| for the first time
i feel really good throughout the week
i somehow stop worrying.
stop hunting the next big idea.
and, actually start taking care of myself
i feel so eerily calm
when i dont have to do what others want me to do
knowing that i can be different
and i dont have to be everything to everyone
it feel so good
to be different
just be myself
and no one else |
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| i was heartbroken, cuz we lost yesterday
upset, cuz we didnt even put up a fight
we were literally bulldozed to the ground
so sad. 
maybe,
just maybe, my new schedule will cheer me up a little
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| haha-- i'm so excited for the match tonite
who will be the champion of the champions?
the steelers or
the colts?
when the defining moment comes,
one team defines it.
will the colts go unbeaten 11-0?
can we come home 8-3?
it will be revealed 6 hours from now
awww- i cant wait for the match  |
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| haha. whata blast. 3 days break at atlantic city was fun.
blackjacking. eating. drinking. shopping. and clubbing.
(though i eventually lost 70 bucks at the casinos)
hehe- two things i'm particularly proud of
1.
i got a new pair of shoes. and an orange watch. (haha. this is the first time i actually owned
a new watch. myself. not wearing my dad's. or someone else'
2.
i learnt a great deal this trip
lesson learnt:
- winning is a discipline. control my impulse. and dont be the pioneer.
learn from those who failed. by watching them closely.
there's no such thing as peer pressure. test my theory small.
when i grasp >50% of the game, play.
and cash out once i hit my winning target (i lost because of greed)
- self respect is the greatest asset i have.
at times, i dont have to be the loudest, the most entertaining, or the most verbose
(haha. it works!
it's actually fun to lay back. enjoy the drama. and let other people grab the spotlight )
- stay alert. and listen.
watch whats going on around me at all time **especially how people make money**
(hmm... i still couldnt figure out why trump has 3 casinos in a.c.
trump plaza, taj mahal, and trump marina)
- reward myself
give myself my own goldstar.
(haha it's quite fun
buying myself a new watch without money worry,
eating hot fudge without any guilt of getting fat)
i came back
so happy. so tiring.
and with so much work. ouch.
no regret though 
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| my head was exploding this afternoon
so dizzy. so heavy.
i thought it has something to do with lack of sleep
so i went home earlier for a 3 hours nap
Zzzzz.
woke up @ 9pm
however, i got worse
the ceiling was turning to the left
and my head was feeling heavier and heavier
i was so sick
that i thought that i'm gonna die
but i did one thing i learnt from jon
pray.
i went back on to sleep @ 9.
woke up 3 hours later
feeling much, much energize now
yo man,
thanks for letting me survive
one more night
thanks god. |
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