Sometimes I honestly believe I was born in the wrong time period.  I have always been fascinated by the Westward Expansion.  I would have LOVED to live in that time.  I think mostly because I believe a lot of the same things they do.  I also think a lot of what we have now is unnecessary - but yet I find myself choosing to keep these things.  Sometimes I wish I were my current age in the 1950's.  Being a wife and mom who stays at home would be pretty cool.  Not possible at the moment, but maybe someday I will be able to do this anyway.

But alas, I live here and now.  And it is probably a good thing.  I hate cleaning.  I dont cook all that well - even though Jim seems to think I do.  (I think he says that so he never has to cook!!)  And I definitely dont keep up on either of these like I should! 

This was all proven to me yesterday.  Jim and I are leaving tonight to go up to NY for a few days.  I cant wait!  It will be nice to get away for a few days.  But as always, the few days before arent my favorite.  I have this rule for myself that my house is always clean when I leave for vacation.  That way when I get home, I dont go back to being stressed because my house is filthy. So in my cleaning, I scrubbed the bathroom.  It desperately needed it.  (Dont get me wrong, I do wipe down the sink and toilet from time to time.  But I dont scrub it as often as I should to really make it clean.)  In the almost 3 years we have lived there, I have always been frustrated with the tub.  Well, the whole bathroom because it is hideous - but that will have to wait until we have the money to redo it or we sell it and it is someone else's problem!  But the tub is definitely pretty old.  Which is fine - it still functions.  But it makes cleaning it so much more difficult.  Over time the surface isnt as smooth and all the soapscum and dirt doesnt come off as easily.  So I got so frustrated with it after scrubbing it for a little bit, that I decided I just didnt care anymore.  (yeah right.  of course I still cared!!)  Later, Jim asked his mom what would be best to try to really get it clean - so she recommended Soft Scrub.  It definitely helped.  The tub looks much better.  It is nice to shower in a clean bathroom.  I do like that.  Too bad I hate cleaning it so much!

Anyway.  This whole incident kinda made me feel like a failure as a wife.  I know Jim doesnt care. And he is willing to help me where he can (in fact, while I was doing other cleaning, he did all of the laundry.  )  It just seems like these are things I should have already known how to do!  What kind of wife plans to pick up sandwiches for dinner - only later to find out that the place closes before she can get there.  And then cant even get the bathtub clean?  I know it sounds silly.  I just want to be better then that.  Oh well, I guess you live and learn.  Right?