mmm.. back to xanga.. deng.. skoo's almost out.. bout 2 weeks left and im gone.. good riddance!  thinkin back to junior yr.. what a rough year it was.. soo many things goin on for me then.. so much struggle.. i remember marking my planner counting down the weeks and days til the end of skoo.  and this yr.. b4 i know it.. theres jus 2 weeks left.  lookin back to this year.. most of it has been a blurr.. moving around.. dealing wit skoo and issues.. and jus dealin wit myself.. runnin around all the time.. not goin home.. feeling as if i grew up a bit too quickly.. its a blurr now..

i dunno how i would rate my senior year.. the beginning of senior year was good for about a few weeks then it was total shit.. then moved to wallace for a few weeks.. then moved back to stockton.. a lot of fun things in april.. but even prom.. which i had looked forward to for so long seemed like it was months ago.  and ever since the IB exams.. which i didn't study for at all.. i've been sleeping so much.. i dunno if its good or bad.. 

i feel so numb.. need my summer to color it all again.