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Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Tue, 15 May 2007 14:29:44 GMT

http://www.acsevents.org/faf/search/searchTeamPart.asp?ievent=206249&lis=1&kntae206249=31E9BD0ECD18438DA791AB2F504382F8&team=1940336&tlteam=0

Please donate for the effort of Relay for Life.
Just follow the links and instruction.

Yes, I shall be running.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Tue, 08 May 2007 10:00:49 GMT

..at the end of the day, we all have to live with the decisions we have made.

Friday, May 04, 2007

Fri, 04 May 2007 10:55:38 GMT

damn it...
just everything

how did i get into this mess

how?

why do things happen?
i always say that they happen for a reason...
but why, why do they happen?
you just can't but help ask those questions in your mind.
you just can't help it atll...

all the little signs we see and feel
the ones that we choose ignore
what if we didn't ignore it?
what if we did something else
what if i knew yesterday what i knew now
what is the point of what ifs?

i learned
leraned something important didn't i?
but why did i learn it?
was it better that I learned this?
instead of ....
instead of what?
being happy?

i don't know what that means.

happiness is so transient.

i miss you god damn it.

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Sat, 17 Mar 2007 00:57:08 GMT

u suck...

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 23:15:43 GMT

it seems that happiness isn't such an easy term to define.
somedays everything is wonderful and your life is filled with joy. and then the person closest to you makes you cry and you want to know why. why they do the things they do and hurt you so bad and don't even know that they're doing it. why you have to hurt so much sometimes. how could it be that those who love you the most hurt you the most?

Friday, September 22, 2006

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 09:57:39 GMT

grey's anatomy.

seems to be everywhere i go.

can't help it but love it. <3

addicted.

(maybe it's the all so close future of the possibilities of all that bein me. yepp surgeon.) After all, all these years of being pushed & prodded, i can't imagine doing anything else. Office jobs lack the excitement and the tension & the anticipation. I light up at the thought of surgery, dissection and anything that involves the white craziness of hospitals. I have officially lost it.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Fri, 22 Sep 2006 09:48:09 GMT

if you could

and if I would

look across to

what we should.

---working on some poetry. -----

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Wed, 20 Sep 2006 11:47:03 GMT

it's hard to find what really is.

and trust your heart to truly know.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 10:44:27 GMT

EE Cummings- I carry your heart with me

I carry your heart with me (I carry it in
my heart) I am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)

I fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

I carry your heart (I carry it in my heart)

EE Cummings.

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 10:07:18 GMT

how come you don't write no more?