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Name: Pam
Country: United States
State: Missouri
Metro: St. Louis
Birthday: 6/11/1987
Gender: Female


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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Currently Listening
Kala
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I used to be funny.


I haven't even looked at xanga in well over a year, but I was bored. So I read most of what I wrote a million years ago and realized I was a lot funnier.

So I decided I should start writing again because then maybe I will become funny.. again.


Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Almost 3-11

Ooh you draw such pictures in my head
Ooh with so few words I know what you said

Until the time comes
To carry the one
Make that dream real
And be sure it stays done
So let that thought
Bloom in your mind
A vision that’s caught
Never left behind

You should just give me a call
You should just give me a call

I think about you much more than I should
Now there’s a structure nothing had once stood
No more bluffing it’s cards on the table time
What it must be we will take it as a sign

So just give me a call
So just give me a call

Sunset and my love left me
winter and I’m so far
In darkness will it lead me
where the meanings are

I miss and think of you often
no flowers I forgot them
the weather’s the same
nothing happens
no love’s a hard lesson

patience and years will refashion
what hours will undo
and circles not yet quite circles
somehow close true
I keep on hearing the things that you said
I keep on feeling you go straight to my head
No more bluffing it’s cards on the table time
What it must be we will take it as a sign

So just give me a call
So just give me a call

I call you up but you won’t talk to me
No space for words there’s just no room
I drift away but you pull me in
I’m the ocean youre the moon

Ooh how do I know if it’s just me
Sometimes I think that it must be
You gotta know you can trust me

I think about you much more than I should
Now there’s a structure nothing had once stood
No more bluffing it’s cards on the table time
What it must be we will take it as a sign

So just give me a call


Sunday, February 25, 2007

life soundtrack. you put your itunes on random, and let it go.

Opening credit:
Ben Folds Five- Cigarette

Waking up:
Eve 6- At least We're Dreaming

Falling in Love:
The Who- Underture from Tommy

Fight Song:
Death Cab for Cutie- Transatlanticism

Breaking Up:
Garbage- When I Grow Up

Prom:
The Beatles- Free as a Bird

Life:
Marilyn Manson- The Nobodies

Mental Breakdown:
Goldfinger- Question

Driving:
Sublime- Scarlet Begonias

Flashback:
Ali- Breathe In Breathe Out

Wedding:
Elton John- Somebody Saved my Life Tonight

Birth Of Child:
Bush- Land of the Living

Final Battle:
2 Pac- On My Block

Death Scene:
Of Montreal- Erroneous Escape into Eric Eckless

Funeral Song:
Belle and Sabastian- It Could Have Been a Brilliant Career

End Credit:
Augustana- Boston


Friday, February 09, 2007

Currently Listening
Audioboxer
By Something Corporate
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Sometimes when you're young you say things you shouldn't

In 2004 I took this quiz.  and in 2004 I was apparently mentally retarded.  So I'm redeeming myself. My new answers are in bold.

The Basics
o. First name: Pamela
o. Middle name: Elizabeth
o. Nickname(s): Spam, Pammy, Pamulator Bitch, Scarlet Begonia
o. Age: 16 19
o. Birthday: June 11
o. Height: 5'7 and 3/4"
o. Hair: brown, well lots of colors just brown
o. Eye color: blue
o. Glasses: sometimes
o. Hair short or long:depends on your definition of long long.
o. Where you now live:missery London
o. Astrology sign: Gemini
o. Chinese zodiac sign: rabbit aka the most retarded animal I like bunnies.
o. Bad habits: biting my nails liking dumb people
o. Piercings: ears
o. Tattoos: yes cuz Im just that dumb I guess I am that dumb!

THIS OR THAT
o. Rock or rap: Rock
o. Pop or rap: Rap
o. Rap or R&B: Rap
o. Rock or metal: metal!! ya cuz Im totally Marc ::shoots self in head:: rock
o. Linkin Park or limp bizkit : Limp Bizkit pre Wes leaving the band
o. Korn or tool : Tool Korn
o. Winter or summer: Summer
o. Spring or fall: Spring yay track yay track? oh GOD
o. ICP or Eminem: Eminem
o. Marilyn Manson or Rob Zombie: Zombie Marilyn
o. Kittie or Garbage: the fuck kinda question is this?...well the more girls in a band the more they SUCK! so I'll go w/ Garbage I like Garbage.
o. MTV or VH1: lets see, crappy shows or old people shit...tuff choice LOVE BOTH! VH1 though.
o. Buffy or Angel: um does it matter? I watched Angel every damn day over winter break.
o. Dawsons Creek Or Gilmore Girls: Dawsons Creek!!! sorry Shaila NOT SORRY!!!!
o. Football or basketball: crappy sports I pick hockey football
o. Summer olympics or winter Olympics: Summer cuz I saw them <-- pretentious!
o. Skiing or snowboarding: since i would break my legs doing either of them Im gonna have to go with sledding <--still true!
o. Rollerblading or skateboarding: yay for skateboarding I don't know how to skateboard but it's still cooler!

PRIVATE LIFE
o. Boyfriend/girlfriend: ya hell no.
o. Crush: that one kid not really
o. Do you love anyone right now: Ya my friends. all of them.
o. Have you ever been in love: yes
o. Ever had sex: NO! since Jeff didnt say it! dumb ass ...retarded...
o. How many people broke your heart: thats my job <--bitch
o. Do you go more by looks or personality: looks, hello! we all know I go by personality.
o. Ever kiss a friend: ya yes
o. Are you still friends: duh no
o. Do you smoke: nah sometimes
o. How about weed: thats Max's job sometimes
o. Are you a sissy who drinks Mike's Hard Lemonade and wine coolers: lol no that was 9th grade, I've moved on to better things <--this is not a true statement. wtf. and I love girl drinks.

