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Country: Australia
Birthday: 8/30/1974
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Interests: Skydiving, bushwalking, mountaineering, rockclimbing, kayaking, canyoning, relaxing with a good book near a roaring woodfire whilst sipping on a glass of red wine!
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Thursday, February 14, 2008

Healing Thoughts 2

Just an update on a family friend.

Ecie was involved in a major car accident on 21st January 2008 - her husband William has been keeping us all updated on her progress

http://www.bc.org.nz/smash/

If you can find the time have a look and send healing thoughts Ecie's way.

Dusk


Thursday, February 07, 2008

Catch Up

Ok time for the catch up on whats been happening in my life.

Since my last entry - Where Gary and I had just returned from NZ, Skiing, visiting family etc.  We decided on returning that we just had to take the girls over with us and immediately started arranging another trip.  We took the girls over for 2 weeks in January 2008 and they loved it.  I have heaps of pics but most of them are on Gary's computer at the moment so I will post them when I've transferred them across to mine.

We flew into Christchurch again and spent the first night in a hotel - the girls had their own room with an adjoining door to ours.  We spent that evening wandering around Christchurch city.  The next day we travelled from Christchurch to Nelson along the east coast.  We stopped at Kaikoura and visited the seal colony, but didn't really see much there.  Then finally arrived at my bestest friend in the whole wide world's house.  We spent five days in Nelson and travelled around the area - one of the biggest highlights was going horse trekking out at Cape Farewell.  There was the five of us, Terri, her step son Phil, and friends Aiden and Darley - we each got saddled up and trekked along a ridge overlooking Farewell Spit - the day was really hot, blue skies and clear - it was awesome!!!

We did heaps of other stuff while we were in Nelson, like celebrating Sarah's 16th birthday - this was really funny cos Phil (14) and Darley (13) commandeered the microphone off a band that were playing at the nightclub we had dinner at and sang her happy birthday - that is after introducing themselves and dedicating the song to "a very special lady"

We went swimming practically everyday, at the beach, in rivers. Had a magical time at Paynes Ford, just outside Takaka - the water was so warm and swimming around the rocks in amongst the trees was just awesome. The kids all had a great time on the hydroslide - got some amazing pics from that!!  The youngest two, Jessica and Emily had an absolute blast helping out at Terri's Cafe - Zippy's.  It was really neat to see them collecting coffee cups from patrons and having a little chat with the customers, taking them out the back and then waiting, watching to see what else they could do.  They looked so proud of themselves!!

Being in Nelson with Gary and the girls, and Terri was just amazing - while we were there I started to feel this overwhelming love towards Gary - it felt awesome, but scary at the same time.

Then we had to leave to continue with the next leg of the journey.  As always it was really hard to say goodbye to Terri, she is such a special person to me.  One day we will live in the same country again.

So we packed up and drove over to Picton to catch the Ferry across to Wellington.  Every moment of our trip was exciting for the girls - they loved that we were actually driving our car onto the boat!!!  In Wellington we had arranged another hotel for the night.  We could have stayed at my Aunties in Karori, but I thought with five of us that might be a bit much - but we arranged to head up to hers for a BBQ.  My brother and his girlfriend also came up so that was awesome.  We checked into the hotel and then caught the cable car up to the top, then my Aunty came and picked us all up.

The next day was a long day in the car - we drove from Wellington to Rotorua.  By this stage car travel was getting a bit annoying for the kids all cramped together in the back seat - we kept getting crys from the back, "Dont lean on me.  I want to sit next to the window.  Im feeling car sick (trying to get a seat next to the window)  Are we there yet?"  and many many more comments.  By the time we arrived at Rotorua, my fuse was very short.

I had booked two nights in a hotel in Rotorua - again with the girls in an adjoining room.  Prior to arriving at Rotorua we took a tiki tour out to Orakei Korako and got there just in time to catch a ride over on the boat to have a look at the thermal activity.  It was great to see both the girls and Gary's faces as they had never seen anything like this before.  Then we finally made it into Rotorua and went for a walk to find dinner.

I reached a bit of a low point by this time - I'd had enough of travelling, constantly hearing the girls whinging (not that it was all the time) and after dinner I just snapped - I had to walk away from them all in a totally different direction.  At the time I felt really disappointed at myself and kept asking myself if I could handle this.  I was questioning the relationship with Gary and me telling myself if I couldn't even handle dealing with the kids then I didn't deserve to be there.  I still want to have a baby and I even started questioning myself on this.  Basically I found myself feeling sorry for myself and trying to make excuses as to why the relationship just wouldn't work.  Looking back on this now I can see that I had reached a really high point on the trip with an overwhelming sense of love towards Gary and my unconscious self had started to put barriers up - to stop myself from getting hurt I started making up reasons to get out of the relationship to stop myself being hurt.  Silly silly girl.

