Bathrooms and Phones

ok, so lets be honest.  It isnt uncommon for someone to take the phone into the bathroom with them.  It doesnt happen all the time.  But sometimes you are waiting for that call and you happen to be sitting on the toilet.  Other times you are talking forever and cant hold it anymore (usually its a best friend so you dont care).

This is something I try to avoid.  Its just weird to me.  So when I walked into the bathroom at work, I was a little surprised to hear someone talking and not see anyone.  Usually people dont talk between the stalls.  Anyway, I was more surprised to realize that there was someone in only one of the stalls.  I had to assume then that they were talking on the phone.  Ok, weird.  It was weird for me too.  Does that make it impolite to urinate and then flush the toilet?  I really didnt know.  So I just did my business and left. 

I have never before been in that situation.  It was way beyond wierd.  I cant imagine what it must have been like for the person on the other end of the conversation... So note to self: dont ever talk on the phone in a public bathroom while - especially sitting on the toilet!!

Wifey

Sometimes I honestly believe I was born in the wrong time period.  I have always been fascinated by the Westward Expansion.  I would have LOVED to live in that time.  I think mostly because I believe a lot of the same things they do.  I also think a lot of what we have now is unnecessary - but yet I find myself choosing to keep these things.  Sometimes I wish I were my current age in the 1950's.  Being a wife and mom who stays at home would be pretty cool.  Not possible at the moment, but maybe someday I will be able to do this anyway.

But alas, I live here and now.  And it is probably a good thing.  I hate cleaning.  I dont cook all that well - even though Jim seems to think I do.  (I think he says that so he never has to cook!!)  And I definitely dont keep up on either of these like I should! 

This was all proven to me yesterday.  Jim and I are leaving tonight to go up to NY for a few days.  I cant wait!  It will be nice to get away for a few days.  But as always, the few days before arent my favorite.  I have this rule for myself that my house is always clean when I leave for vacation.  That way when I get home, I dont go back to being stressed because my house is filthy. So in my cleaning, I scrubbed the bathroom.  It desperately needed it.  (Dont get me wrong, I do wipe down the sink and toilet from time to time.  But I dont scrub it as often as I should to really make it clean.)  In the almost 3 years we have lived there, I have always been frustrated with the tub.  Well, the whole bathroom because it is hideous - but that will have to wait until we have the money to redo it or we sell it and it is someone else's problem!  But the tub is definitely pretty old.  Which is fine - it still functions.  But it makes cleaning it so much more difficult.  Over time the surface isnt as smooth and all the soapscum and dirt doesnt come off as easily.  So I got so frustrated with it after scrubbing it for a little bit, that I decided I just didnt care anymore.  (yeah right.  of course I still cared!!)  Later, Jim asked his mom what would be best to try to really get it clean - so she recommended Soft Scrub.  It definitely helped.  The tub looks much better.  It is nice to shower in a clean bathroom.  I do like that.  Too bad I hate cleaning it so much!

Anyway.  This whole incident kinda made me feel like a failure as a wife.  I know Jim doesnt care. And he is willing to help me where he can (in fact, while I was doing other cleaning, he did all of the laundry.  )  It just seems like these are things I should have already known how to do!  What kind of wife plans to pick up sandwiches for dinner - only later to find out that the place closes before she can get there.  And then cant even get the bathtub clean?  I know it sounds silly.  I just want to be better then that.  Oh well, I guess you live and learn.  Right?

Happy Mid-Year!!

Everyone always gets so worked up about the New Year.  I dont.  But for whatever reason, it hit me this morning that 2008 is half over.  The older you get, the faster time flies...

I dont have any resolutions to make.  I simply try to change the things I dont like about myself.  Although, I have been reading the mommaroo blog (no that doesnt mean that I am pregnant or am planning on being pregnant soon - I just enjoy it)  There are some ideas there that I really liked.  Having an 'unplugged night'  I think I would try to push this as far as leaving both the tv and computer off completely.  I am trying desperately to save as much money as possible (especially since Jim is most likely going to school starting soon).  I got my most recent electric bill and was not too happy.  I know that the extra was from the air conditioner in our bedroom and not from a change in habits, but I still didnt like it!  Even if Jim isnt interested in doing it with me, I have been meaning to get some scrapbooking done, and I havent.  I have tons of books I would like to read - I have been doing a bunch of that lately.  But I would also like to sit around playing games.  Havent done that in a while and I really do enjoy it! 

