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zzzz....

Fri, 04 May 2007 03:42:02 GMT

already may....time flies so fast....
i haven't seen vonny for....8 months now...wonder what she looks like now.
I've been with lina for 3 months (officially), but in reality it's been around 3.5 months...

not much going on these days outside work...i dun go to the movies, i dun go to malls...
life is pretty much my home, office, and her home. Too tired to go places on weekends.
need to exercise, and clear my thoughts. too much has been going on in life lately.

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Thu, 15 Mar 2007 23:00:32 GMT

had my birthday yesterday...but no celebration..work work hahahaha. stressful one too.
oh well...

headache

Tue, 06 Mar 2007 01:39:59 GMT

headache...need sleep...quite overwhelmed by things

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 03:40:28 GMT

News update for .... well, nobody in particular...just for the future me i suppose.
I found my sunshine, and it's not vonny....it was quite a difficult decision to make, but
i've decided to commit myself to someone else. someone who prolly deserves me more.
Starting a new life, and i hope this one will last for a very long time to come.
It's definitely not love at first sight, and it's also not so much a long process as it's a hard one.
But no room for regrets (not that i have any), and i hope i have made the right choice & found
the right answer to most of my questions.
To vonny....not that u'll ever read or know this blog exists.....a 3-year period is a long one, and it
was not without its share of joy. I have cherished all the moments we spent together, though they
never meant more than just friendship to you. I thank you for all the good and the bad times, all the
medicines you gave me when i was sick, and all the arguments we had, and much much more.
But...
I am moving on.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Thu, 11 Jan 2007 20:53:37 GMT

New year, new beginning....supposedly new everything.
But one remains the same...I still miss vonny... =(

Friday, December 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Dec 2006 04:41:27 GMT

Daisuke Matsuzaka!
$52 million contract, and he wears no. 18! Not bad. I thought that jersey was a goner when Damon moved to 'the boondocks'. It's come alive again!

universal

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 22:37:15 GMT

It's raining outside, i have a final exam in 8 hrs, stacks of work at the office, and lots more. Life doesn't get any better than this
Still missing sunshine as strongly as ever....my cousins have raised their eyebrows, thinking i'm nuts to go crazy over someone the way i have been over vonny. I dunno what's wrong with me either, but just having her next to me can wash away all my worries and stress, and i love seeing her smile, laugh, or tell me 'ur nuts. that plan won't work at all'
She may not b a contender for US News' 100 most beautiful people in the planet, but she sure is the most beautiful to me. K, all this and i seem to have forgotten the most important thing. We haven't seen each other for 4 months, and our relationship w/ respect to one another is still a shrouded mystery (we're not lover, friends, or enemies...what are we?)
I'm trying to believe that fate is the only force at work here, and nothing i do can change the outcome. I can only lean on Him and pray more. I love you, dear...I really do.

Work....lots of things to figure out for next year. It's all planning and trying to execute these plans in a most efficient manner. Positive thinking, and a big heart will get us far. Go us!
Class....got final exam today, final presentation on thursday, and final paper due next tuesday. And what have i done? Zilch. The boss will have a field day if i dun pass this course hahaha. Now ask me if i care.

Sophie....or at least that's what i'll call her for now. She's cute...saw her at church 2 sundays ago, and she was pretty n cheerful enough to make me stop on my tracks n just stand there in awe. Definitely different than vonny. Since i'd always gone to the 7.30 am service, i never saw her. But i was so tired that day, i decided to go to the 9.30 service...and i even got there 0.5 hr late hahaha. On the way out, i saw her. Last sunday, i went to the 9.30 one again because i overslept (or maybe i deliberately overslept myself haha). I didn't see her at all, but when we had to shake hands with people around us...she was at the row behind me!!! When i turned, i saw her...and i froze. My face must've been soooo red, because she had this puzzled look also. So embarrassing, but i ended up stretching my hand, and we shook hands. As soon as the service was over, i just left as quickly as possible out of embarrassment. Man...

At the end of the day...i still miss vonny...a lot...she's the one i love, and i know everyone's trying his/her best to make me forget about her. I thank you all, and believe me...i try. But when times like this come, and I really miss her so, please forgive me. I'll get better soon...

Impulse

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 01:03:23 GMT

Bought a pair of new glasses yesterday. Weird brand too...D.UGO? Never heard of it.
But hey, that's what impulse shopping is all about. and it's only 1/3 of what they'd charge me
at a mall-area optician so i didn't bother haggling anymore. Now that i think of it, maybe i should've.
Oh well...

hmm

Thu, 16 Nov 2006 01:31:03 GMT

Lonely....

Wii..wheeee!...n other thingz

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 03:48:57 GMT

Main topic of the day:
I want Wii!
getting sunshine isn't too bad of a deal as well.

So...nistelrooy scored 4 goals for madrid, messi is injured for barca,
the democrats owned the house n senate....lots of news. not to mention
the clippers owning the league now. crazy stuff.

I was looking at some magazines my old highschool has been sending me, and i found
an old picture of our ex-history teacher (well, i think he's retired now). He was this
nice, unassuming old hippie-lookalike (hm..how does that work out?), and always talked
with a soft voice. If one has never been in his class, then u'd think he's just an average history
dude. But i was watching the news at the same time, and the word "democrats" kept popping up
on-screen. It triggered an old memory from class, when this old dude approached a friend
of mine, gave him a very, VERY concerned look, and said, "xxx, do you know what democracy is?
do u have it in ur country?" ...(silence mode).....the class became a very awkward environment, and
i think that kid switched sections the next day. Neway, just a random post.

Dad also said, 'find someone else. now that all of this is happening, even if u end up w/ her, u'd just
live miserably n get divorced in the end. she'd never b able to truly love u.'
i guess he's right....still hard to believe though...reality really bites.