| "So how was your weekend, Joey?"
"..."
I have to see my Mom tomorrow. We're meeting for lunch. It'll be loads of fun.
I'm just going to keep listening to Sgt. Pepper's and Revolver again and again. And Magical Mystery Tour, too.
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| Binge eating and chain smoking... while my roomates talk about working out. And do push-ups. Oh god I am so fat.
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| Okay, now I'm listening to "A Summer in Ohio" and I'm actually starting to feel happier.
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| Who am I as of 8:52 Thursday, September 15, 2005. (This was a
suggestion of Paul's.) I'm listening to Jason Robert Brown.
I think I'm trying to fry my brain but not as badly as Rich or
Eric. I can't be around drugs this much, this is not
healthy. I can't take any more drug use and I can't keep on
living like this. Oh my God I had a panic attack because I felt
like everyone was staring at me and judging me. I had to run out
of the room and calm myself down. I have no idea what I'm
supposed to do. I can't live like normal people. It's not
fair that everyone else gets to walk around and live their lives and be
happy and I can't stay happy for 24 hours. Every night I go to
sleep thinking of slicing my arm. I really need to spend more
time with other people. I sit in my room so fucking much.
Thank god I can sit around with Paul and talk to him about
things. Oh yeah, and I've done some god-awful things to my brain
chemistry... but atleast I'm not Rich or Eric!
Oh God that is awful. I'm going to hell twice.
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| Do you really know what "No Rain" is about?
Look it up.
That and "The Outsider."
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