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so this pic...it's a pretty bad pic. but i had to put it up...cause it makes me happy. And it's also proof...this is why i don't like being in pictures.
here you see Shep and I (my youth pastor) rocking out to some Moi on our way home from Planet Wisdom last April. It was good times. Lol...but as you can see i'm playing the drums and Shep is playing the git-fiddle...and like i said. We were rocking out. 
so there you have it folks...this is valerie is not in pics...cause she looks sooooo retarded! lol but isn't it great i look so funny.
like a penguin 
ya...whatever (dang that is a sweet earth you might say) *round
oh snap
anyway
me |
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| hello
i wish you could hear the music which i hear in my ears
i wish you could feel the breeze blow my skin and hair gently
i wish you could see me cry because this reminds me of what i had once
but then i wish that you will never see me cry, because i wouldn't know what to do if you did
what would you do?
ok , so we must leave each other and i must find myself, by myself none can go with me
i wish you knew me
i wish i knew me
i wish i knew you
do you know you?
i laugh at myself, so dramatic
but lol here i am ...writing
i guess it just allows me to speak freely, with out many people knowing
what i am talking about...without reveiling much about me, but i am
still able to say that i spoke my mind
clever...or maybe people have figured it out...what then?
honesty is something i strive for, but it is the thing that i am so
scared of being for fear no one will ever want to have anything to do
with me...ever again
but God tells me that He will always love me, so why should i worry
because i care too much about what people will think of me
i care too much...because i am so afraid....of...
never mind...later...
i love God, i love my family, i love my friends
now how am i supposed to change for their benefit and mine? how am i to
continue ...or become a follower of God...a child of the Holy Father...?
what is He asking me to do?
and why am i able to be somewhat open online...but sometimes...i am so
secretive in real life...welcome to reality ok God i will trust You
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things are not always as they seem that is true...
but sometimes...they turn out exactly as you thought they would...
and exactly as you dreaded they would...
it's ok...God is in control...
lol
sometimes i can't see him though |
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| so much haunts me
so much crowds me
so much makes me want to cry
and so much keeps me from crying
so much makes me want to fly
so much makes me want to curl up into a ball
never to look at the world again |
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