give me my medication!okay..now that im officially on anti deppresents, they dont seem to be alot in effect. im supposed to take them in the morning but i take them at night along with my sleeping pills so i sleep easier...proly have to try taking them in the morning soon...otherwise ill get yelled at by my doctor. :s BUT THEIR MAKING ME HELL TIRED.crap havnt had a good day in the past week. sorry i havnt been updating for those who read this...anyway me an glenn are not going to happen, and that guy i saw( daniel) i saw him again and were going to see each other again sometime this week. probably going to end up fucking each other again. least i wont be sexually frustrated.hehe work bores the shit outa me. leave my head to mull over things i shouldnt mull over. i was really tempted to take all my sleeping tablets last night. didnt feel like waking up in the morning. i sat there staring at my medication bottle and poured all of them out in my hand. took alot of me to put them back. so im all alone working here in the store.no one to talk to, no customers right now. bored to shit. somebody plz buy a frigin wedding dress already. glenns really pissed off at me. he told me he has intentions of going out again but he wanted to gimme some time. i made out with a random at a club when we were all out together clubbing. he saw. hes not talkin to me now. maybe its better this way. i dont want anyone to have feelings for me right now.aparently he called me a slut. but im okay with it surprisingly. emma wants to tell him about my deppression and maybe be less pissed at me. i dont know how that would make him less pissed though. but i do feel like i dont know who i am anymore and my actions dont really have any reason...acting on impulse. lately ive been doing 100-200 cals intake evryday. no results yet. crossed fingers that ill drop to 50 kg soon. | 