WOULD YOU EVER
o. Bungee jump: um no. hells no.
o. Skydive: ya sure, falling out of a plane sounds fun. yes
o. Swim with dolphins: yay me and emma are so gonna! <--this did not happen, sting rays yes, dolphins no.
o. Scuba dive: no, how gay. whoop. no.
o. Go rock climbing: ew. I would break my nose like Paul
o. Change your religion: LOL cuz I dont already belong to the best one. ::sarcasm:: and be anything other than a Jellyologist/ Chronicologist? no.
o. Turn your back on your friends for personal gain: ya sure why not NO
o. Steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: hmm depends on how good of a friend NO!!!!!!!!
o. Lie to the police: hahahahaha! of course.
o. Run from the police: hhahahahaha! of course.
o. Speed away from the police:hahahahaha! of course.
o. Walk up to a total stranger and kiss them: depends on how hot they are NO!
o. Be an exotic dancer: how do you think I make a living now? <-- also not true. and no.
o. Walk out of a restaurant without paying: hmmm well if Jeffs there i dont pay anyways <--this is the dumbest thing I have ever written in my life.
o. Streak: hahahaha! no.

FRIENDS
o. Best friends: EMMA! my sister! Laura, Stuart, Amanda, Jeff i guess Stuart.
o. Known longest: hmmm Andrea cept she moved
o. Wish you talked to more than you do: no comment
o. Ever lose a good friend because you took it to the next level: no comment
o. Loudest: me Arine!!
o. Shyest: Shaila Liz maybe
o. Best hair: Laura P me. duh.
o. Can always make you laugh: Spencer yeah still true
o. Best eyes: Shelby
o. Most athletic: Shannon Liz worked out after we walked around oxford for 3 hours.
o. Shortest: hehe either Emma Angie or Laura Kimmy!
o. Tallest: not Jeff Peter?
o. Best singing voice: JENNY FROM THE BLOCK yeah it's still Jenny
o. Skinniest: Jeffy <--this makes me want to vom.
o. Nicest: me duh yeah it's still me.
o. Best personality: me duh yeah it's still me again.
o. Biggest drug user: Max duh I have no idea.
o. Alcoholic: Max duh no idea again.

HAVE YOU EVER
o. Flashed someone: nope
o. Told the person you liked how you felt: ya
o. Gotten really REALLY wasted: depends on your definition of really REALLY yes and about died.
o. Gone to jail/juvenile detention: um no
o. Skateboarded: haha <--this means I fall on my ass every time.
o. Skinny dipped: no
o. Stolen anything from a store: does my Grandpas count? yes.
o. Kissed someone of the same sex: ya hehe <--also makes me want to vom, but true none the less (no offense to anyone)
o. Been to a concert: since I was 9 average aprox. 7 a year <--pretentious!
o. Been to another country: yay Costa Rica I live in one.
o. Talked back to an adult: hhahahahaha Mrs Curran what a dumb ass this is mean. but all the time.
o. Given money to some homeless person: what? why would i waste my drug money on theirs? also mean.
o. Tried to kill yourself: no
o. Cried to get out of trouble: i dunno yeah probably.
o. Kissed a friend's brother/sister: no

THE LAST THING
o. You ate: salad chocolate buttons!
o. you drank: water
o. The last place you went: Bread Co the re re
o. Last thing you bought: salad from Bread Co Oxford clothing
o. Last person you saw: my Daddy, the real one I can still see Ashley. ew.
o. Last person you talked to on the phone: My aunty Mary as a black person would say Liz M

YES OR NO I did not grasp the concept of yes or no... and I still don't.
o. Do you like cows: yes
o. Do the voices talk only to you:yes no.
o. Are you straight: sometimes yes.
o. Are you short: depends on your definition of short no.
o. Do you own a hot pink shirt: duh Im a girl NO!
o. Do you like Marilyn Manson: since 6th grade. posers <--pretentioussssss
o. Do you shop at Hot Topic: I'M PUNK I SWEAR!!!! NO
o. Do you remember your dreams: parts yes
o. Can people read you like a book: depends on what my shirt says still true.
o. Do you talk a lot: only when Im not supposed to still true.
o. Are you afraid of clowns: ya still true.
o. Can you drive: lol drive? yes. drive well? thats questionable still true.
o. Are you an only child: unfortunatly no. no but... steven is... cool?


Saturday, February 03, 2007

Things can only get better.

you can fake it for a while
bite your tongue and smile
like every mother does her ugly child
but the stars are leaking out
like spittle from a cloud
amassed resentment counting ounce and pound

you're entertaining any doubt
because you had to know that I was fond of you
fond of Y-O-U
though I knew you masked your disdain
I can see that change was just too hard for us
hard for us
you always had to hold the reigns
but where I'm headed, you just don't know the way

so affections fade away
and do adults just learn to play
the most ridiculous, repulsive games
on the faith of ruddy sons
and the double-barreled guns
you better hurry
rabbit, run, run, run
cause meeting you was fun
and there's a lot of hungry howlers in this one cell
we're taking it over
their brittle, thorny stems
they break before they bend
and neither one of us is one of them

and the tails will never mend
cause you had it in for me so long ago
boy, I still don't know
I don't know why and I don't care
you don't hide me anymore
if you'd only seen yourself hating me
hating me
when I've been so much more than fair
but then you had to lay those feelings bare
one thing I know still got you scared
you're all that cold iron
and never once aired of our dead

you had to know that I was fond of you
fond of Y-O-U
so I took your lips at the time
and to change like that is just so hard to do
hard to do
don't let it whip-crack your life
and bow out from the fight
cause oh, how your sisters will write
the worst part is over
now, get back on that horse and ride



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