So it has been a year since I have updated this. And if you look at the last thing I wrote what I am about to write may look like a repeat. Well it isn't.

Tomorrow is December 21st and I am, once again, having knee surgery. Same date as last year, same knee, same surgery. I am not as nervous as last year but I am frustrated. So I hope that whoever reads this could pray for my surgery and my recovery. I would greatly appreciate it.

There are also things in my life right now that are getting me down besides the surgery and I pray for patience. Patience to trust in God and trust that his time and his will are perfect.

Thank you

And have a Very Merry Christmas!

Guess I probably should have wrote this a while ago but I found out that I have a tear in my knee and that I will need to recieve surgery to repair it. I am having surgery on Dec. 21 so that is in a week. It is minor outpatient surgery and I have a quick recovery time, but none the less I am still mega freaked out about it. So prayer is awesome.

I would also like to give a quick little shout out to all my close friends who have really been there for me this last semester. It has been a pretty crazy one and a lot has happened. But I got through it and it is finals week. I have been told that in college you really find yourself. Well, I believe that I have and I am continueously in that process. One quote I found during this semseter said "Believe in yourslf, others do." Well, I have had some great lovin from friends who have showed me that they believe in me and now I believe in me too. I dont need to change just to cater to any one person. So, to sum up my ramblings, I love my friends and deff thank God for them everyday. Thank you to all you who have showed me love and kindness!

So, it just hit me that it has been a long time since I have made an entry. Accually I have not done this since I have been at school. So I will fill in all those who care to read on what is going on in my life. First I got to school only to realize that I have hard classes this semester. I had to add this to working in the darcare on campus and being part of the dance team. That's right I am not cheering anymore. So I have been working on time management with all that going on. Once Katrina hit, which was on my birthday, my boyfriend, who is in the military, was sent down for disaster relief. In September my sister got married which was amazing and beautiful!

So, fast forwaring to now, I went to the doctor monday of this week. Ever since this summer I have had on and off pain in my right knee. Once I got to school I discovered that there is also a large lump on the side of my knee. I kept putting of going to the doctor until the pain was just too much, and even woke me up from sleeping. My doctor wasn't sure what to make of it so he gave me perscription pills for the pain, which still have not helped, and I will be getting an MRI on November 23. So, please keep this situation in your prayers. I would greatly appreciate it!

But, now I am off to take my second test for the day...Talk to you soon! Have a great day!

Look to the Lord and seek his strength, seek his face always. Psalm 105.4

there are so many times in our lives that we feel like we just cant do it any longer. and you know why we probably end up in that state of mind...because we are seeking our own strength and not God's. and so...this is a reminder i need constantly in my life. take whatever it is that seems to difficult for me to....yet i want to do it. and with God's strength i can.

you know what really stinks!? being allergic to the thing that is supposed to be making you better and so in turn it just makes you worse! ugh very frustrating. but amounst the trials and pains of this situation....it made me trust and depend on God more....so thats a plus!