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Name: de Wreck
Country: Canada
State: Ontario
Metro: Toronto
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Saturday, September 13, 2008

Another Mid-Autumn Festival

Another mid-autumn festival has arrived....

too hot to play outside this year...... and nowhere and no ppl to play with... =(

when comparing to last year, there are same job, same style, same nature of mind, same affairs concerned in love, work and living... thou my mind is gradually changing, and finally there is a sign that i could meet more people and be more talkative and have my brain mature enough to be survived in this crucial college environment.

I love my job and i love my intermediate supervisor since she greatly supports and well-understands me that much, however, i am so weird to start thinking that if i shall switch jobs once my contract ends....

bN, what are you worrying about? i wonder what i could help....
a self reminder as well as for you too...
"Be positive, be humble"


Monday, August 11, 2008

I need to calm down!  
Not even abit...  but it is a need to cool down everything around me...
actually i am so 燥 recently......

some ppl maynot really realize that or just the fact that i didnt show up my character too well or too explicit
but my mind was confused or even in chaos mode most of the day,

i need somewhere to express my frustration and anger
pls leave me alone for abit time and pour me a bucket of icy water, pls!


Thursday, July 31, 2008

End of July

a wonderful day of memory!

For a person like me, who always think that helping others should come from deep heart without hestitation, could never explain how delight you could be when you received such appreciation and grateful recognition without any purposes. possibly one could claim it as a return of your effort made, however, i would just count it as a bonus or gift from the heaven cuz i dont intentionally ask for it. Anyways, i dont really know how to say my thank you back to you, perhaps i should really enjoy and appreciate the snack gift that you sent us and recall and make a deep thought about the life experience that you shared with me.

Thank you! and good luck to your life of post-retirement, all the best. derek

And also, i got a wonderful night too.... XD
perhaps i should create more and more surprises in the future....

and perhaps, this is the very first time that i could end a month with such a high note/mood
AUGUST, here we are then!


Monday, July 28, 2008

自愛

朋 友 問 , 與 男 朋 友 分 開 , 該 怎 力 挽 狂 瀾 。 之 於 我 ,
既 消 極 又 積 極 地 會 說 , 緣 盡 有 時 散 聚 有 時 , 有 些
事 情 強 求 不 來 。 愛 , 固 然 重 要 , 我 們 甚 至 可 在 愛
, 連 自 尊 也 棄 之 不 理 , 只 是 , 當 愛 情 走 了 ,
請 別 再 眷 戀 。 我 總 深 信 , 最 好 的 , 就 在 下 一 個 街
角 , 與 你 迎 面 相 遇 。 要 懂 得 放 過 自 己 , 才 會 快 樂 。
或 者 換 個 角 度 來 說 , 放 過 自 己 , 也 等 於 放 過 那 位
曾 與 你 走 過 一 段 路 的 人 。 你 要 重 複 地 跟 自 己 說 ,
放 過 他 吧 。 世 上 最 慘 情 的 事 不 是 失 戀 帶 給 你 的
創 傷 , 而 是 , 你 跟 自 己 過 不 去

有 人 問 , 如 何 去 與 伴 侶 建 立 信 任 。 首 先 , 為 何 要
存 疑 呢 ? 信 任 , 向 來 是 抽 象 的 東 西 , 對 付 抽 象 的
東 西 , 我 們 只 能 選 擇 黑 與 白 , 「 相 信 」 或 「 不 相
信 」 。 假 如 你 常 在 兩 極 間 遊 走 , 那 麼 , 終 有 天 你
會 筋 疲 力 竭 。 一 開 始 時 , 就 別 存 疑 。 日 子 下 來 ,
假 若 情 愛 出 現 了 漏 洞 隙 縫 , 多 半 與 信 任 的 機 制 有
關 。 一 段 不 能 結 果 的 關 係 , 好 像 , 很 大 成 份 是 因
為 信 任 的 根 基 不 穩 固 。 我 也 不 會 叫 人 「 只 管 信 ,
不 要 問 」 , 但 大 多 的 時 候 , 簡 單 的 往 前 走 才 是 上
策 。 選 擇 相 信 的 話 , 就 睜 著 眼 睛 往 崖 下 跳 ; 不 相
信 的 話 , 馬 上 收 拾 細 軟 , 漏 夜 撤 退 。 千 萬 別 拖 拉 ,
因 為 懷 疑 讓 人 疲 累 。 一 累 , 不 如 別 再 互 相 折 磨 ,
也 許 放 手 更 好 。
要 好 好 的 愛 自 己 , 先 把 自 己 打 理 妥 當 , 才
有 能 力 去 愛 別 人 」 。 老 生 常 談 的 話 , 我 們 或 者
要 活 很 久 , 才 會 明 白 箇 中 的 意 義 。

黎華


Saturday, June 07, 2008

Black rain!

black rainstorm this morning....the sound of raindrops are so loud and clear that woke me up automatically around my usual wake up time... =.="
confirmed that ...no need to work according to my senior supervisor.... who i made the call to and who gave me a teasing reply...
so that i went back to sleep for the entire morning

How about this afternoon and evening? Nothing to do.... feeling so mo liu now....

no friends to hang around often.... in either workplace and own friends circle is really sick
or... was i pursuing the outcome from the wrong places and people?

sometimes to be too independent is not really a good thing, it is quite lonely indeed....
just like a loser-to-be

sigh~ what kind of life and lifestyle i m having now!
what should i change??



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