So I went for a walk along the lake front, I had a little cry to myself and then returned to the Hotel room where Gary gave me a big hug and I fell asleep in his arms, to wake up in his arms in the morning.

The next day we took the girls Zorbing.  For those of you that dont know what zorbing is, its where you get put inside a big plastic bubble and they push the bubble down a big hill with you inside.  I had already done this with my little sister and step sister about 2 years before.  I thought that the girls would absolutely love it as they are sooooo adventurous.  Especially Jess - often described as the tomboy girly girl - rides a trailbike takes risks and gets muddy, but is right into the latest fashions and makeup.

So anyway - we put all three girls into one bubble - they chucked a bucket of water in with them and pushed them down the hill.  Unfortunately Jess hurt herself on the way down, banging her elbow and bruising nerves in her arm - she came out crying whilst the other two came out with huge grins on their faces.  It was too expensive to put her on another ride (which she wanted as she didn't enjoy the first one).  Poor thing, her arm hurt for quite some time after that.  That afternoon we went to a river we had seen whilst heading out to Orakei Korako and went swimming.  Jess went swimming to and eventually the pain in her arm was all forgotten.  The river was awesome and we had packed a picnic lunch - a free activity yet was so much more enjoyable than any paid activity.

After Rotorua, we drove across to the west coast of the North Island to Taranaki where we stayed with my Mum.  Over the next four days we just cruised around, up to the Mountain, swimming in icy cold mountain water, down to the beach, swimming at the river mouth and in the ocean.  Paul and Gary attempted fishing again, early one morning, but the swell was at least 2 metres and they didn't have any luck.  We visited Pukekura Park at night and saw all of the lights in the park - cruisy, but exhausting days.

Then on the last day in Taranaki, we packed up and headed out to the farm.  It was my uncles birthday and they had a pig on the spit.  My Aunty and Uncle had set up a big tent for us all to sleep in and heaps of other family members and friends were out for the night.  The girls took one look at the pig on the spit and declared themselves vegetarian.  Sarah and Emily stuck to this, but Jess didn't last - she is such a carnivore.  The girls all had a go at milking the cow with my Uncle and Auntie - poor Emily got pooed on which didn't go down so well especially as some got in her mouth - yuck.  But they all stuck it out and had a great time.

The next day was another long day in the car, travelling the back country from Te Wera out to the coast and then up to Auckland.  We had a slight accident in the hire car (cost us the excess - bugger) but lucky none of us were hurt and the car was still drivable.  It happened on a gravel road headning from the farm to the coast.  The road is very skinny and large gravel stones pile up in the middle of the roadway.  As we aproached a tight bend, there was a large pile of these stones in the middle which we moved further left to avoid, unfortunately right on the corner was a culvert that had been washed away leaving a huge pothole on the left side of the roadway.  We ended up in the pothole and pulled into the culvert scratching and denting the whole left hand side of the car - as I said before "BUGGER"

But we made it Auckland, were it was another one of my Aunties birthdays - she had booked a restaurant for all of us right on the waterfront in Auckland City.  We arrived at my Nana's where we were staying, unpacked the car, got changed into going out clothes and jumped on a bus for the city.  The restaurant was not like any I had been to before.  They have two sittings a night, one at 6pm and the other at 8pm.  The waiters just keep bring food around until you've had enough.  There was roast pork, lamb and beef.  Sausages, salmon, mussels, salad, prawns, breads - and they just kept coming back with more.  We had a lovely night but all that travelling had finally paid it toll and the two youngest started to fall asleep in the restaurant.  Emily was fast asleep by the time we left and we had to carry her to a taxi to get her home.

The next morning was our last day in NZ - so we went for a walk down to the water front from Nana's and looked out at Rangitoto - a volcano in the centre of Auckland Harbour.  We had a coffee sitting at the beach and then walked back to Nanas for lunch.  Then off to the airport.

All in all it was a great holiday.  All of us went through ups and downs and again I overanalysed every feeling I personally went through.

Since arriving back in Australia - Gary has spent pratically every night with me.  He is spending majority of his time at my place and I love it.  The girls keep saying they want to go back to NZ and we will definately do that again sometime.  They have met most of my family now and that is a really big deal to me - my Mum really wants Gary and I to get married.  She loved having the girls around and would love to call them her grandkids.  She said if we were married it would feel more committed to her.  I've never really thought about marriage like that - for the extended family's sake.  I've never really found it to be something I needed - but I can see where she is coming from.  Something to think about I guess.

So now we have been back at least two weeks - Im back at work - things are better there too - the bully Crime Manager has gone and Im not being picked on anymore.  Im actually starting to enjoy it again.

I haven't re started my renovations yet - very very slack - I need to get them finished now.

I have another dog - so now I have Max and Loki - Loki is a Blue Cattle X (something - possibly rotti) and is still a puppy - yet another stray I have taken in - doing all the usual puppy things like chewing everything to pieces - arrrrrgggghhhhh.

