iM a FaKe! GoT yU aLl! hAhAhA cYa l8r LoSrS!

guys, i can't believe it, but i'm back.  yes, im back for good

why i was gone - a while ago, i told you guys that my daughter, essence, had been to the hospital but it was just a scare.  however, it turned out not to be "just a scare" the doctor had misdiagnosed her.  for awhile, we weren't sure how bad it really was.  but, now, everything's all better and essence is spending a lot of time sleeping to recover from the hectic, busy, stressful time.  she's not at the hospital anymore, and her, her mother and i are all spending a lot of time together because we believe its best for essence to have both of her parents with her as much as possible. not because her mother & i are going to get back together .

& so what if we've gotten a little bit ... intimate?
anyway, im not going to reveal much more than that.  its still kind of hard for me to think about all the pain it caused & how scared essence must have been.

does anyone have a code for shutting a site down? im not shutting this one down .. and if i did i'd leave a long goodbye letter & a new site address. i have an old site that i haven't used for ages but people are still commenting on.

on a happier note ; i found this new band that nobody really knows about and i'd like to keep it that way . they're called half past three, and they have really good music.  they're trying to break into main stream but they've been "unknown" for years now.  my friend Jessica and i went to their show at a local place a few nights ago.  im in love with the lead gutairist.

everytime i try to put music on this site, it doesn't work.

:( im not very good with computers.

im sorry i haven't commented anybody back since the first or second entry.  if you leave comments on this one, i will. thank you to everyone who's been coming back to this site to check up on me and see how essence is or if i've come back yet.  i love you guys.

charlie.

ps - screename its me charlie 1 dont im me with stupid stuff or ill block you. thanks

i'm sorry i haven't been around here. i can't do this anymore, i have to focus all my attention on essence (my daughter), i'm sorry guys. thanks for everything. 

maybe i'll come back on a different xanga name or this one.  but essence really needs me right now, it's a tough time.  i'm trying to stay strong but it's hard, really hard.  they thought it was nothing when she went into the hospital but it was something ...

ok, well, i'm sorry guys. i love you all. 

<3 a final goodbye, charlie

hello

guys, i'm sorry i couldn't comment back to you and i haven't been on in awhile.  141 comments.. thank you all so so so so much <3 i read every one of them, but i didn't comment anybody back. i was so busy. something happened to Essence .. she was in the hospital.  it was just a scare, though .. they think she's okay.  they think it was mistake. but i'm not so sure...

comments would cheer me up <3

im really scared and sad right now.. i hope she's okay but i have a bad feeling about this guys.  here's a picture of her taking with Craig's digital camera

isn't she adorable?  i love her so much.  i just hope nothing happens to her .....

i really really really am truly sorry i couldn't get back to your comments. every single one i read i wanted to respond to you .. you seem to understand me so well.

 i love you guys already .. everybody.  i may be taking a break.  my draw would drop if i got 200 comments by the time i come back

i'll have a humungous post when i come back, i promise. as long as Essence makes a full recovery i shouldn't be away for more than a week or so ..

but if anything happens to her, idon't know if i'll be coming back at all.

and i don't mean just from my leave from xanga.

a extremley depressed

<3

charlie

i can't keep up with you!  i'm going to comment all these people back.. sorry something unexpected happened last night.  perhaps we should just leave it at that.

but, please, say something else besides i'm gorgeous or i have awesome hair.  actually read my entry.  half of you will probably still say that stuff, because you didn't read this you just commented.

i don't want to be bitter. i owe you all.  i'll update more after i comment 93 kids back.

<3

charlie

edit// i'm so sorry guys, i was commenting and about less than halfway through my computer is having spazes, and every time i try to comment anyone else it goes weird. 

i'm so sorry.  i'll try to comment back you all soon!  but, i didn't realize how much work it is.  sorry if the comment was short. i still love you!

<3<3

another edit // my ten comments so far are amazing. i love you people who understand me and like me for more than just my hair.  although i know its irrestible

just kidding

i think? hee

edit .. yet again ///

i commented all 93 people back. whew. that was tiring. especially the people that were like omg your s0o0o0o0 cUtE ! i didn't know what to say to them. so a lot of people i said "thanks. charlie" sorry, some of you didn't do the above, but it got really tiring.

if i gave you a long comment, you're extra special =)

i've got to go for a while .. twenty six comments. i love you FOREVER

... enough about me.  tell me somethings about yourselves. and make me signs if you want! please ?? i'll post them and feature your site.

i love you guys all. forty three subscribers, pretty nice =)

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