I CANT GET INTO MY FUCKING EMAIL. WHEN I TRY TO CONNECT TO THAT SERVER IT SAYS "THIS PAGE CANNOT BE DISPLAYED" ,THEN AT THE TOP IT SAYS "CANNOT FIND SERVER". I NEED TO GET INTO MY MAIL BY TONIGHT. I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE ON THERE. GOD THIS MAKES ME SO ANGRY.BUT ALL IN ALL I CALLED MY AUNT (SHE IS A COMPUTER PROGRAMMER OR ANALIST) SO HOPEFULLU I GET A CALL FROM HER OR SHE COMES OVER TOMORROW. THE PERSON I AM SUPOSED TO EMAIL, WILL PROBABLY THINK THAT I HATE HIM. IF I CANT GET IT WORKING BY TOMORROW I WILL JUST HAVE TO CALL HIM.

ON A HAPPIER NOTE: I GET PAID TODAY. SO I AM GONNA GO GET MEHSELF SOME NEW SOCKS AND A COUPLE SWEATSHIRTS. I LOVE NEW SOCKS.

ON A SADDER NOTE: MY MOM SAW MY NAUGHTY STUFF AND CRIED. SHE IS BETTER NOW BUT STILL SHE CRIED =3

ON A HAPPIER NOTE: I LOVE THE SONG BANANA PHONE BY RAFFI.

ON A SADDER NOTE: I AM GONNA LEAVE YOU ALL. SO THAT I CAN GO GET READY FOR WORK.

ON A HAPPIER NOTE: I WILL BE BACK

LOVE TO ALL :HEART:

I feel like I am dead...

Instead of explaining you can read some conversations:

HIM: I need more experience with things. I'm getting to be a very boring person
ME: to who?
HIM: Myself
ME: lol
ME: me too
ME: I am living through other people and it is getting old.
ME: I am living to make them happy.
HIM: Why?
HIM: Do they deserve it?
ME: I guess so. Cause if I wasnt making them happy I would be dead.
HIM: What do you mean?
ME: if i wasnt making them happy I would have nothing to live for and I would be dead
HIM: Ah
HIM: So, wouldn't you then live to satisfy your own desires?
ME: I dont have any
HIM: Not a single desire?
ME: not really.
ME: I dont see them right now I am too numb to see them
ME: so anyways...
HIM: Hm?
HIM: Sorry, I'm not really sure what to say... No good responses
ME: i understand... it is not like you need to deal with my sadness
HIM: Not what I meant. I mean that, even though I've been in this situation before, I've rare;y said anything to help the situation
HIM: When I did, it was a fluke, or the obvious thing to say.
ME: I do understand that. I can deal with it myself.
ME: I have been through this also.

Well yeah...
Bye

love to all

I got the job at Million Dragon. But the thing is I cant really understand what my boss is saying. I start work wednesday. Well I am off. I will not be online for a couple of days. Probably until Thursday evening or morning most likely cause I have to work on Wednesday and I doubt I will want to come on after work and I doubt that I will be able to. Cool beans right? Well all good night and hope to talk to you all soon. Much love and lots of hugs...

Bren

I have a job interview tomorrow at Million Dragon. I have to be there at 10am. This means that I have to dress up. God. Do I hate dressing up. But oh well. I hope that I get the job this way I can have money of my own and my parents cant yell at me for having nothing to do. They will get off my back, which is a good thing. Well I hope that I get once again.

WISH ME LUCK . >.<