I would also like to start cutting back on other spending.  I am usually pretty good.  Obviously, we need to eat and have clothes.  I think I could do better with that!  I should really cook more rather than eating out so often.  We have done a bunch of that lately.  I dont like it.  I eat too much and it is expensive.  Watching my spending also means avoiding Kohl's.  I do love that store.  And I find REALLY good deals there.  But I dont always have to have the things I get.  I wish there was a way I could spend less on gas.  But short of carpooling (which no one seems to want to do) I dont know how. 

I have also been half-heartedly looking for a new job.  I dont really mind this one.  The pay isnt great, but it isnt bad either.  The drive is what is really killing me.  I also dont see myself here forever.  So even if I got the same pay somewhere else, but it was only half the distance... that would help.  And given some recent events around here, I cant believe it would be worse!

Even though this post thus far has been things I would like to change, I really cant complain.  So far 2008 has been great to me.  Over the past couple years, I have been really happy.  This year has not been an exception to that.  I am glad that I have finally gotten to the point that even though there will always be things I think I can do better in, I really am happy where I am at.  So hopefully the 2nd half of the year will be as good as the first half!

sleep

I know that I have always required more sleep than most people.  In high school, I went to bed on my own accord at 9.  I didnt get up in the mornings until 6:30.  It was awesome.  It made me a well rested person.  I was always ready for whatever the day threw at me.  I think this has also evolved me into being more of a morning person, despite that not being considered 'normal' in our society.

So here I am now.  I have been sick lately.  So I have been sleeping some extra.  People love to make fun of me because I can go home from work and take a 3 hour nap.  Then I can still get a full night of sleep.  I still try to be in bed every night by 10.  The alarm goes of at 5:30. So I am not getting nearly as much sleep as I used to.  But it is still close to the recommended 8 hours of sleep each night.  Of course I can catch up some on weekends too. 

Sometimes, though, it is ridiculously frustrating.  Last night Jim, Evan, and I went to see Wanted (it was ok, I probably wont ever watch it again.  We agreed it was a solid B movie).  Afterwards we went over to Jim's mom's for a bit.  It was nice.  I do love hanging out at that house.  I agree that it has a calming effect.  Anyway, about 11 or 11:30 I ask Jim if he is about ready to go home, because I am tired.  He says soon.  At home if I am ready for bed before him, it isnt really a big deal.  I just go to bed and he can finish whatever he is doing or keep hanging out with whomever.  He just comes to bed when he is ready then.  Anyway, we didnt leave his mom's house until at least 12.  Probably closer to 12:30.  By the time we got home and settled into bed for sleep, it was about 1:30. 

I did not want to get out of bed AT ALL this morning.  I dont blame Jim - I could have said I didnt want to go to his mom's and we would have just gone home.  It just makes for a crappy start to the week.  Especially when I really dont want to be here this week.  I know I will be spending a lot of time counting down until the end of the work day on Wed.  Then we will be leaving for NY.  I cant wait to get away for a few days. 

Anyway, I know I will probably go home and take a nap so that I am not so grumpy.  And I know that I will still get a full night of sleep tonight.  So I will get caught up on sleep.  But that means I have to do everything that needs to get done before we leave tomorrow after work.  And that sucks too.  I know that I should have cleaned the bathroom like 2 weeks ago at least.  And then it would be easy now.  But I didnt.  I know that Jim will help - because he is awesome like that. 

Sometimes I just wish I could be like so many other people I know and survive on 4 hours of sleep. 

Some day life will be perfect.  Some day I will learn how to ignore people who are dashing my hopes.  Someday I will be so happy with my life that other peoples thoughts wont really matter.  Someday it wont matter when people compare me with others.  Someday I will have everything worked out perfectly.

Today is not that day.