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| Being thankfulThis morning while laying in bed, a thought occurred to me. Once again I won't be having Thanksgiving with my family. This means I miss out on one tradition I love the most..... after finishing our food my little sister would always say "Ok, now we go around the table and say what we're thankful for!" Always cheesey, but it always got me thinking.
I heard her ask me in a dream "Dezzie... what are you thankful for?"
I had to write it down somewhere. Here seems to be a nice place :)
So after quite a bit of thinking about the last year, here's what I came up with.
What I am thankful for.
-My family, who has supported me through all the craziness of this last year.
-My daddy, who was there to wipe away any tear or doubt I had and always ready with a hug and an "I love you" no matter what I had done.
-My mommy, who has given me mounds of useful advice on everything you can imagine, and always there to let me know she'll always love me no matter what.
-My brother, who seems to always know how to make me laugh... even when I'm ready to bawl my eyes out.
-My sister, who's friendship is irraplaceable, I know I can confide in her and trust her with anything.
-God and Jesus, for every blessing they've poured out upon me in my life time (if I tried to write that all out I'd have to write 10 books about the last 5 years!)
-Uncle Scotty and Aunt Aimee, who always seem to open there arms to welcome me, even in the worst situation. Especially when I say something, and my uncle actually understands what I mean.
-Grandma Bobbie, if it werent for her, none of my family would be where we are now. She's always been there for us, took care of us when we couldnt take care of ourselves. I'll always be thankful for her love, hug, and smiles.
-My great-grandparents. From the phone calls to the hugs... all the way down to Grandpa wanting to play cards all the time, life just wouldnt be the same without the occasional game of Canadian Canasta filled with black 3's.
-My friend Rachael. I dont know how she does what she does. But wow. She's an amazing friend, she's been there for me soooo much this last year. I dont know how I could ever thank her enough. From the day I found out I was pregnant, to the day I got married. She's been there doing what she could to help me keep my cool. She reassures me when I'm freaked, and always happy for me (even if I'm not happy for me).
-I'm thankful for the fact that I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food in my tummy, and a warm bed to sleep in.
-I'm thankful for the OB doctor that I've been working with throughout my pregnancy, he's been a constant help and reassurance that everything is going smoothly.
-I'm thankful for Rogue Traders and the people there. If it werent for them I'd be going crazy at home... and probably wouldnt be feeling as good as I have been. The people definatly make my day quite a bit brighter.
-My cellphone, and my computer. They're the main way I stay in touch with those I care about. I'd go crazy if I couldnt email my mom, or call my dad.
-This baby that I get to have at the end of December. She's everything I've ever dreamed of, everything I've ever wanted. I just hope that I can be as good a mom to her as my mom was/is to me.
-My husband. Throughout this last year we've been through sooooo much. So many happy and sad times, good and bad news. He's been my rock, he's so strong, he takes care of me when I dont feel well or things just dont seem to be going right. There's a million things about him that I'm thankful for... mostly I'm thankful he loves me the way he does. My husband means more to me than I could ever say.
This isnt a complete list, just the most important things on it. (and I'm sure you dont want to read that much more)
I encourage everyone who reads this, to stop and take a few minutes and really think on this last year. What are you thankful for? Why are you thankful for it? And share it with those you love, and encourage them to do the same thing.
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| Yes, I'm still alive....But only barely it seems! Wow, things have been absolutely crazy lately! Pregnancy Update:
I'm now about 32 weeks along, so about 8 months. Due at the end of December. Doc says I can deliver safely anytime after 36 weeks... so I really could be having a baby in a month! But I doubt that will happen (A girl can hope though). I dont remember if I ever posted this, but according to the ultrasound we had back in August revealed we're having a baby girl. We've decided to name her after my mother :) her name shall be Kristine Leala. I'm convinced she's going to be perfectly beautiful! :D I'm getting so excited!!!! Spousal Update:
Jer and I are doing fantastic right now. We've had rough spots due to the craziness of pregnancy hormones but he's been so patient and kind about everything. We've been married for 4 and half months now, feels like soooo much longer! Jer's been doing awesome at his masters work so far, I'm so proud of him! He's working his tail-bone off at PDQ too, and it's starting to show. He's pretty stressed, but hopefully Thanksgiving time will be a good break for him (he gets Thanksgiving and the day after off). He's looking forward to it. Speaking of Thanksgiving he and I have yet to decide what we want to do.... crazy families live on opposite sides of the planet from eachother it seems.... *sigh* I just wish I could be eating my mom's turkey this year... I didnt get it last year :( maybe next year? I'm definatly crossing my fingers on that one! My update :)
I've been doing farely well wtih the pregnancy and all. Tons and TONS of wacky crazy hormones, honestly I dont think I've EVER cried this much in my entire life. Because of the amount of discomfort my activities are very limited... my pregnancy hasnt been great... but it could've been way worse... so I'm thankful that me and my little girl are healthy, and remind myself constantly that what's waiting for me at the end of this is the one thing I've always wanted my entire life.
