i just don't get it.

i lost an uncle, a grandmother, and a friend this year. my friends has lost loved ones too. why is it all happening all at the same time.

i just got back from the philippines. i was there for my grandmother and my friend. my grandmother lived a long life but my friend was young. he was too young.

i feel like there's no point in trying to be happy. it's never going to happen. it's just not. i'll leave it at that.