!Im g0ne!

( well ill be g0ne in the m0rning.. but i just w0nt have time t0 update and let yall kn0w..)

*Ill be back h0pefully right bef0re valentines day!*

welp.. i actually didnt kn0w h0w hard this was g0ing t0 be f0r me again.. saying g00dbye n all. i never knew that i w0uld ever get myself int0 s0mething like this. but i did. and n0w i just have t0 deal with it. even th0 it is s0 hard 0n my part. but i have t0. i really just d0nt have a ch0ice.
i think its the hardest seeing your family cry... and kn0wing that u are the reas0n why. i really never ever meant t0 hurt them like this, 0r ne 0ne. i never meant f0r all this t0 happen. I am truly s0rry f0r all my acti0ns.. and i am able t0 face up t0 that. i d0nt even remember h0w it ended up like this. i just kn0w that i messed up so badd. and i just have to deal with that n0w.
Please just realize h0w much your family means t0 y0u. ya i know- y0u might n0t always get al0ng 0r whatever. but they are your family. they will be there f0r y0u n0 matter what. i have learned that the hard way. I kn0w that my family w0uld and will d0 nething f0r me. My m0m has been here f0r me thr0ugh all this. me in juvy ( twice) and n0w g0ing t0 rehab. I regreat it all s0 much. but i just cant take n0ne 0f it back. ya its all in the past- but the past really just predicts ur future.. i think anyways. i just pray that my future will be s0 much better than all this that i am going thr0ugh n0w. n01 even understands it. but thank y0u t0 all wh0 have been here for me. i luvv u all s0 much.. well enuff 0f me g0ing 0n and 0n ab0ut my pr0blems and what i think.. time for sum shout 0uts..
*Sarah(sister)- i luvv you so much. i am sorry about all of this. i didnt mean for all of this to happen. thank you tho for being here for me. i am sorry that i am not that perfect good sister ne more..
*Jordan- AKA my pen pall f0r life! l0l geez h00chie.. even th0 me and y0u have never actually hung 0ut.. 0nly 0n that field trip with my m0m ( which was the shit) l0l i will miss y0u.. thnk y0u f0r everything. y0ur such a sweetie
*leslie- i luvv u hun.. i will miss u. gladd i got to talk to u b4 i left. u better send me pics of u and jaydenn p00.. luv u
*Heather- damn girl. i luvv you to death. i miss you alot to and i cant wait until i get out so we can hang out. i miss the old days!
*brittney- hey sweets.. geez like u said- even tho we havent seen eachother in how long? i will so miss you too..
*JOE- lil ol` ganster joe.. i am gladd that u came over n said goodbye to me. i miss ya lots.. we will have to hang out when i get back.. your whole family promised to write to me.. haha i luvv them (christina & nick)
*Connie- i luvv you. i miss the 0ld days with y0u t00. the belt0n park. i always had fun with y0u. thnk y0u f0r saying y0u wanted t0 keep in t0uch
*Pissa- hey girl.. well i dunno really what to say. i havent seen ya since skewl last year.. but i do miss you alot.. u always put a smile on my face.. even if i was having the worst day ever. i luvv you pisss..
*Mr. Starken..- geez i am gladd that me n u are kewl again.. were always going on and off with our friendship. but we do need to stay kewl. i miss y0u al0t.. thnks f0r surpising me and c0ming 0ver.. i luvv y0u
*emily- you better stay out of trouble.. n myabe- ill see you in rehab. haha ill be looking forward to that!
*Jesse- hey buddd.. i luvv you. and u better not move away until i get back.
Crystal- hey i know that we arent the best of friends right now. but i luv you and u better know that and belive it hunn.
*TYLER ( my man) i luvv you. and i know that you wont read this. but i just want everyone to know how great of a b/f u are to me. i miss you and love you so much. cant wait until you come home from iraq!!

welp i think thats about it.. i luvv you all

My address in rehab


Pathways impatient/ adolestant unit
Attention- Rachael Uttley
1800 Community Dr.
Clinton Mo, 64735

^ i guess i will find 0ut wh0 my true friends really are!

welp i think i am d0ne here f0r n0w..
i h0pe t0 hear fr0m s0me pe0ple..
if n0t.. its w/e

<3 rachael
ily all


*smacka ann- L0L mm where d0 i even start?
i h0pe u kn0w that i luvv u s0 much. and i miss y0u al0t! i really h0pe that when i d0 get back we`ll be able t0 be friends again and hang 0ut like we used t0.. i h0pe t0 hear fr0m u in rehab... be g00d.. ily

EDIT

Hey guys.. so i am h0me 0n a 48 h0ur pass f0r xmas.. its kewl i guess. its just gunna be hard t0 say g00dbye again
my cuzins came 0ver f0r xmas.. it was kewl..
get t0 g0 sh0ppin when i get 0ut..
n then i get tylers xmas gift t00! haha yess
i luvv him s0 incredibly much!!
N thnk y0u t0 all the pe0ple wh0 have wr0tten me in rehab..
ily all..
and if u havent..
its kewl.. i see wh0 my true friends are..
well i d0nt have t0 much t0 say..
I luvvv tyler