Attention!!! TO ALL MY READERS

i have decided to start a new xanga to begin the next chapter in my life with... here is the link

http://www.xanga.com/glamourandthecity

PLEASE add my new name. I need to start fresh but i would love if all of you came a long for the ride (:

hope to see you there.

love always,

stephanie

On account of me having to start my life over without all of the past things i have loved so very much (boyfriends, bestfriends, always having someone to talk to/do things with) i have found it necessary that i start from scratch. The xanga has so many amazing memories about my past that i would hate to give them all up, but sometimes restarting and getting rid of the old and keeping just a few good memories with you is the way to go...

Quite possibly the reason why i dont write often now is because this xanga reminds me too much of what used to be. Therefore...

should i delete all the old entries and forget them forever

or

should i simply start a fourth (!) xanga. a new, clean, fresh start.

what do you guys think?

<33

ps... i promise once i figure that out, ill write more. (:

so sorry for my lack of updates... im going through a hard time right now although i think im over my ex.... its better when we dont talk bc when we do i miss him too much.

ah, such is life. sorry for the lack of a real entry, i have my cousins sweet 16 tonight so i have to get ready. just wanted to let you all  know im still alive and well (:

<333 love you all.

"The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain.”

Jared, if you ever read this. Im sorry. So, so sorry for everything that went wrong, and for everything we didnt say to each other. I guess this is a part of growing up though. You break up, you move on. But if you are still the same person i had feelings for for the better part of seven months, i cant imagine you leaving me forever. If the book has to end as us being good friends, so be it. There are a million reasons right now why i should be mad at you, why i shouldnt want to speak to you, but you know what? I cant make you love me, i cant make you want to be with me. I cant make things work, im not god. I have to move on, but i would love to move on with you as my friend. Im not sure if this is the correct thing to say, but i know i'll always love you. Perhaps not always in the romantic way, but i care about you. I think thats considered love, although you have turned my definition of love upset down. After all of this jared, im astonished that i still have it in me to care about you so much. You honestly cant move the impossible.

Believe me, ive tried to.

sorry for the lack of updates... im doing alright (: dont worry. i wrote that on my private blog. i just wanted to post it here.

<33

boyfriend broke up with me :\

it hurts, i didnt really see it coming again, but we move on. gotta be strong, keep my chin up, and think positive.

it hurts actually alot. more than i thought it was going to, but the situation is out of my hands.

thanks for all the comments and love, but i have to do some work if i can manage so i dont have time to comment back today...

tomorrow or thursday. (:

stay strong<33

btw, intake was good today.... 600 calories. one good thing.