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Monday, May 17, 2004

well, eli has officially graduated from college. i'm so excited and soo proud of him! it's a scary thing, though - facing the "real world." how wonderful that we have Someone to guide us and give us peace and hope... what an amazing adventure this life is!

Monday, April 05, 2004

Currently Reading
Jane Eyre
By Charlotte Bronte
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"and he has said to me, 'my grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness'... when i am weak, then i am strong." ~2 cor. 12:9-10

thank you, Lord, that it is when we feel the weakest that we are actually the most capable because of your Spirit! i ask that you would be with me as i am feeling so indadequate to perform the tasks that you have set before me; help me to trust in your strength and your goodness, and not in my own, for i have none!

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

All of you, is more than enough for, all of me,
For every thirst and every need,
You satisfy me, with your love,
And all I have in you is more than enough.

You’re my supply, my breath of life, still more awesome than I know,
You’re my reward, worth living for, still more awesome than I know.

And all of you, is more than enough for all of me,
For every thirst and every need,
You satisfy me, with your love,
And all I have in you is more than enough.

You’re my sacrifice of greatest price, still more awesome than I know,
You’re my coming king, you are everything, still more awesome than I know,

And all of you, is more than enough for, all of me,
For every thirst and every need,
You satisfy me, with your love,
And all I have of you is more than enough.

More than all I want, more than all I need,
Yeah, You are more than enough for me.
More than all I know, more than all I can say,
Yeah, You are more than enough for me.

what will it take for me to learn this?! why do i seek satisfaction and fulfillment in other things? why does my heart think that it can satisfy itself, that it is self-sufficient? Lord, i know that you are all that i need, more than i could ever want or need! i know that my God is so great and so holy and so perfect that i could never need anything that is outside of Him, but that's so hard to hold on to sometimes. jeremiah tells us that the heart is deceitful above all things, and it is so true... my heart is constantly telling me that there are things in this world that "i can't live without." my prayer, Lord, is that you will teach me that if everything in my world fell away, as it did for Job, that you would be enough for me! God, that if you saw fit to take my husband from me or my parents or my friends, that you would still be God and you would still be all that i would need! Lord, you are everything, and i thank you that i can place my hope in that. i thank you that you have given us a hope and a future, that you have not left us here to struggle on our own, but that you have given us your Holy Spirit to guide us and strengthen us, that you have given us your Son to allow us access to your very throne!

Thursday, February 26, 2004

it occurred to me last night after i spent several minutes enjoying the xanga pages of my friends that there's no reason i can't resurrect my own! so i guess i'm back, for now anyway. not much to say today except that it's snowing :) it's a glorious, beautiful snow today, not threatening, but soft and wonderful. what a great God we serve to give us such precious gifts and vivid pictures of Himself and His goodness. snow is a fabulous illustration of what the blood of Christ does for us. it covers up all the yucky, dead brown stuff that is our heart with a glorious, shiny, untainted blanket of righteousness. how wonderful!