I've been working at Rogue Traders, at first it was just a couple nights a week when it was pretty busy, but now it's during the day and for the majority of the week. I open the store at 1 and usually I'm out of there around 4 or 4:30. It's not bad! Tuesday-Friday is when I'm working, and Jer runs fights on Friday so I'm at Rogues pretty much ALL day! But that's ok, there's loads of cool people there :D I've been learning how to do comicbooks and things of the like... slowly I'm becoming a Rogue Traders monkey, and starting to feel important. :) Misc stuff:
Other than what was said before.... Jer and I are planning the big ceremony still, and there's SO MUCH to be done! HOLY COW! But that's okay, it's soooooo worth it! My mother-in-law is having gastric bypass surgery tomorrow, so keep her in your thoughts and hope that all goes well! Gotta go, the mother-in-law just showed up! Ciao! | | |
| Update :DSo my bday is monday... woowhooo??? I dont know really how to view this "change" I'm another year older? I dont feel like that's a big change at all. Agge of 20? Okay, sounds way better than being 18 or 19. But dang, most days I swear I'm only 17 still, fresh out of high school. It's rare that I truely feel my age, 1 week shy of 20 years, beauty-school drop-out, wife to a man 9 1/2 years older than me, and I most certainly dont feel like I'm old enough to be a mother! But my mom was 20 turning 21 when she had me, and Granny the same age when she was having my mom. Nor do I think that if this trend continues that in 20 years I'll be ready to be a grandmother....
Baby.... a girl even. I suck at dealing with girls... wish me luck wtih this baby. Things are way different than they were a year ago.... getting over Caleb and dealing with being used by Ian. Attending OC with every intention of just transferring to UWGB the next year because of my parents plans to move to Arizona. Making plans to move into an apt with Barb in April and having it fall through. My birthday last year? Blaine took me to Ruby Tuesdays if I remember, it was great. Otherwise, a few of the more new friends had a "party" for me in the Student Center, and Davey even got me a cake. :) I remember that day so splendidly. Church in the morning, wonderful worship, lunch in the caf (i treated myself to an extra brownie for desert), then a nap and I went to house church over in the apts. Logan remembered it was my bday at the end of our worship and they all sang happy bday to me :) Then I walked back to the Student Center where they had the cake and a few of my friends came... I believe I have pics from it on facebook. ANyways, it was fun! Also I got a package from my parents and cards (that included money in them) from various relatives. This year for my bday? Comedy City.... not that I"m complaining, but I"m not exactly excited. So far my friend Rachael and a new friend Noelle are coming..... no one else.....NO ONE! My husband cant even come because he's covering for me at Rogues.... but that's okay, he's buying me a piano keyboard this weekend and he has my actual bday off :D *sigh* Not that I hate hanging out with my hubby cuz I dearly charish all the time we spend together, but I wish I had people out here that would hang out with me more.... Rachael's headed back to Milwaukee Saturday and wont be around for my actual bday... This makes me miss my family even more.... cuz if they were still here I could see them and I wouldnt miss my little sister's 17th bday. HOLY CRIMENY! My sister is almost 17, and a Junior in HS!!! WOW! now time definatly flies.
Anyways, so I'm definatly ready to make friends, but it's damned hard to do when you're pg and basically home-bound. I've been advised to be careful about my last 3 months of pregnancy, to avoid stress like a plague because it will send me into early labor.... so that means avoid certain people whom I know cause me a great deal of stress. *sigh* It's already giving me a headache.
I'm logging for now. Hope everyone's doing well! Leave some love! | | |
| anyone remember the hell I went through last summer with Ian? Dont you think I deserve to not have him in my life what-so-ever? PS it's a girl | | |
| UP date!okay so I havent written here in QUITE some time :) but I'm here now... that's what matters right?? *shrug* The first week of this month (July) I had my first prenatal appointment. They did a papsmear and a few other tests. My pap came back abnormal and a test came back to show that I have HPV. So yesterday I went to have the colposcopy done, but the doc was on the other side of town delivering a baby so I had to reschedule for today. let me tell you I was freaked. I went to the doctors office and when the dr came in he talked to me and reassured me that the procedure was just a pap with a microscope pointed at my cervix, then he pointed at the tv and said 'you can see what i'm doing too if you want" at that time I was like "nah, that's okay" but somehow couldnt resist looking at my insides on display on that monitor. He poked it with a couple q-tip looking things to look at it and told me that it was just fine, everything is very mild and there's no need for a biopsy. But I'll be having another pap in a few more weeks to make sure it hasnt gotten worse, the doc thinks it'll actually clear up by then. Jeramie and I are married :D we got married June 15th, and we've been having a rocky road lately but everything is going better with all the work we've been doing. The baby's heartbeat is stronger than ever and I can feel it moving and kicking every day ;) I'm anxious for it's arrival, but I know we dont have everything we need just yet but that's okay, we're working on it. My first ultrasound is 8/17 so we'll find out the sex of the baby then. But the weekend before that Jeramie and I are going to MI to 'camp' the Wisconsin way (in a trailor). Apparently Jeramie's grandparents are throwing us a baby shower... *excited* Speaking of Jeramie's family. Jeramie's mother dyed my hair last night... let's just say it's 3 diff colors and it doesnt look that great. No pictures will be shown. In other news, my family is moved to Arizona. Jeramie's master classes start the first week of September. And soon all of my friends will be gone to Milawukee or elsewhere if they arent elsewhere already *pout* but that's it for now.. write to you again sometime! | | |
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