and it`s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It`s funny but stupid how you want everything & nothing at the same time. It`s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, & when you want to move on but you`re stuck right where you started. When feelings come & go & you can`t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don`t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther & farther away. It`s so hard to think back to how things used to be & look at it now & realize that things are different & they may never be the same.

You tell yourself it`s not worth it, but if it really didn`t matter, you wouldn`t spend so much time thinking about it...



-wag mong balakin ipost pa toh.

1. be independent! (masyado aq asa kay mother e..)
2. learn to cook.. (kc naicp nmen nla bessie klangan n nmen matuto.. kc mggng family oriented na daw kme.. haha)
3. karerin ang pggng nurse (no choice na.. and2 nko e..)
4. be masipag.. less tamaders..
5. tipid.. less magastos..
6. less being KURIPOT.. (haha.. i know i am super kuripot.. e sori nmn my money is enuf only 4me.. haha)
7. diet.diet.diet....
8. magpaputi.. less under d sun.. hahaha.... more kuskos s banyo.. haha.. LOL
9. aral.aral.aral.. nid 2 passed d local board, nclex at lhat ng exam n klangan kong i-take..
10. ciempre magkaluvlyf na ult.. YEHEY! ung pang long term goal na.. kc tpos nko s short term... hahahaha....

>>sna mabasa nio na toh bhe at apol.. hahaha..♥

funny how things turned out now... im beginning to get used to it agn.. or i have learned to get used to it?.. sa bagay sometimes even if you don't actually wanna do something or decide on things.. wla ka rin magagawa e kung wala ka din naman choice.. you can't stuck yourself for that moment for a long time.. eventually talaga you'll want to move on and grow.. and leave things behind.. i still feel sometimes na i still would want to be ending up with him.. but not now.. not even soon.. ewan! 

but really... i feel ok and happy now... my life is getting back to the way it used to be.. feels really great.. pinagdaanan ko naman ung dapat ko pagdaanan e after ng breakup.. and i think iv tasted every second of it all.. i am standing from the fall.. iv realized and learned things on my own..

sweetest downfall ko nga talaga.. haha...

sembreak na....... YEHEY!

"There`s always gonna be that one thing you wish for but never get. That one mistake you can never take back. & most of all, that one memory you would do anything for, just to have it again."