运、中央公园站和爱河

Videos:

有邡羽伴着带着游走夜市和不知名的大街小巷，真是难得的福气。一方面，这样的说说笑笑，却有时沉默，俨然取消了旅行浮华的感觉，另一方面，又完成了一种逍遥自得却免除寂寞的舒服。

毕竟，我已经过了那种每至夜市必兴奋不已的境况，却也为此，寻找到另一种平凡的愉悦。

我想身为高雄人的fy 至少在潜意识中，会尝试把高雄的特点推介到我的面前。然而，去年年底的全包式台北行，佩玲小麦广权的全程陪游，使我在台北吃吃喝喝中难以找到太多的遗憾。

除了泡泡珍珠茶，fy 买了青草水请我喝，加了薄荷，好像真的是喝了几口，才开始明白过来，仙草和青草水虽然名和神韵颇有相似，却根本不是同一回事。

雾一般的春雨，虽湿不透全身，但洒在皮肤上，还能觉出湿润来。姑娘跑到门外，看见如约前来的小伙子打着伞，这才喊道：“哎哟！怎么下雨了？”小伙子将脸藏在伞内，这雨伞与其说是挡雨，倒不如说是他来到姑娘家的铺面前时，为了遮羞而打开的。小伙子默默地将伞遮在姑娘的头顶上。姑娘只把一边的肩膀伸进去，小伙子见姑娘还淋着雨，很想请她靠近自己，可又没有勇气开口。当然，姑娘也很想一只手凑上去拿伞，但不知怎么的，却偏偏做出了要逃出伞外的样子。两人羞赧地走进一家照相馆。小伙子那当官的父亲要携眷赴外地上任，他们是来拍分别照的。

“请您二位坐到这边来吧。”

摄影师指着一张长椅子说。小伙子不好意思挨着姑娘坐，便站在她的身后。为了想表示出他们俩身体的某一部分相依在一块儿，小伙子把扶在椅子靠背上的手指轻轻地碰着姑娘的外套。通过手指感觉到她那微热的体温，小伙子仿佛受到了紧紧拥抱着姑娘时的温暖。从此以后，每当看到这张合照时，他都会回味起她的体温来的。

“再来一张怎么样？”摄影师颇热情地说，“您二位最好是挨近点，把上半身拍大些。”

姑娘点头不语。“您的头发是不是……”小伙子悄悄地对姑娘说。姑娘无意中抬头望了他一眼，顿时两颊绯红，明眸里闪烁出欣喜的光芒，她赶忙像孩子般温顺地到化妆室去了。瞧见小伙子来到家门口时，她连理一下头发都顾不得便跳了出来。一头蓬松的头发，像刚刚脱下游泳帽似的，姑娘为此感到不安，但是，在男子面前，她又陷于羞涩，连拢拢头发的动作都做不出来，而小伙子又怕提醒会使她难堪。去化妆室时姑娘的欢快神态深深感染了小伙子，不一会儿，两个人就很自然地一块儿坐在了椅子上。临走时，小伙子找起他的雨伞来，他偶尔发现，伞已经被先走出门口的姑娘拿在手里了。姑娘从小伙子的目光中突然醒悟过来，心里不由暗自一怔——无形中，她竟已把自己当成他的人了！小伙子没有要回伞，姑娘也不大愿意交还给他。可是，不像来时那样胆怯，他们似乎一下子变成了大人，像一对夫妻似的走回去了。雨伞在的雨雾中远去，远去……