Til next time
Dusk



Monday, February 04, 2008

Healing thoughts

Again I've been slack and I will update on my life soon but for now I'd like for my xanga family to take five minutes of their time and go to this site. http://www.bc.org.nz/smash/  A good friend of my mums (Ecie) was in a very serious accident and this is a site that has been set up by her husband - he posts everyday with her progress so far.  There is a link to add your healing thoughts - the more the better.

William and Ecie have been involved in Buddism in New Zealand for as long as I can remember - definately before I was born and have had influence in the way my life has shaped so far.

Thanks
Dusk


Thursday, October 25, 2007

Nice day to stay inside

Its foggy and rainy outside - "great day to stay in bed" said Gary as he got up to go to work at 7am this morning.  And I thought so too - but I couldn't get back to sleep so now im up and about curled up on the lounge in my fluffy dressing gown, slippers and sipping on a nice hot cup of coffee.

Yes it is supposed to be summer now - well almost and the weather has been playing tricks on us - I even went and bought some new summer singlet tops the other day - they are going back in the closet for a while.

Things have been going pretty good for me - my relationship with Gary just seems to get better every day - it has reached a new relaxed level, a level I haven't been at for a long long time.  We are practically living together now without formally living together - he tends to stay at my house throughout the week and on weekends we stay at his house - of course this depends on when Im working - but basically we spend every day together.  It is still "My" house and "His" house and I kind of like it that way still.

Our trip to NZ was awesome - Gary loved my country, my family and friends - so much that we have booked our next trip in January - this time we are taking the girls with us.  As promised here are a couple of pics from the last trip.

  
Gary snowboarding - Treblecone - Wananka

Cheeky Kea!


Relaxing after a hard night out with My bestest friend in the whole wide world (Terri), Greg and Phil

Eighties party - doesn't my pink frilly dress look gorgeous!!

Gary fishing on Taranaki coast - yes he caught a fish!!!

My mountain - Te Maunga Taranaki (Maori for Mount Taranaki)

Of course there are heaps more photos but that will do for now.

In relation to my work issues I've been having for the past couple of years - there has finally been a break through!!  When I came back from  NZ, I was called in for a meeting with the Region office - I explained my situation to them for the 100th time also questioning why so many people from my Command had either left the job altogether or left the command to work elsewhere and Why this had never been investigated???

Outcome was - My commands Management are now under investigation!!!  YES FINALLY!!!!
The region office will be sending out a survey to all staff in this command - I have since spoken with a number of people who are eagerly awaiting this survey - the majority of people are willing to put their name to their comments and a large amount of people that have left the job and/or the command want me to forward the survey to them aswell!!

Also since this outcome, it appears the Management have been tipped off because they have backed off harrassing and targeting me - work is again a good place to go to.

I really need to get back into my renovations again - I put them on hold over winter (too cold to paint) and also when I drowned my car (needed the reno funds to pay for new car) but now it is warming up again and my funds are back on track - I just cant seem to get out of this procrastinating mode - hmmmmmmmm - well it is too wet and foggy to do anything today except sit around in my fluffy dressing gown and slippers - isn't it????

Hehehehe - life is good - really it is.

Dusk


Friday, September 07, 2007

NZ on Sunday!!!

OK - I know I know!!  I've been extremely slack at updating so here goes;

Drowned car was written off and I have a brand new (real 4wd) car and it matches my hair colour.
Yep - bright red!! hehehe I love it and it has girly car seat covers just to add a touch of character.

I had my birthday - first time in years I didn't have a party - but had a great birthday anyway.

I met with the Commissioner of Police in relation to the problems I've been having at work - he was lovely!!  A very approachable man - its a pity that he retired the day after my birthday - but still, he has helped me with a transfer to another location - well at least getting that in the pipeline.

Yes Im still having problems at work but hopefully this will all change soon.  Doesn't mean Im going to stop fighting for what I feel is right - I have a right to work in a safe environment free from bullying and harrassment.

AND Im heading over to NZ on Sunday!!!  WOOHOO!!!!!!   A much deserved holiday.  Gary is coming with me - he has never been to NZ so this is going to be so much fun!

I worked out that I have been living in Australia for nearly 11 years and during this time no-one has come back to NZ with me - not even one of my closest friends.  We have talked about it but it has never happened.  So this is really an important part of my life, to be able to show someone I care about very much, my home country.

So I am officially on holidays now - last shift finished 7am Thursday morning.  I am procrastinating at the moment - have too much to do - washing clothes, packing, getting house clean enough to leave, oh its all too hard!!!

So there you have it - a catch up on the last few months - definately a very brief report - I've had some fairly major dramas along the way but it would take too much to write it all down - since when has my life ever been boring?????

Take care
Dusk



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