Hey all. My life is like the Kansas weather. Things will be great one minute, then things will go crazy. I hate that. But my job is going great. I'm working at Sandpiper Bay in Wichita. It's a nursing home. It's fun. I love working in the alzheimer's unit. Those people are a riot. And sometimes they DO riot. lol. Anyways,  I guess me and Matt are through, which sucks, because I don't want him to move out. He's great most of the time. We have our moments, but we really do love each other. But of course I would go and screw that up. Typical Sandy, huh? I just hope he will give me another chance to prove that I DO love him. I just want to be with him. There's nothing I would rather do than hold him in my arms and tell him how sorry I am and how much I love him... I just hope I get that chance. See, what happened was we got in a fight, and he said we were breaking up and he was leaving, then he never left, he just kept talking s*!t, so I told him to leave. He left and went to his mom's house, and I went to my friend's house and hung out with them. Well her foster brother kissed me, and I didn't say no... (Remember: he said we were broken up). so at around 4am he calls me and asks me to pick him up from his mom's house because he wants to come home and he misses me and wants to work things out. So I go get him, we make up, and things are fine. Then my friend txts me and asks if i had sex with her brother. matt saw it and freaked out. I said that I would never do that... and he just looked at me like i was the scum of the earth. I feel like crap. I just want to make things right. I wrote him a letter saying how sorry I am... no excuses, just "I'm sorry". If any of you have any ideas, let me know... I love all of u. *MUAH*         *Sandy*

Wow... I'm beginning to wonder if anyone even looks at this thing. Well, for those who do...

My life is CRAZY these days. I'm working 2 jobs, going to school, living out of a hotel (long story), and getting ready to move into an apartment with my friend tara. Matt and I are still together, but not living together for much longer. I'm kind of conflicted about that because I want to live with him to be close to him and stuff, but it's just stressful having to fight him to get the rent and stuff. And with him quitting his job every other day, I just get tired. So maybe we'll take a break from living together, and just date... And then if he gets his act together, we can move back in. It's like they say... Absence makes the heart grow fonder...